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Blair woke slowly. She stretched and knew instantly even with her eyes closed that Chuck was gone from the bed. She felt the absence of his presence deeply. She reluctantly opened her eyes taking in her beautiful surroundings. God how she had missed this, a man who understood luxury and the finer things.

She stretched again and realized that she was slightly sore from all the lovemaking that had taken place in the last eight hours. Twice before they fell asleep and once during the night. She had been awaken around four to Chuck kissing her neck and then slowly entering her. She blushed lightly recalling how intense her orgasm had been.

They had hardly spoken at all and she knew that in the light of day Chuck Bass was going to want to talk. She rolled over and saw a note lying on his abandoned pillow. Picking it up she read it:

Join me for breakfast on the terrace.

-C

She ran a finger over the strongly scripted letters. She had missed his handwriting. Hell she had missed everything about him. She hadn't realized just how much until this exact moment. She laid the note aside and wiped her tear filled eyes.

Sitting up she spied her robe laid out across the foot of the bed. She also noticed her Louis Vuitton trunk just inside the walk in closet. She blushed a second time at the thought of some valet or bell hop bringing the trunk in while she was still asleep.

She slipped out of bed and pulled her silk robe on. Her toes sunk into the deep pile of the carpet. It felt like heaven. She crossed to her trunk and opened it pulling out her toiletry bag. Entering the bathroom she got her first glance at her reflection in the mirror. Her hair was thoroughly tangled but her skin was glowing. As a matter of fact she hadn't looked this good in months. Smiling at the thought she quickly freshened up so she could have breakfast with Chuck. She suddenly realized that she was famished.

With a final glance in the mirror she left the master suite and entered the spacious living room. Jack was just crossing to the elevators.

He noticed her entering the room and stopped. "Good morning, Blair."

She tightened the sash of her robe stopping in front of him. "Jack."

He smiled at her. "I trust you slept well."

"I did, thank you." She knew he wasn't really talking about sleep but she ignored that. "Are you heading out?"

He nodded. "Yes, I have a ten o'clock massage in my room. Enjoy your breakfast."

"I will and thank you, Jack."

He shrugged. "It was a phone call Blair. I really didn't do much."

She shook her head. "Not for that but for helping him."

Jack glanced out the glass doors to where Chuck was sitting with his back to them. "No matter what we're family and what my brother is doing to him isn't right. Besides I've come to like the kid."

"Well I know it means the world to him to have you in his corner."

Jack looked slightly embarrassed. "I'll see you both at dinner."

"Of course and enjoy your massage."

"I plan to she's very good with her hands." He winked at her as he went down the hall and to the elevators.

Blair rolled her eyes as she crossed to the French doors leading to the private terrace overlooking the Mediterranean. Chuck was engrossed in reading over some papers. She slipped her arms around his neck and placed a kiss on his cheek.

"Good morning."

He set the papers on the table next to his plate. "Good morning beautiful." He turned his head and kissed her. "Did you get enough sleep?"

She gave him another kiss and then sat in the chair next to him. "I did. I didn't realize how tired I was."

He poured her a cup of coffee. "Sorry about waking you during the night. I couldn't help myself."

Her cheeks went crimson yet again and she glanced up at him. "I'm glad you did."

"There are croissants and pastries as well as fresh fruit and yogurt. If you want something warm I can have the chef whip you up something."

She took a sip of her coffee and shook her head. "No this is perfect." She picked up the bowl of mixed berries and spooned them onto her plate. "I saw Jack inside. Everything okay?"

"Yeah, he got me into that high stakes game tonight. It's how we'll make some real money."

"Can I come with you? To watch obviously."

He squeezed her hand. "Of course, you're my good luck charm."

She smiled as she began to eat. They spent the time talking about how beautiful the view was, which restaurant they should eat dinner at later, and his long term plan to bring down his father.

Finally she was finished and he turned his chair towards her. "Blair we need to discuss a few things."

She nodded her fingers twisting the fabric of the napkin in her lap. "I know we do."

"I need some answers. In particular I need to know how you went from being in a car with me ready to run away and raise your baby together to not even being able to look at me or speak to me."

She took a deep breath glancing out over the water. She felt tears begin to prickle the back of her eyelids. She turned her gaze back to him.

"After the accident I was in such a deep state of grief. I felt like I was submerged in the deepest, blackest pool of water and it felt like my heart had been ripped from my chest. I had lost my baby. A baby that I had grown to love and want even though I had never laid eyes on him. And I had almost lost you. The only man I had ever truly loved and I couldn't take the pain anymore. It was literally suffocating me. So I made a decision that I would let go of anything that could hurt me that much and one of those things was you. I did what I always do I compartmentalized and reverted to that movie script in my head. You and Serena were tucked away. If I didn't allow you in I would never have to risk losing you and being hurt like that again."

She paused to wipe a stray tear from her cheek. "That plan worked for a while but eventually you crept back in. You kept breaking through little by little. Just like you always do." She took a deep breath and shrugged. "The harder I tried to ignore my heart the more I felt alone and lost."

He had been completely silent the whole time she was explaining. He raised his eyes to hers as he sighed. "What changed?"

"The façade started to fall apart when Dan told me he loved me. I knew I couldn't say it back because I didn't feel that way about him. There was only one person I could honestly say those words to and that was you. Then my diaries were leaked and the truth was all out there in black and white. But the moment that completely shattered it was Serena telling me that I was still in love with you. She was one hundred percent right and I was so angry at her for not playing along anymore that I kicked her out and said some horrible things to her. Things that I regret now. I had one last discussion with my mother and that's when I came to you at the Empire. I wanted you. I love you and only you. The rest was easy."

He nodded. "Dan Humphrey? Really Blair, what were you thinking?"

She sighed rolling her eyes. "Would you believe temporary insanity? But seriously he really was a good friend to me. He was a way to escape. He was the exact opposite of everything that was you."

She could see the irritation in his clenched jaw. Reaching out she took his hand. "Chuck I love you. I have never loved any one like I love you. It's always been you."

He threaded his fingers through hers and raised her hand to his lips kissing it softly. "I don't want to talk about this again. It's over and done with. We need to move forward from here. Agreed?"

She started to sob covering her face with her hands. Chuck, shocked, pulled her chair towards him and removed her hands from her face. "Hey what's wrong?"

She took a deep breath. "I've spent months frightened that you would never forgive me for the hell I've put you through." She used the cloth napkin to dry her cheeks.

Chuck placed his hands on either side of her face and forced her to look at him. "Listen to me Blair there is absolutely nothing you could ever do that I wouldn't forgive. I haven't been perfect in the past either. We've both done some terrible things to each other but all that's in the past now. We've talked this all through and none of it really matters except that we love each other. This is a fresh start. From here on in it's just you and I. Together." He leaned forward and kissed her. He then wrapped his arms around her back and leaned his forehead against hers. "Don't cry anymore." He wiped a tear from her cheek.

She kissed him gently. "What would I ever do without you?"

"Lucky for you you'll never have to find out."

She smiled. "God I love you."

"I love you too." He kissed her one more time and then sat back in his chair. "Now enough of all this serious talk. I've planned a day on the beach. I've reserved the most perfect two miles of private sand just for us. The chef is preparing a wonderful lunch and we'll be completely alone. Just you and me. How does that sound?"

"Like heaven." She laughed as she stood up. "I better go and get ready then." She kissed him one last time and crossed to the doors.

He stopped her before she opened them. "Oh and Blair a bathing suit is completely unnecessary. I prefer you naked."

She rolled her eyes at him. "In your dreams Bass."


A/N I just wanted to let you all know that I had a very hard time writing this chapter. The main reason being that Blair had no POV throughout S5 which made it very difficult getting into her head and understanding her. I hope I did it justice. The next chapter will be a bit better I promise.