(Trigger warning! Mentions and references to self harm)
Lapis POV
I opened my eye tiredly after having yet another nightmare. They were getting worse. My whole body tenses up when i realsied that something was holding onto my waist...and I had also ended up on the floor... I pulled myself up into a sitting position and reached up onto my desk to turn on the lamp.
Click
I looked down and let out a small gasp "Oh my stars..." I whispered, Peridot was holding onto my waist tightly, her legs intertwined with mine and her face pressed against my side. I smiled slightly at how cute she looked and then a dark blush spread to my face. I couldnt think she was cute...right? I mean we are both girl and she hates me...but she does look really cute...I shook my head to try snd get rid of these thoughts and I glanced up at the clock on the wall. 4:37am. Not bad, Ive lasted a lot longer tonight. I tried to get Peridots arms off of me but this only made her hold on tighter and I sighed "Well this is going to be awkward" I mumbled before lying back down, I reached up and pulled the blanket off my bed and spread it over us. I closed my eyes and tried to get back to sleep, thoughts of the girl holding onto me invading my mind.
/Time Skip/
Peridots POV
My alarm went off around 6:30 and I let put a groan. I moved my arms away from whatever I was holding onto and opened my eyes. I was lost for words when I saw WHO I was holding onto. I pushed my self away from her, metally cursing to myself and hoping she hadn't awoke earlier in the night. My mouth felt dry as I gulped and stood up, looking down at her. She was curled up in a ball and her face looked peaceful, her blue hair covering part of her face but she still looked beautif-wait WHAT!? My eyes widened as I shook my head and stummbled back onto Lapis' bed. What the hell am I thinking? I cannot think this about her! Its wrong...its not aloud. I stood up from the bed and went into the bathroom, I splashed my face with cold water and looked at myself in the mirror. "Like she'd ever go for you" I said quietly and a small tear rolled down my cheek as I lifted up my sleave. I ran my hand over each scar and bit my lip, most of the scars where faded but a few still stood out. I yanked my sleeve back down and left the bathroom, I bent down onto the floor and picked up Lapis. She was suprisingly light and a small smile apeared on her face. I set her down gently onto her own bed and put the blanket back over her, her smile dissappear and replaced with a frown. I pushed a peice of stray hair out of her face and got my uniform out of my wardrobe for today. I took off my long sleeved shirt and vest and put on my school shirt and tie, I then pulled off my jeans and put on my tights and skirt. I went over to my desk and started brushing my blonde hair and occasionally glancing at Lapis. Once my hair was brushed I took off my glasses and wiped them, being careful of the tape holding them togther. I then went back into the bathroom and brushed my teeth and washed my hands.
I heard a groan coming from the room as i poked my head around the door and saw Lapis sitting up in her bed. Her eyes locked with mine and she bit her lip "Uh..." She said
"Are you okay?" I asked
"I..Im fine.." She said, now not looking at me at all, she pulled the blankets around her and I could see she was shaking slightly "You dont look okay.." I exited the bathroom and sat next to her on the bed "Wanna talk about it?" I asked showing genuine concern. She looked at me and nodded slowly.
