A/N: All my chapters are being revised, it might just take a while… The story is going to end, I've finally got the idea… Please R&R
Chapter One
Talking up and tripping.
I was really nervous. I had gone to school the whole time, without skipping a day, but I didn't remember any of it.
How did I treat my friends? Was I now in the group of the depressed kids, who were talking all the time about what was a poetic way to kill yourself?
I had no idea, but I hoped not, because that would totally suck.
I listened to the sounds of my truck. I realized I had missed them. I hadn't paid any attention to my truck, but the loud rusty sounds made me feel calm, as weird as it sounds.
And it was one of the very few things that did not reminded me of him, but at the same time it did, because it didn't. If you still follow me. I suppose you don't, because it sounds like I don´t either.
I gasped as I thought of something, and really hoped that I was right. I pushed the dusty on-button of the stereo Emmett had installed in my car.
I whipped a tear away as I found out I was wrong.
The CD with my lullaby wasn't in it anymore. He also took that away, like he took everything that reminded me of him, except for my memories.
I suppose I would have cried ten times harder if it was still in there, so I guess this was for the best. Move on Bella. I said to myself. He's not coming back.
I woke up from my thoughts as I realized I was already in the parking lot of the school.
I was not early nor late. So I couldn't prepare myself for what was coming, but I couldn't run to class either. Damn it.
I got out, very slowly, so that I wouldn't trip, which I did anyway. I fell over my shoelace, which was kind of weird, because my shoes didn't have laces.
Mike Newton came running to me and helped me up. "Bella, are you okay?" That's a relieve, at least I didn't scare away all my friends.
"Yeah, thanks Mike. So, what is your next lesson?" Mike got a shocked expression on his face, kind of like my dad had. "Oh come on! Was I really THAT bad?"
He looked even more surprised, but in a few seconds his expression was replaced by a huge smirk.
He took a deep breath. Uh-oh, he was going to do something embarrassing, I just knew it. "BELLA IS BACK! BELLA IS BELLA AGAIN! THE ZOMBIE HAS LEFT!" He shouted over the entire parking lot.
Yeah, more embarrassment was not possible. I hid myself in the hood of my vest, which awkwardly even made his smile bigger.
All the people on the parking lot started to shout, applaud and even whistle. This was going to be a long day. "So do you want to go out with me on Sunday?" Mike said happily. Correction, this day was going to take forever.
My next class was English, which I shared with Angela. Thank god! I really hoped she was still my friend, because I liked her the most, she was sweet, kind and shy. And I don't think she has a secret (or obvious, in the case of Mike) crush on me.
I looked around in the class. She sat next to Ben, but on her other side was still a free spot. So, it was still going with Ben huh? I was happy for her. But it hurt to see so much love. Because it was obvious to me, they didn't had a crush on each other. No, Angela loved Ben, and he loved her. I saw the look in their eyes, the same look I saw in the mirror when I was with Edward.
Oh no. I thought of his name. Not good. I froze in my pace, but since I was about to take a step, I fell. I decided to stay there, lying on the ground. Maybe they would forget me.
My heart wasn't gone, obviously, which was a shame, 'cause now I could feel the pain coming from that very vital organ spreading all over my body. Angela quickly got up from her seat. "Bella? Bella are you conscious? Oh god! Should I call the hospital?"
When she said that last word, a shiver went over my body, too much of Carlisle involved. "No, no. I am okay Angela, really no need to panic, you know I fall all the time, I would even trip in a room without any objects and a smooth ground that's not…" I stopped talking because Angela was crying. Damn! Why was I making everybody cry?
I wasn't even sure what I had done wrong this time. I thought it would be best to apologize. "Oh, Ang, I didn't mean to hurt your feelings! I am really sorry if I did, it really wasn't on purpose and…" My talking got cut off again. But this time because she was hugging me.
"I knew you'd come back, Jessica and Lauren gossiped about you all the time but I defended you, not that they listened." She said. I looked her grateful in the eyes. "I missed you." She whispered.
"Thank you for having me back, Ang. Though you really should think more about yourself." I said to her. I added, also whispering "I missed you too."
Angela talked me up about all what happened when I was "gone". "You were sitting alone all the time, and at lunch you sat at his table," She knew I didn't want to think about his name. She sure was my best school friend.
"And we, I mean Mike, Eric, Tyler, Lauren, Jessica, Ben and me, split up." This shocked me. "Why?" I asked. "Because of arguements. Me, Ben, Mike and Eric thought your depressed phase would fade and you would come back. We still liked you. But Tyler, Jessica and Lauren decided they didn't like you any more. The arguements became bigger, and that couldn't go on. So, we are now two groups instead of one."
I wondered why Tyler didn't like me anymore, I mean, he waited at my house for me, at prom for god's sake! Not that I really cared. Tyler was highly annoying.
"Tyler, of course, only went with Jessica and Lauren because he and Lauren are dating now. Me and Ben are still on, and were getting pretty serious." This was accompanied with a blush. She went on. "Mike and Jessica broke up, and Eric's now dating a girl from the reservation, you might know her, her name is Leah Clearwater. They're really serious together. Well that was all about love, I think. Except for Mike's girls, but that's changing to much, I can't keep up."
"Leah? Leah as in Harry's daughter? Really?"
"Yeah." Angela smiled. It looked like Eric was really happy, and of course, Angela was happy when other people were. She was so unselfish.
Eric had always been the shy one. The one who was always in Mike's shadow, who was hitting on almost every girl. Leah was kind of harsh but I was quite sure she was a good person within, even if it was hidden deep, deep down.
I was really happy for the both of them. But I was, at this moment, also happy for myself. Because the whole thing with Leah made me think about Jacob Black. An old friend I should visit sometime soon.
A/N: Again, this is NOT a JxB story. Jacob is a friend, and he's NOT in love with Bella. He might get someone, I just don't know who yet. Suggestions are welcome, but I think I'm gonna make up a character.
