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Chapter 2

The flashlight slipped from my hand for the third time as I tried to attach it to my belt. "God damn it" I grumbled and bent down to pick it up. It was clear for anyone to see that my hands were trembling like a leaf.

I straightened up without picking the flashlight up and held my hands out; the scars were clearly visible, they were still a hideous shade of red even though the incident had happened over a month ago.

This was going to be my first day back at work but if I couldn't even attach my flashlight to my belt how was I going to load and reload a gun if I needed to? I couldn't control my hands it's as if they had a mind of their own, they were a constant reminder that fear coursed through my veins every second of every day since the incident.

I'd promised myself that I wouldn't let Hoyt break me but as the days went on I could feel that he'd stolen parts of me and he'd broken me and maybe so bad that I could never be repaired again. I kicked the flashlight across the room and it collided with the door causing the glass to shatter "Great now I'll have to buy a new one" I mumbled to myself.

Things were not going to be good today. The idea of being in work caused my stomach to tie itself in knots I didn't want peoples' sympathy and I didn't need everyone's eyes on me as I tried to get back to normal.

I was broken from my thoughts by a gentle knock on the door. I reached out to turn the knob my hand shook so violently that it took me a few goes to actually get the door open. On the other side of the door was Maura Isles dressed as impeccably as ever not even a hair out of place! She smiled softly at me and uttered her hellos. I stepped aside to let her in and with the grace of a swan she walked in and sat down at my breakfast bar. "Maura not that it's not nice to see you but what are you doing here so early?"

I had only known Maura about 2 months she'd joined Boson Police department as the new Chief Medical Examiner. At first I couldn't believe that this beautiful woman was the ME, I couldn't believe that someone like her would choose to spend time with dead bodies instead of interacting with the living population she'd definitely capture peoples' attention with her beauty.

She'd waltzed onto the scene of a murder and with ease she had commanded her surroundings she opened her mouth and a fountain of knowledge spewed out. For a second I thought she was being pretentious but the closer I looked at her the more I could see that this was just who she was, she was highly intelligent and loved what she did.

Most people would have found her constant stream of knowledge annoying but I liked it, it was interesting even if it took a month of Sundays to get a straight answer out of her! Over time Maura and I had become great friends so in all honesty I wasn't that surprised to see her on my doorstep this morning.

Her soft voice broke me from my thoughts "I'm here because it is your first day back since Hoyt…" She paused not sure if she should have mentioned his name of not and her eyes fell saddened by the memory. "I just wanted to make sure you are ok?" A small smile appeared on her lips and I couldn't help but smile back.

I rubbed my hands nervously; it was a habit that I had, whenever his name was mentioned or I got upset or nervous the scars would burn and I'd have to rub them. "Yeah Maura I'm fine don't worry" Her eyes studied me for a second and I silently cursed her for having such a high intellect because by the look on her face she was seeing right through me.

She got up from the breakfast bar and walked over to me stopping only about a foot away from me. "Jane" she sighed, it wasn't a question it was more a statement like she knew I was lying through my teeth. She reached for my hands but I pulled them away slightly.

No one really touched my hands except for Korsak he'd been there when it had all happened and I knew he wasn't judging me when he touched them. Maura's eyes locked on mine and I could see the hurt in them, she was only trying to help me but I was having some kind of mental block. Maura would never judge me hell she didn't have a mean bone in her body, she was the most understanding person I had ever met and with just one look she could calm me.

I sighed heavily and nodded my head; she reached out again and gently covered my hands with hers. A wave of sadness flooded my body and I could feel the tears burning a trail down my cheeks. Her touch was so gentle, her fingers didn't automatically go to the scars like Korsak's did but she linked our fingers and squeezed my hands lightly.

No one had shown such care when it came to looking after me especially when it came to Hoyt and all my emotions just spilled over. I was embarrassed that I'd let my guard down, I was Jane Rizzoli the first female detective, and a bad ass and that's how I wanted people to see me, I wanted them to think that nothing could scare me but Hoyt had shattered that pretence and everyone knew it.

Maura was the only one that got to see this side of me. She pulled me over to the breakfast bar and sat me down she walked to the other side and sat down too and recapture my hands. "You're not fine Jane, I know you, and you can't lie to me. It's understandable that you're nervous to go back you were traumatised but no one is going to judge you when you get back and I know it will take you a while to get back into the swing of things but when you do Boston watch out Rizzoli is back!"

She let a small laugh escape her lips and I smiled brightly at her "Thanks Maura" but my face fell again "But what if I'll never be the same again? what if Hoyt has damaged me so bad that I'll never be who I used to be, what if I can't do my job? I can't do anything else!" I let go of one of her hands and wiped the tears that had begun to fall again.

Maura sat up straight and talked in a firm tone "Hoyt hasn't damaged you he's made you stronger, Jane I've never met anyone like you before, in time you'll see that this is just another chapter in your life an unfortunate on but one all the same and it will help you see that it has helped you become the amazing woman that you are today and will be in the future. You can't let him stop you from being who you are, that's what he wants and don't give him the satisfaction of getting what he wants!"

Her hand squeezed mine again tight and I couldn't help but smile brightly at her "Thanks Maura, you always know the right thing to say, did u know that you and Korsak are the only ones I let touch my hands not even Ma is allowed!"

Maura's eyes sparkled with delight "It means a lot that you would trust me that much Jane!" I nodded my head, wiped the tears from my cheeks and turned back to Maura "Now that that's over with lets go to work!"

I walked over to the door opened it and allowed Maura out; I closed it and locked it with hands steady as a rock!