Back At Voight's House

Hank just got off the phone after talking to Will, he knows the news that he has to relay to Erin is going to upset more than she already is but she deserves to know and the chance to be there for her boyfriend. So Hank makes the first move and heads up to Erin's room, where he sees his pseudo daughter daughter curled up in a ball lying on her childhood bed.

"Kid I need to talk to you, I just got off the phone with Will... ".

"What happened please tell me Jay is Ok, I can't live without him", Erin interrupts.

"Will said they had to take Jay up to surgery, he was having trouble breathing because they think his lung collapsed, Will didn't know anything yet but we need to get to the hospital for when Jay comes out of surgery and wakes up, he is going to want to see you and only you", Hank says.

"But what if he doesn't make it out of surgery, or maybe he wont wake up, what am I supposed to do, and it's my fault I wasn't there for him and he is always there for me, he has never given up on me. I don't know if you know anything about this but back when I was on my sabbatical, Jay was the one who kept reaching out to me, he tried phoning me everyday and he came to my apartment but I never answered his calls or opened the door. Then on the last day of the furlough that you put me on, I was just coming out of a club in the morning and he was there. He told me about the furlough, I just wanted him to leave so asked him what he wanted, he wanted to hear me say that we were no longer partners and I was throwing it all away, he wanted me to look him in the eyes. I didn't say it, but I blew him off, like it was so easy but it wasn't, I loved him even back then, and he was only trying to help but I wouldn't let him. Then that night Al called and said that Jay had been kidnapped and my heart stopped, my head was spinning, I knew it was my fault in the first place but I also knew that I owed it to him to have his back even if was a bit late. It took going through that for me to really think about it all, and afterwards I knew I had to stay clean not just for me but for Jay too, I knew the whole time that we would always be partners and I wanted to show Jay that I was worth the hassle and I don't even know if I am worth it, I let him down then and now by believing the worst of the best man I have ever dated and the only man I have ever fallen in love with", Erin cries out in a long speech.

"Kid, Halstead is one tough SOB, he is going to make it through this ordeal with flying colours and come back to you because you are more than worth the effort, you always have been, Bunny couldn't see that, but you know what I have always saw that from the first time I met you in the holding I've known that you were going to come become an outstanding young woman, you just needed a little support with that. I was willing to give you that support and Camille was too, she could see your potential and she told me. You've had a few bumps in the road but look your life now, your one of the best at your job, you have an amazing partnership and a boyfriend that loves you more than anything, it's mutual and I'm sorry to say that I never saw one coming. You've never connected with anyone like you have with Halstead and I'm proud of you for that and so much more", Hank says with some emotion.

"Hank I appreciate you trying to cheer me up and to some extent it has worked, I just have one thought, I don't know how Jay can love me, god knows I love him and it has taken me so long to admit that, I never told him that I loved him until about a week ago, I wish I hadn't have waited so long but I really don't know how such a good man like Jay can love someone like me, I mean I have caused him pain. I broke off our first relationship thing when you found out about it, I sided with my job and you over him, then after Nadia died, he was always there trying to help me, he kept telling me that he was there when I needed him and I pushed him away", Erin says a little mre calmly.

"Listen kid, I know you have doubts about your relationship and about receiving love from anyone, but I can also tell you that Jay Halstead without a doubt in mind loves you, I'm going to tell you something but just the start you will have to ask your boyfriend about the rest of it. Jay and I had a conversation, a serious one, it was a couple of weeks ago now, but i remember it very clearly and all I'm gonna tell you is the man who you love more than anything, feels the exact same way as you and another thing you can't mention to Jay is that the two of you have a little more in common than you realise, you thought he had a happy childhood but no one but him knows the truth. Don't hold onto the past and don't let him either, you both have things that no one knows about and maybe you could be each others confidant in that aspect, you don't have to rush into anything you both take your time and you will eventually get there", Hank tells Erin seriously.

They both are quiet on the ride to the Chicago MED.

At The Hospital

Pulling up outside Erin sprints inside, where she finds Will waiting for her in the ED, on the way upstairs to the surgical waiting area, Will explains exactly whats happened to Jay since this morning.

"So after the accident Jay was moved here where he was examined and diagnosed with a grade 3 concussion and 4 broken ribs, the ribs where wrapped up and he was monitored for the concussion, we were keeping him overnight to watch the concussion. Erin I'm really sorry that I didn't call you earlier, it's Jay ever since he came in didn't want me to contact you..."

"He didn't want me here with him, I don't blame you Will, it's not your fault", Erin interrupts him.

"No Erin that's not it at all, Jay wanted you beside him, he always does, but your happiness is more important to him than that, he didn't want to take you away from your family and ruin your Christmas Day just spending it with him in a hospital. He was trying to do what was best for you, he loves you so much and you didn't hear this from me but he was planning to take you on trip for New Years. He wanted it to be special for you", Will tells a crying Erin.

"I w-would have b-een happy anywhere today as long as I was with Jay", Erin stutters out.

"When Jay wakes up, I need you to reassure him that your not leaving him and you love him just as much as he loves you", Will tells Erin seriously.

"Of course I'm not leaving him, why are you saying that Will?" Erin asks.

"Listen it's nothing against you, I know your not going to leave and I told Jay that, this morning when I was trying to convince him to let me call you and for him to stay overnight, I asked him if he had called you yet and he said no that he wasn't ruining your Christmas having you sitting in a hospital with him, and he might have claimed that he was fine anyway".

"That sounds just like our Jay, and for the record when Hank told me earlier, I was ready to run out the door and break all speeding laws to get here to be with him, to be honest it wasn't the Christmas I wanted, yeah I wanted to spend it with Hank, Justin, Olive and Daniel, But the one person that I really needed to have there today was missing, and this morning when he texted me I thought the absolute worst of him, I was thinking that he was like every other guy that has disappointed and hurt me but I feel so horrible for thinking that because I know that Jay is nothing like any other guy and I should have had faith in him but I didn't and I'm honestly ashamed of myself. Now the only guy I have ever or will ever love and likely the only guy ever to love me back is in surgery fighting for his life", Erin says to Will who has a bit of a grin on his face.

"He most definitely is our Jay and always will be, I asked you tell assume of this things because earlier Jay said that you were getting your Christmas without having to worry about your stupid boyfriend who was stupid enough to get hit by a car, he had me tell Voight that he only had a few bruises and that he wanted you to stay with your family and enjoy Christmas. These were not my words but he also said that if you still wanted to see him you could come tomorrow but he was thinking negatively that you are going to leave him", Will tells Erin.

"Ok that is sweet but also incredibly dumb, yes I wanted to have Christmas with my family but that includes Jay, he is pretty much the biggest part of my family, present and future, OH MY GOD! please don't repeat that to anyone especially the afore mentioned person", Erin mutters cover her mouth with her hands.

"Don't worry little sis, your secret is safe with me, but for the record Jay thinks the same, you are the most important person in Jay's life, he's just scared, his exact words where "I'll probably lose the best thing that has ever happened to me". You honestly mean the world to Jay, Erin and we're both lucky, hopefully you will be apart of our family forever", Will lovingly tells Erin.

"I'm scared too Will but we will get through this the three of us together, actually make that four including Natalie, you guys are perfect for each other. And for the record, it would be an honour to eventually join your little family." Erin tells Will.

"Ok, your gonna make me cry, but just one more thing, Jay asked me to tell you something before he lost consciousness, I told him to tell you himself but for good measure, Jay told me to tell you, that he loves you and he's sorry", Will tells Erin gently and when she cries he pulls her into a tight hug.

The Pair sit down together to wait for news on the one man that draws them all together, Erin's boyfriend, Will's baby brother, neither one wants to lose Jay and they have work together to have faith and trust in one Dr Rhodes who is working to save the life of their loved one. Voight eventually joins the group, he had been on the phone to the rest of the unit alerting them to what happened with their team member and friend. All sending their love and hopes for a recovery. the promised to come visit in the morning.

Now it's just a big waiting game for the three people spending their Christmas night in the waiting area of a hospital.

Ahhh Do you Jay will make it? And where do you think he was planning to take Erin for New Years?