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Chapter 2
Just remember it's all for you
I'll do my best to bring a smile to your day
I'll say the things that make your worries fade away
Create a common for your peace of mind
It's all for you and you are mine
The rain hit her face like stones being thrown at a window. She couldn't see anything in front of her, and all her body felt was cold water swallowing her up. She was in pain; too much pain for one teenager to handle. It was all becoming too much. No, it had already become too much, she couldn't do it anymore; she didn't want to do it anymore.
She let her body give out and fell to the muddy ground beneath her feet, landing on her father's grave. She ran her fingers over it with tears pouring out of her eyes and down her face. She needed someone to comfort her. The thing was that she had someone to comfort her, but she pushed him away. What the hell was wrong with her? If only her Daddy had never died.
'It hurts too much. It's just so damn hard. You don't get it…' Gabriella barely whispered this not caring if her visitor heard her or not. She simply let one of her feelings out.
She heard no response and started to wonder if maybe she had imagined his voice in the first place. Oh well, she most likely did and she didn't care. She didn't expect him to ever speak to her again anyways.
Going to school sucked even more now because every time she would ever see Troy, he never raised his eyes. He was always looking down and the amount of sadness in his eyes was overwhelming. She could see the hurt and devastation in him, everyone could. He didn't talk to anyone anymore and kept to himself all day long. That was all her fault.
He had even considered quitting the basketball team because he could barely get a ball in the net anymore. He hadn't played in a single basketball game in a while now and he had no plans to change that. His head was somewhere else but the basketball court. That was all her fault.
Chad had the audacity to shove Troy's report card in her face the other day too. She couldn't help but gasp at the sight of it. She had never seen him do that poorly before in her life. Troy was actually one of the smartest guys that she knew, and he definitely made her proud when it came to his schoolwork. But he had fallen over the deep end and his grade significantly showed this. That was all her fault.
Gabriella ran her small fingers through the engraving of her fathers name once more.
'Why did you have to leave me Daddy? I…I really need you. It's so hard to go on every single day without you by my side. Mommy keeps saying that in time, the hurt will fade, only to be replaced by positive memories that soothe the soul. The hurt won't fade Daddy; I've tried so hard, it just won't go away.'
'I keep thinking of that night and how it is my entire fault. I should have waited until the weekend to go and get those supplies, but I made you go out and get them. I was so stubborn, and look where it got me.'
'I'll never be able to forgive myself…I'm...I'm such a horrible person. You must hate me…you must not…not want me here…I guess…I should leave I guess…I love you…More than you will ever know…You're my…my everything Daddy…My everything…Just remember…I love you.'
With the sobbing also came her now shaking body and hysterical hiccups. She had to leave his grave, escape her mistakes and go somewhere to suffer even more. That's what she deserved for all of the trouble that she had caused. She was a horrible person that deserved only the worst.
She stood up and started to back up. Her hair was being blown around harshly and the cold rain was darting into her face. Even with the loud wind and rain, her sobbing and small screams could still be heard.
A deep stare was casted upon Gabriella's father's grave as she moved her body backwards never knowing when to stop. Then she felt it and bolted away.
She knew who it was as she could never forget the way that his body felt against her own. She had had plenty of sleepovers with him to know exactly how his body felt. She knew the heat that came off of his body was his and she would never forget it either. She missed it more than ever.
She whipped her body around to finally take a look at him. He looked beyond tired and stressed out. He was wearing his favorite pair of Abercrombie & Fitch Baxter low rise dark wash destroyed jeans that Gabriella had bought him for his last birthday. Covering his chest was the top that Gabi had given him with the jeans: an Abercrombie & Fitch green Ampersand Mountain collared button up shirt. Over that was his white basketball warm up fleece jacket.
Gabriella could see his abs and chest through his now drenched collared shirt. His hands were shoved into the front pockets of his jeans and he his hair was completely drenched and matted to his forehead. He was completely irresistible, how on earth could she have ever given him up? Oh yes, that's right. She forgot that she has quite some issues to work through.
In his eyes was something she had never seen before, nor did she ever want to see again. It broke her heart to look at him and see this. He looked like a little boy on Christmas who had lost all of his toys and was left with nothing. She saw depression, grief, heartache, misery, sorrow and distress. She saw a person who had so many talents and so many things to live for, yet he was wishing he didn't live at all. That was all her fault.
She couldn't deal with it any more. All she wanted to do was run into his arms and hold him close to her body and say how sorry and stupid she had been. But she couldn't do that; well she could, she just couldn't let herself do that.
Neither one of them said anything. They just stood there trying to look at one another, but the thick rain was making it very difficult.
The intensity was killing her and she had to get out of there. She looked behind her at her father's grave once more, than turned to look Troy in the eyes again. The next thing she knew she was running past Troy and moving as fast as her feet would take her. She ran and ran and ran, searching for an escape.
Back at the cemetery, Troy was struck with shock, as he did not expect Gabriella to run away from him. Coming to his senses, he turned around and started to sprint in the direction that she went. He was determined to find her again.
It became too hard for Gabriella to run any longer as the wind gusts had picked up speed and were blowing directly into her face. The clothes that she was wearing made her feel like she was carrying another person on her back. She had made it a few blocks from the cemetery to her favorite park that she visited often.
Making her way over to the large spruce tree that she has come to know and love, she finally stopped and bent over to catch her breath. She placed her hand on her warm forehead and winced as a wave of dizziness washed over her body. No longer being able to hold herself up, she allowed her legs to give out beneath her and fell to the ground under the tree.
Moments later after coming to a complete stop, Troy finally spotted Gabi lying down under the tree. The rain continued to pour down on their bodies making it hard for either one of them to see. He jogged over to her helpless body and stopped next to her. After noticing she wasn't moving, he quietly called out her name in hopes of making sure that she was okay.
There was no response though, no sign of life at all.
Fearing the worst, Troy fell down to the mushy ground beneath him and frantically shook her body.
'Gabi. GABI! Wake up baby, please, don't do this to me. Come on, WAKE UP!'
AN: So I've decided that I want to keep this story going on for a while longer. I'm not sure how long though. I love the ending to this story, and I really hope you loved it all. Please, please let me know what you think! I'm dying to hear what you have to say! It will definitely make my day. Thanks again for supporting me and reading my story. I also just updated my other story, Hidden Desire, so you should definitely check that out too! Thanks again!!
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