A/N: disclaimer it is not my intention to profit from Shonda Rhimes or the people who make and write Grey's Anatomy this is just for me and hopefully a few other like it too. I picture Astraea as Victoria Justice but feel free to cast whoever you want in the role.

Astraea POV-

Jackson: "patient with 60% surface area burns. She was pulled from a house fire this morning."

Astraea: "How, I mean are we gonna be able to help her? I can't imagine..."

Jackson: "I know we just do the best we can. Just try and prepare yourself, don't let the horror or pity show on your face, burns like these are difficult we shouldn't add to it."

Astraea: "Yes, of corse."

Dr. Avery goes in first but I take a little moment before following.

Astraea: "This will not be easy."

Dr. Avery greets the patient and tells her what we will be doing. I try to keep my face as passive as possible. I know I got into the medicine for the science of it for working hard to achieve possible solutions to impossible situations but things like this makes me just want to wish for a magic wand. Its not fair for anyone to suffer even a brief moment of this.

"I'm so cold, I can't stop shaking. I mean, isn't that weird, that that I got burned and I'm cold?" The patient asks.

Jackson: "Well, your skin and your nerves have experienced severe damage. You are unable to retain heat or feel surface pain. Dr. Torres, do you want to walk Anne through what we're gonna be doing today?"

Astraea: "Yes. Hi Anne, first of all you can call me Rea if you wish and I am so so sorry this happened to you." I see Dr. Avery tense and give me a stern look, "Today we'll debride the burns layer by layer until we expose healthy tissue to Help new skin grow." Yeah just annoyed another attending great job Rea.

The Patient next door shouts out warning her its gonna hurt like hell. I smile a bit, I like keeping it real but again this seems to make Dr. Avery uncomfortable but I am glad it looks like Anne gonna have a bit of extra support going through this because she wasn't exaggerating this will be excruciating.

I leave to go find Anne's husband but don't make it a step before Dr. Avery has started and she is screaming in agony. Fuck I always thought plastics was boob and nose jobs, its not supposed to be this damn depressing. Really could use that magic wand right now.

Later that night Callie and I were talking over a glass of wine after Sofia went to bed and got me up to speed a little bit, I found out Dr. Avery and his wife just lost their child. Again I try and school my face suddenly thankful for the practice Dr. Avery gave me earlier. She doesn't know... no one can know.

When I arrive at work the next day I over hear Dr. Avery and his wife... Dr. Kepner I think I haven't worked with her yet, anyway they are talking about Meredith Grey the one Callie told me disapeared after her husband died. Whenever I start to realize just how depressing this place is I try to focus on Sofia's face. Sofia, Sofia, Sofia, Sofia.

Jackson: "How is what you're doing any different than Meredith Grey?"

Kepner: "We've been over this... because my husband didn't die, because I'm not running away from anything." I see the same stern look he gave me earlier when I was too friendly/casual with our burn patient I'm gonna take that to mean he doesn't believe her.

Kepner: "...because this is an incredible opportunity for me to learn surgical techniques that I've never even dreamed of." I catch sight of his face one more time before going through the door, he looks so sad... and hurt. I can feel tears starting to build in my eyes and I quickly make my way inside not wanting anyone to see. Maybe Mom was right, maybe I'm too sensitive to be a doctor.

Jackson POV:

Kepner: "Jackson, it's only three months...You could at least pretend to be happy for me."

Happy?! Is she freaking kidding? We just lost our son and she wants to leave me to be alone in our apartment every night that was supposed to be filled with our crying healthy newborn. Yeah I am freaking ecstatic for you April.

It doesn't matter no matter what I say she's still gonna go, she has never given in to me on anything, its always what she wants and how she decides things are gonna be. Sometimes I really wish I would have just kept my ass seated at her wedding.