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The Problem With Love Is:

Chapter two: Everything I Wish

Harry awoke the next morning in his bed. He sat and was greeted by a pounding headache. He rubbed his eyes and grabbed his glasses from his nightstand.

"Harry!" he heard Ron's voice calling fromthe common room.

Shoving on his glasses and running his fingers through his hair he stood up. He thought he could faintly smell the soft scent of cherries and he quickly remembered the night before.

His shampoo. His shampoo smelled of cherries. 'Dobby,' he thought to himself, 'did he carry me up here?'

"Harry, get up!" he heard Ron scream again.

Harry pulled his hands up to his head rather roughly and pulled at his hair. 'Ron really isn't helping this headache of mine get any better by screaming like that,' he thought to himself.

Harry slid into his trousers and shirt and began walking towards the common room while buttoning his robes.

He saw Ron and Hermione sitting, no, more like cuddling on the couch looking at the warm fire. He cleared his throat and dragged himself over to them. Ron and Hermione looked up at their friend smiling.

"Good morning, Harry, did you sleep well?" Hermione asked in a motherly tone.

"Yes, mother, I slept fine thanks," Harry replied, every word dripping with sarcasm as he rolled his eyes at her.

Hermione's smile turned into a worried look as she said, "Harry, is there something wrong?"

"No, I'm fine. Sorry I was rude," Harry replied forcing himself to smile.

Ron and Hermione got up from the couch and the trio made there way to the portrait hole. They climbed through and Hermione started walking towards the grand staircase.

"Where are we going?" Harry asked but none the least interested.

"To great hall of course," Ron said rubbing his stomach.

"Excuse me, Ronald, but when was this decision made?" Hermione snapped at him.

"It's Saturday morning, there aren't any classes where else would we be going!" Ron snapped back.

"To the library, of course. There is a potions exam next week that we need to study for," Hermione said calmly.

"You can go to the library Hermione. Just because that's what you want to do doesn't mean it's what we want to do. Harry and I are going to the great hall," Ron said.

"Ron, you need to study for the exam!" Hermione said in a kind of worried tone.

"It's not until Friday for Merlin's sake. We have all next week to study for it. So you just run along to the library and read your little books, but Harry and I are going to enjoy the weekend," Ron said scowling at her.

"Actually, Ron, I'm not hungry. I think I'll go to-" Harry started to say

"HA! See Ronald, Harry wants to study as well. It looks like you will be pigging out by yourself today," Hermione interrupted Harry.

"No, I, err, actually just want to go somewhere be myself today. Not the library and not the great hall," Harry said tiredly.

Ron looked absolutely crushed, "But Harry …"

"I'm sorry guys. I just want to be alone today. I'll catch up with you later," Harry stated.

"Alright then Harry. I'll see you later," Hermione said.

"What?!" Ron screamed, "Are you to good to hang out with us all day. Are we not cool enough for the boy-who-lived!" Ron's face reddened deeply with anger.

Harry was a bit taken back but quickly said, "Whatever, Ron. Bye Hermione," and ran past them towards the grand staircase.

Harry was halfway to the lake when he ran into Malfoy. "Move it Malfoy, I'm in a hurry," Harry said to him harshly.

"What's wrong, Potter, did your gay lover Ron, and Mudblood girlfriend Hermione run off and leave you?" Malfoy hissed at him.

Harry looked up from the ground and looked straight into Malfoy's eyes. He could see the fear Malfoy was trying to hide from him.

He doesn't know what made him do it. He just did it without thinking. As if he was under the imperious curse and a truth potion both.

"Don't you notice anything Malfoy?" Harry asked fighting back those annoying tears.

Malfoy looked at him confused and Harry pounced. Malfoy fell backwards and grabbed onto Harry for support pulling Harry down on top of him. Harry's hands were placed firmly around Malfoy's neck and a silent tear dropped from Harry's eyes and fell onto Draco's cheek

"Gosh, Potter, you're such a girl, Now, get off of me scarhead.

"Draco, why don't you see inside me? Why can't anyone see inside me?" Harry screamed at him.

Draco looked more then confused as Harry began his confession.

"Everything I do is right," Harry began,

"Everything I am is wrong

Everything I feel is kept locked up inside of me

Everything I say I hold back

Everything I want to say is screaming in my head

I clench my teeth and bite my tongue

I hold my breath and tense my body

I run in my room and shut my door gently

I slam myself on my bed and scream in my pillow

I pull at my hair and rip at my sheets

I fall off my bed and crawl in a corner

I clench my fists and tears tear down my face

I hug my knees and rock back and forth

I look at my wrists and wish I had a knife

I close my eyes and pretend I am dead

I wish I could scream out loud

I wish I could slam my door

I wish I could turn my music up loud

I wish I could just be left alone

I wish I could run away

I wish I could step out-of-line

I wish people knew how I felt

I wish people cared how I felt

I wish I had a normal life

I wish I had a home that accepted me

Everything I hold back is building up inside of me

Everything I want I wish I had

I wish I didn't have to see what I wanted everywhere I go

I wish I could be truly happy like them

I wish I hadn't been rejected

I wish people could understand me

I wish someone would listen to me

I wish it didn't hurt so bad just to spend the night at my friends' house

I wish it didn't hurt so bad to see the smiling

I wish it didn't hurt so bad to see them argue

I only wish I could argue like them

I wish I had their problems

Their family problems

The kind of problems between a mom and dad and a child

I wish I wasn't such a burden

I wish they understood how lucky they are

I wish they would appreciate what they have

I wish they knew I would do anything to have what they have

I wish that people knew that I hold all this in

I wish people knew that it made me want to kill myself everyday

I wish people knew that I fantasize about cutting myself

I wish people would just let me live my life they way I want to

I wish people would let me be happy

I wish that I were perfect

I wish that I made people happy

I wish that everything I am was right

I wish I didn't feel this way

I wish I didn't cry so much

I wish these tears would stop clouding my vision

I wish I didn't have so many problems

I wish I could just accept life as it is

I wish I didn't cry myself to sleep every night!" Harry screamed and sobbed at Malfoy.

With that Harry collapsed on top of Malfoy. Draco just laid there. To confused to realize what was happening. He heard Harry take in a deep breath and soak his robes with tears.

Malfoy shoved Harry off of him and stood up dusting the dirt off of his robes. He looked around to make sure no one had seen them then looked down to see Harry curled up and shaking as he cried.

Draco stood there looking at Harry, unsure of what to say.

TBC …

A/N- I hope you all are enjoying my story. I am extremely sorry about the long wait but my parents decided for no reason to cancel my internet access. So after a lot begging and silent treatment I got it back. Thank you for reading my story and please review.

I am currently at my moms house visiting her and I will be here until Christmas. Therefore, I can not put up chapter 3 till I get back home to my laptop. I have chapter 3 more then halfway finished so check back a few days after Christmas for it.