Alright guys here is the second chapter for my fic. Thank you to all the people who reviewed or favorited my story. Sorry if this chapter is horrible, I lost my internet connection and didn't get it back until late at night. This was kind of written in a hurry. WARNING: This chapter contains lots of rainbow puking inducing fluff and contains self-harm. I OWN ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.

Merlin ran. He didn't know where he was running to, but it didn't matter, he just ran. You two almost kissed! For the love of the Great Dragon's cryptic answers you two almost kissed! He stopped running when he realized that he was in front of his chambers.

After sitting down, he replayed the moment over and over again in his mind. The way Arthur's breathe had ghosted across his face and the way that the sky blue eyes seemed to be able to look inside him. Why would Arthur ever want YOU? You're weak, pathetic, and useless. Everyone around you either dies or gets hurt, his inner demon seemed to taunt.

He jumped up and started pacing. Come on Merlin, you know I'm right. You're not worry of Arthur's love, it hissed at him. Without thinking he rammed his fist into the wall. But instead of feeling pain, he only felt satisfaction as he saw the blood flow down his fingers. Good Merlin, you deserve it, this is nothing compared to the pain you cause others.

Unconsciously he knelt by the loose floorboards, ignoring the blood that continued to drip unto the floor. Nestled with his magic book was a jeweled dagger given to him by Balinor before his death. He gazed at it blankly and mechanically drew it across his arm. The release was almost instantaneous. He did it one more time, then twice until he felt satisfied. He watched with grim satisfaction as his own blood seeped out of his arm, carrying with it all his guilt and self-loathing.

Then the panic seemed to settle in him as he saw the mess. The wall had a rather nice hole in it and the floor was covered in his blood. After bandaging his arm and knuckles, he flipped through the magic book for a simple cleansing spell. Upon finding it, he quickly uttered the words and watched as the mess was completely cleaned.

Suddenly the day's events seemed to catch up to him, and he felt the darkness surround him as he fell on his bed, not noticing that he was indeed shirtless and his scared arms were in display for the world to see.

Arthur's POV

He had half expected Merlin to be back in his chambers after collecting his thoughts. But as the day wore on, no one came. He fell asleep that night worried that he had taken things too far.

But the next morning when Merlin did not show up, the worry turned into anger. Where is that idiot? I mean it's not like we did anything terrible. All I did was almost kiss him. He exited his room and hurried down to Gaius' chambers.

After hearing a quiet "Come in." He stormed in, demanding to know where his useless manservant was. "Why, Merlin's in his room Sire," he heard Gaius answer.

Rushing past the old physician, he barged into Merlin's room. The first thing he noticed was that Merlin was shirtless. The second thing he noticed was that Merlin looked very good shirtless. The third thing noticed was that he should not be drooling at the fact that Merlin looked very good shirtless.

After snapping himself out of his rather "innocent" fantasies, he zeroed unto Merlin's bandaged arm and continued upward focusing on the pale white scars covering it. He felt his heart drop to the floor and run to the other side of Camelot. His feet unconsciously carried him to Merlin's side. He reached his arm and cautiously started to trace the scars. He froze when Merlin stirred beneath him, but continued his ministrations after the movements stopped.

"Oh Merlin, why?" he whispered.

"Because you don't love me," a voice answered back.

Shocked he looked down at Merlin and saw two sad sapphire eyes gazing back up at him.

"I…I um," was the very intelligent response that came out of his mouth. Merlin looked at the startled expression on Arthur's face. With a sad smile he jumped out the bed and ran out of the chambers.

"Merlin wait!" And this time, Arthur ran after Merlin.

Merlin's POV

Once again Merlin was running with no apparent destination. He kept running until he couldn't hear Arthur's shouts behind him. He collapsed against the wall, trying to calm his breathing.

He groaned, not only had he almost kissed Arthur but had also declared his love for him. He was so caught up in his self- wallowing that he didn't notice that Arthur had caught up to him. When he felt someone slide down next him, he managed to break out of his thoughts. After sneaking a glance at Arthur he tried to determine if he could run again.

"Don't," came the voice next to him

"Don't what?"

"Don't run from me."

By now the two boys were facing each other. Once again sky blue was met with deep sapphire.

"Were you telling the truth?" Arthur asked.

"Was I telling the truth about what?"

"About loving me."

Merlin flushed as he looked down, refusing to meet the young prince's gaze. Two fingers gently lifted his chin up. Two eyes were gazing at him softly and longingly. He nodded slowly not trusting himself to speak.

Arthur's face broke into a breathtaking smile. Still having one hand under Merlin's chin he slowly leant in until their lips met.

The feelings that coursed through him were unexplainable. After a moment's hesitation he could feel Merlin cautiously moving his own lips. Growing more confident he pushed into Merlin harder and wrapped his arms around the younger boy's waist. Merlin automatically wrapped his arms around Arthur's neck, entwining one of his hands in the prince's hair.

As fast as the kiss started, it soon ended. Arthur pushed Merlin's forehead against his, and they just sat there. But then the words from earlier ran through Merlin's mind. 'Everyone around you either dies or gets hurt.'

He jumped up and slowly started backing away. "I'm sorry, I…I can't," and with that Merlin found himself running away from Arthur for the third time day.

The POV of the two girls who secretly ship Merthur

"When do you think the idiots are going to end up together?" the Lady Morgana asked.

"Well my Lady, since Arthur has the emotion range of a toothpick and Merlin doesn't even know what romance is, I believe it might take a while," Gwen answered.

"Well then I believe tomorrow shall be the perfect day for us to put our plan into action."

"I couldn't agree more my Lady."

And with that the two women walked away grinning rather smugly with evil glints in their eyes.

Alright that is the end of my second chapter. If you have any advice or hate send them my way. If there is anything in here that you don't like and think I should revise it, tell me and I might just take it into consideration. Again thank you for all the reviews and favorites, everyone is getting a virtual cookie and taco.