Break Up

I can't believe it. Kira doesn't want to be with me on New Year. Thought Lacus as she lies in her bed. It was already 2:00 am. The lights in her room were all turned off so it was really dark. The snow storm is evidently getting stronger and it was getting colder so she covered her self with her warm blanket though she's already wearing her pajama and socks. Not realizing it, she suddenly felt some kind of wet feeling in her eyes. She immediately gets up and put her hands upon her cheeks as she continues to feel something in her eyes falling to her cheeks. "Tears?" She asked her self surprised.

The next morning the storm already stop. The houses and the roads were all covered with snows. All day long she waited for Kira's call. Whenever the phone rings, she runs fast to its direction and answer it but gets disappointed whenever she recognized that it wasn't him. She also sits beside the window in her room to eventually see Kira's figure but the day has passed slowly without seeing even his shadow.

"Are you mad at me?" Lacus said as she writes something in a piece of paper. "Did I…" Lacus stopped writing and instead crumpled it then throws it in the garbage can beside her table. "No… I won't call you or even write you a letter."

Two more days have passed and still Kira haven't showed up. Lacus' friends visited her and invited her to watch movies, eat outside and go rowing around the mall but she turned them down. Though they keep asking why, she refused to tell them the real reason and instead pretend that she's sick. The truth is that she's still waiting for his arrival but she just ends up disappointed that ever.

"I hate you." She told her self before going to sleep on the 28th of December.

"I think I'm being harsh to Lacus… Athrun." Said Kira throwing some chips to Athrun who's sitting on the coach with their other two friends in his house.

"No you're not; sometimes you just need to teach girls some lessons." Athrun said slapping Kira hard on his back as he sits beside him. "Believe me, the next time she sees you again, she won't be that stubborn to listen." Athrun laughed but as he sees Kira in his sad aura he stopped. "Don't tell me you already miss her?"

Kira didn't answer though the truth is he misses her just like Lacus to him.

"Hey!" Said Athrun slapping him again on his back. "Do you miss her? You've become a baby ever since you got involved with her!" They all laugh except Kira who find his joke insulting.

"I don't miss her…" he lied.

Athrun raised an eyebrow. "Really? If what you're saying is true, then I dare you to avoid seeing her until next year."

"That's a great idea… But can you handle it, Kira?" Teased one of their friends. "Kira?"

Right, I've become a baby ever since I got involved with her but… but that doesn't matter. I want to see her before the year ends, besides I haven't apologize to her yet. He thought seriously after noticing the silence, he sees his friends staring at him like waiting for an answer.

"So… What? Are you in for the deal? I can give you 200 bucks if you can avoid seeing her within those three more days. Are you in or out?" Athrun asked showing off 200 bucks from his pocket. Still, Kira kept silent. "I know, you already developed an emotional dependency on her that's why you can't…"

"I'm definitely in!" Kira cut him off. He gets the money from his hand making his friends speechless but at the same time bewildered at his sudden change of mood. "I'm not a baby and more on, I'm not dependent on her. I can go on without her." The words he spoken where something he didn't expected. After his friends left, he sits quietly in his bed not knowing how to deal with this impulsive decision he made. That's true, I'm not dependent on her but… Can I go on without her?

The New Year came and Lacus spend her New Year socializing in her father's planned party. There were delicious foods but she didn't eat. During the passed days, she lowered her pride by calling in his house everyday but she was told that Kira wasn't home or he's sleeping. Kira, also, have a sad and long New Year. He's regretting of not seeing her and ignoring her calls, she even visited him earlier though he wasn't at home during her visit and besides the deal matters.

The next day, 2nd of January, Kira decided to visit her. He wears the shirt given to him by Lacus. He didn't wear any sweater or jacket because nothing fits the shirt. When he arrived outside her house, she was sitting alone in the dining room but seeing him through the window brought her in total surprised. She stands up and gave him a sharp sad look. She went outside to see him and Kira looked at her overwhelmed though she spoils it.

"What are you looking at?" Asked Lacus to Kira who's standing outside their gate with just his shirt and pants on. "Are you making me worry? Because if you do, don't waste time I won't come out and give you something to warm you."

"I'm not trying to make you worry or anything, I'm here to talk to you." Answered Kira. "Are you going out here or I'll get in there?!" Cried Kira eyeing the wall that separates him from Lacus.

"Get in here? Are you joking? Because you didn't make me laugh."

"I'm serious, talk to me! I've been standing here for how many minutes!" Shouted Kira. Lacus smile secretly knowing that Kira's starting to get pissed. She snob him and opens the front door indicating that she won't open the gate. "Hey! Talk to me Lacus!"

"Did I ever cross you mind during vacation?"

"Lacus?"

"Just answer me!" Kira kept silent, he doesn't want to answer her. Yes, he thinks about her but once he answers she'll definitely give a follow up question and there he'll be force to lie. "I see."

"Lacus, let's talk… Please…" Begged Kira.

Lacus turned her head into his direction and smile. "I won't! I totally won't. I bet you didn't even think of visiting me during our Christmas vacation. Right? And because I know that's what you want… For now, let's avoid talking. Let's pretend we're not boyfriends… Any…more…" Finished Lacus though speaking those words made it harder for her to breathe.

"Are you breaking up with me?" Kira asked immediately. He put his hands upon the gate like a prisoner. "Answer me!"

No. Lacus somehow regret saying those words. She wants to take what she just said but just stand before the door while looking at the desperate stepping her right foot on the door she again turn her head back at him.

"Hey Lacus! Don't just leave me here!" He shouted. "Are you breaking up with me?" He asked in a pitiable manner as if begging for Lacus' love. "You're not breaking with me, are you?" He repeated. His voice getting lower as if he's about to cry.

"I…" Lacus try to speak but she doesn't know what to say. "I…" Kira, on the other hand, is still waiting patiently for her answer.

Say you love me…

"I…" Lacus closed her eyes and remembers how Kira have ignored her during the vacation, no phone calls, no letters and most importantly no visit from him. Within seconds she spoke with her eyes looking straight at Kira a little hesitant. "Yes." She said in a low voice though Kira read her lips. "I want to break up with you…"

"Why?"

"Be… cause… I don't think you love me… I don't think you have time for me…"

"I'm always with you, how come you say I don't have the time. I already limit my time with my friends, and yet… That's what you're thinking?" Cried Kira controlling the tears coming from his eyes. He doesn't want to cry not in front of her.

"You're always with me… But… It's not enough!"

"What else do you want? Do you want me to live in your house already?!" Said Kira in a pissing way unconsciously but hearing it makes Lacus more determine to break their relationship.

"No! I don't want to live with you! You know why?!" Lacus shouted angrily. "Because from now on, we're not boyfriend and girl friend any more… Do you understand me?" Lacus said impulsively without thinking and just relying on her feelings.

Kira stands in his place quietly. He doesn't know how to react. He tries to look at her but she's looking the other way. Though he's hurt he still pray that she'll take back what she have said and tell him she's joking but instead Lacus opens the door and gets in without a glance. Hearing the door closed Kira walks away with his eyes full of tears. He wipes it with his bare hands.