I'm not paralyzed but I seem to be struck by you
"I cannot believe you are an intern!" Meredith exclaimed as she looked Mark up and down. He still looked the same to her. The long, masculine body, tough exterior, piercing eyes…yep, he defiantly still was the Mark Sloan she grew up with.
"And you…wow." Mark stared at her fully grown chest, which for some reason really intrigued him, but he shrugged it off because he was Mark and any girl could turn him on. But still, Meredith? Wow, did she get beautiful.
She shrugged then looked back at Derek who was shuffling his feet in the corner. "Derek, come here!" she yelled across the room.
He looked up then hesitantly walked over. "Hey, Mer…" he said. She smiled but raised her eye brow. "You are not acting very cheery."
"Sorry, I'm just not in the mood."
Mark rolled his eyes. "He got left at the alter."
Meredith's mouth immediately dropped. Derek Shepherd being dumped?! No woman in their right mind would dump a gorgeous, sweet, sensitive guy like him. (Who definitely got a lot hotter over the last 10 or so years)
"Wow, Derek I, I'm so sorry."
"Yeah but its okay…" he grinned, "What are the odds we would pick the same hospital?"
She laughed. "Well you two seem to still be close."
Mark smiled. "We went to the same college, basically lived together…and Derek's mom kind of has a connection to the chief here, so we went for it."
"Well my mom insisted I go into this program. She said all the other ones were horrible."
Mark gave her a flirtatious smile then asked, "How about you come to Joes with us tonight?"
"Me? Tonight?"
"Yeah, our first shift doesn't start till tomorrow…so we could all get drunk and take advantage of each other."
Meredith slapped Mark across the arm. "I thought your irregular hormonal output would've dimmed down by now."
He grinned. "I'm Mark, babe…I don't dim down."
At Joes, Derek and Mark waited patiently for Meredith to arrive.
"Dude, can you believe how HOT and sexy Meredith got? Like she was gorgeous in high school but now?! Holy crap!"
Derek nodded. "Yeah, she did get beautiful."
Mark looked at his best friend long and hard. He could tell he was still hurting from Addison leaving him, but the thing was, Mark was hurting too. After all, Addison left Derek to be with him. And he even slept with her before the wedding. Of course, Derek didn't know any of this, and Mark insisted on keeping it this way. What a great friend he was.
"I'm getting married tomorrow…" Addison repeated for the fifth time as she downed the rest of the tequila from the bottle. "As in, for a lifetime."
Mark took another swig of his beer then sat next to Addison, who's long leg were sprawled all over the floor. "Does he know that your up hear drowning your sorrows in tequila?"
She shrugged then grabbed the beer bottle from Mark. "He doesn't know anything. He doesn't listen. He thinks we're both totally happy, but I'm not…I don't know. Maybe I don't deserve a guy like Derek."
Mark brushed some of her red locks out of her eyes then smiled. "Maybe Derek doesn't deserve a great girl like you. You're beautiful Addison, inside and out. If he doesn't know that, then that's his fault. Not yours."
She gave him a small, sad smile. "You've always listened to me."
He nodded. "And I will continue to listen."
Then without thinking, she leaned in and kissed him. To his total shock, he kissed her back.
"Mark, how long do you think I'm going to be this depressed?" Derek asked his voice horsed and shaky.
"You just need a girl to get over Addison," Mark suggested. "You're going to be fine man."
"I wish I believed that."
Meredith gathered her clothes together and sighed in frustration as her roommates looked at her with questioning eyes. "I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR!"
"Are you meeting guys?" Izzie asked her voice full of excitement. "Are there two, can I have one?! Please!"
"Wait, I thought you said they were friends?" George asked suspiciously.
"They are friends," Meredith responded, "That are guys."
"Bullshit they're just friends," Izzie laughed. "Wear your mini skirt with that halter top."
"NO!" George interjected, "She'll look too…well, you know."
Meredith smiled. "I'm just going to wear my jeans and a T-shirt."
"EW!" Izzie screamed. "They are not going to like you in that!"
"Iz, I don't like them! Well, I do…but only as friends."
George nodded. "That's good."
Izzie shook her head. "Fine, but I still don't believe you are "just friends" with them." She put air quotes around just friends then fell back onto her bed.
Meredith sighed; it was true they were just friends. But, there was a time where she tried to be something more with Derek. Of course, it didn't work out. And of course, Mark never knew.
"Where are we going?" Meredith laughed as a 16 year old Derek covered her eyes with his hand.
"Shut up! You'll ruin the surprise."
"Well what is the surprise?"
He grinned. "You'll see."
He led her onto a large hill, overlooking the busy city of New York. When he finally removed his hand from her eyes, she gasped. "Derek…"
"Remember after you saw the Notebook, the one thing you wanted to do was dance in the moonlight with no music?"
She nodded, a huge smile invading her face.
"Well, here we are. Shall we dance?" He held out his hand, and she quickly took it.
"You've just earned major brownie points."
He laughed then pulled her closer to him, allowing her head to rest on his firm chest.
Meredith opened the door to Joes then quickly sat down next to Mark and Derek.
"Hey, straight tequila please." She said to the bartender.
Mark looked at her with amusement. "Straight?! Wow, Grey you have changed."
She stuck her tongue out. "Well I'm not a perfect angel Mark."
"I can see that," He said as he smiled at her.
She could feel her cheeks reddening. Since when did Mark make her blush?
"Is he okay?" she asked, her question directed towards Derek. She had to get off the topic of how much she's changed…it was way too weird, especially with Mark.
He shrugged. "He's Derek…silently brooding."
"Why did she leave?" she asked as she took a sip of her drink.
Mark froze up. "I don't know, I don't think she loved him anymore."
"HELLO! I CAN HEAR YOU!" Derek yelled in Mark's ear. "I'm fine, Mer…I just need to get her off my mind."
"What was her name?" Meredith questioned.
Derek smiled, "Addison."
"That's a pretty name…" Meredith said indifferently. Derek really seemed broken, and whoever this Addison person was, was to blame. She hated her. What kind of person leaves their finance at the alter?!
"You hate her, don't you?" Derek asked with a small smile. "Thanks for hating her, Mer, I mean I'm trying to hate her, and I probably do. I just need to get over the shock of it all."
Meredith placed her hand on his back, then smiled reassuringly. "You'll get over it. You always do." Derek's lips immediately thinned because he knew she was talking about her and him.
"I don't think we should be doing this…" Derek said one afternoon as Meredith was getting dressed.
"What do you mean?" she asked.
"This…" he motioned to the bed. "All of this, I mean…maybe its better we just stay friends."
Her eye brows furrowed. "Wait, I don't understand. Yesterday you were telling me how much you loved me and now you are saying you want to break up?!"
"Mark doesn't even know about us! Neither do our parents, we can't be honest with them, so why even bother?"
"Oh…" realization dawned on her face. "It's because I'm me, right?"
"What?!"
"Cut the shit Derek, I know why you don't want to do this!"
"THEN TELL ME!" He yelled his voice firm.
"You and Mark are the popular guys, I get it. You have your boys and reputations to live up to and your girlfriends are supposed to be pretty and normal, which I obviously am not with my pink hair and army boots..."
"MEREDITH WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?! We have been best friends since effing eighth grade!"
"Yeah just friends, nothing more…"
He grew silent. "Do you want more?"
"WHAT DO YOU THINK I'M DOING HERE DEREK IF I DIDN'T WANT MORE?!"
He tried to speak but no words came out.
"You know what, fine I'll leave! Have a nice life jackass!" she screamed before slamming the door in his face.
A/N: Okay, so Mark and Addison slept together before Derek's wedding, and that's when Addison left Derek at the alter. But, Derek does not know. And Meredith and Derek tried to have a relationship, but he didn't want to continue it. Why? Well, I can't tell you. But you will find out. And I know this seems really confusing but as I post more chapters you'll see why Derek didn't want to continue the secret fling with Meredith, and how they swore to never talk about it again. So that's just to clarify everything. If you have any questions, just ask. But I promise it'll all make sense. But, you are going to have to review :P
