I wasn`t ever really there. My time was usually occupied with other things.
Smoking... Reading... Walking... Thinking...
I wasn`t at the office mainly because I would be trying to find myself (and Jun isn`t someone a man my age would want to spend time with). Well, it wasn`t myself exactly. I just felt the need to wander. Searching for something I didn`t even know about. I just wanted to be alone; to look around and see things. I know that the police department was a mess when I wasn`t there, but quite recently I`ve found myself utterly lost. My mind would get so cluttered with various, trivial things that I needed to go out and find some sort of peace. I just needed some time alone.
I realize that going AWOL wasn`t the duty of an officer and I know all too well that I`d be chewed out when I return. Nonetheless, I needed to return to grab my belonging and head for home.
