I Am Not What You Choose To See
AU story that centers around suicide and healing. Hope you enjoy. Please review and let me know.
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Chapter Two
Raidou growled as he downed another beer. Fucker! Jackass! Slut! How dare he accept that mission when they were…Genma was only supposed to be his.
"Kuso," Raidou snarled as his friends glanced to him in sympathy, "Can't believe he'd stoop so low."
"Well…it is Genma," Asuma hummed before grimacing as Raidou scowled at him, "Kid's always been a player."
"No he hasn't."
Eyes turned to Gai as he stood in apparent anger.
"Gen's not like that," Gai continued despite the snorts of amusement thrown his way, "Genma doesn't sleep around. Does no one see the passionate, youthful strides he takes to improve himself and be there for comrades and Konoha? Surely you noticed, Raidou."
"Hard working whores do make great strides," Raidou huffed, looking away before startling as someone's drink was poured right over his head, "What the hell?"
Kakashi stood from the table to stand by Gai.
"I've been called 'Cold-blooded Kakashi,' 'Friend-killer Kakashi,' and 'Pervert Kakashi' and many other titles," the Copy-nin snapped, "All these names were given to me by people who didn't try to see or care that missions resulted in actions I didn't want to happen or that there is much more going on underneath the underneath. Genma had a damn mission that he was given no choice in doing. He fit the bill for what that pervert mark liked to coax into bed. You didn't see him when he walked through the gate. Something happened on that mission and it wasn't great sex! Fuck this. I thought to try and talk reason into you, but you're acting like some damn betrayed, romance novel character. This isn't Icha Icha, Asshole. You are shinobi and so is Genma. He had no choice in what he was asked to do on that mission. Get over yourself, Raidou, and that goes for the rest of you."
Raidou swallowed uncomfortably as he blushed red. Asuma stubbed out his cigarette with a curse as many fidgeted while Kakashi and Gai stalked away.
"Wait," Raidou called as Kakashi turned, "Where are you going?"
"To check on a friend," Kakashi bit out, "Poor kid had a tough mission and then was dumped by his ass of a boyfriend right afterwards. Excuse me."
The alcohol cooled from Raidou's system as the truth rode out the sense of betrayal. Duh! Of course Genma hadn't had a choice. A mission was a mission.
"I'm coming with you," Raidou insisted as he flashed to his comrades' sides, "The ass of a boyfriend needs to apologize."
"He might not wish to see you after that temper tantrum and love tap you pulled," Kakashi drawled as Raidou bit his lip, "You will respect his wishes regardless of what Genma asks of you?"
"Hai," Raidou agreed, "If Genma doesn't wish to see me then I'll give him the space he needs as long as you promise to tell him that I am an ass and I apologize for flying off the deep end. God, Kakashi, you and Gai are right. I acted an idiot and decked him. What was I thinking?"
Kakashi glared at the other jonin and took off to Genma's apartment without agreeing to anything. Asuma, Anko, and Aoba caught up with the group looking equally as ashamed of themselves. The problem was that it seemed that Genma wasn't home.
"Perhaps Gen went to drink away his despair tonight like you did, Raidou," Gai suggested, trying to look into a window, "I see no light within."
"He's in there," Raidou denied, banging hard on the door, "I can feel his chakra signature, but it feels odd. Gen! Gen, open this door, please! Gen, we need to talk! I need to apologize to you! I was wrong, okay? Please open the door!"
"Don't you have a key?" Aoba asked, "He's your boyfriend. You must be able to get in whenever you need to, right?"
"I do, but he's sealed the door and all his windows. You can't get through Gen's seals without destroying things," Raidou sighed before banging harder on the door, "Gen, I know you are in there! Open the door, Baby! I'm so sorry, Genma!"
"Baby?" Anko chuckled.
"Fuck you," Raidou snapped, "He's my baby and don't you ever use my nickname against Gen. Got a problem with that, Snake Bitch?"
Anko stepped away from the livid man with her hands raised in surrender. It was odd to ever hear the usually gentlemanly Raidou cursing. However, it was Kakashi that was acting the strangest as he paced from one corner of the building to the door and back again.
"Rival?" Gai asked before getting tense as the Copy-nin hunched and growled like a wild animal.
"What is it?" Asuma demanded as Kakashi growled again, "Kakashi?"
"That's not Kakashi," Raidou breathed, "That's Hound. Anbu, report!"
"Blood smell. A lot of blood," Hound hissed, "Scent of approaching death is in the air. All scents coming from within this apartment."
Horror filled Raidou's face as he glanced to Hound and then back at Genma's door.
"Hound, chidori this door! Now!" Raidou ordered as he stepped back to allow the jonin access to punch his lightning blade through the door and rid the obstacle, "Move!"
Raidou rushed through the burnt doorway and switched on the lights only to freeze where he stood. White skin and blood soaked hair made Genma look like a china doll that had been dropped into a heap on the floor.
"No," Raidou whispered as he gazed at his lover in the pool of ruby blood, "This can't be real. This can't be. Gen? Baby?"
The jonin's training kicked in and he rushed to check for a pulse as gasps rang out behind him.
"Genma? Genma, can you hear me?" Raidou questioned as he felt the sporadic pulse and cold skin, "Oh, God, Baby! Someone get me something to wrap his wrists and a blanket! He's gone into shock! Genma? I'm here. I'm so sorry. I'm going to get you help, Gen. Just hang on for me."
Raidou knew he was babbling. He knew he was beginning to panic, but he kept his movements professional as he worked with the others to wrap Genma's wrists and lift his unconscious lover from the floor swaddled tightly in a blanket. Raidou teleported to the hospital as red stained the towels hastily wrapped around Gen's wrists. Medic nin snatched Genma from his grasp and rushed away to try and save the man's life. Raidou hadn't been allowed to go with his boyfriend and he knew he'd never get the image of his younger lover lying obviously dying in his own blood out of his mind ever again. Hands grabbed his as he shuddered in a chair of the waiting area.
"Gen had tears on his face," Raidou breathed, holding to Asuma's hands tightly, "He was upset and he was alone and it's all my fault. I did this to him."
"I don't believe that, Rai," Asuma denied, "Gen's too strong to give up over getting dumped."
"Whatever drove Shiranui-san to consider this became a true decision due to the breakup. For Shiranui-san that was the last straw."
"Shut up, Hound," Asuma sneered, "Not helping things."
"Hound?" Raidou called as the cold eye turned on him, "I need Kakashi back, Hound. I need someone who can look with more than just a professional eye. I need Kakashi's skills, Hound. I thank you for letting me know that Genma needed help, but bring back Kakashi."
The single gray eyes blinked once before the coldness dissipated and everyone felt as Hound stepped back.
"Kakashi?" Raidou asked as the jonin nodded, "The Hokage was called to help with Genma, but I need his report. I need to know what happened on that mission. Will you help me get that report?"
"Hai," Kakashi agreed, placing a hand on Raidou's shoulder, "We may have gotten to him in time. Don't give up hope."
Raidou frowned, but nodded quickly as Kakashi took off with Gai following. He waited in silence with Asuma, Anko, and Aoba. It was voices from a hallway that caused him to erupt.
"Did you hear? Genma Shiranui attempted suicide."
"No. Bet you he couldn't handle the truth. Do you think he finally learned that keeping his legs together would have been a wiser choice? Raidou was right to call him a whore."
"I'll kill you!" Raidou roared, flinging himself at the two nin as his friends held him back, "You have no right to speak his name! No right to call a shinobi who served his village well such a hateful name and neither did I! I'll hunt you down if you so much as look in Gen's direction again! Let me go!"
"Stand down!"
Raidou grew silent at seeing Tsunade as the two nin hurried away from the volatile nin. The Hokage's clothes were covered in blood just like Raidou's was. Gen's blood. The fight went out of the jonin as he hurried to the blonde.
"How is he?"
"Not sure," Lady Tsunade admitted as Raidou cursed, "Come with me. I need to speak with you."
Raidou nodded and followed the Hokage as she led him into an office and then he was grabbed by two Anbu and forced into a chair as Ibiki stepped inside the room. The jonin was shocked, but cooperated.
"Raidou, have you had any dealings with Genma Shiranui since your argument this afternoon in the mission room?" Ibiki questioned.
"No," Raidou denied, "I went to training ground nine with Aoba and Asuma and sparred to try and get over my anger and ended up in a bar with most of my friends to drink myself into a stupor that evening before Gai and Kakashi talked some sense into me that I was blaming Genma for something that wasn't even his choice. Why are you asking me this? I want to know about Gen's condition and it seems that there is something you two know that you are trying to find out about. What is going on?"
"Genma is in critical condition and suffering from severe shock to his system," Tsunade explained as the Anbu released Raidou at a flick of her hand, "His wrists are in ruins. It will take months to restore his skin and joints back to normal. Genma's nearly bled out. We are doing blood transfusions now, but…but there is also evidence of a brutal sexual assault that has occurred in the last twenty-four hours. There are bruises where he was held down and Genma was torn so badly that I'm amazed the man could even walk."
Raidou's heart dropped before rage took over.
"Rape? My Gen's been raped? By whom?" Raidou hissed, gripping the arms of his chair with a death grip, "Was it the asshole that you sent Genma to seduce, Hokage?"
"Watch your tone," Ibiki warned as Raidou growled at him, "Genma did not include any information of actually having to resort to sexual intercourse to gather the intel that we needed to subvert murders, but I wouldn't put it past him to hide the rape from us. Man never likes to admit to pain or weakness. It's just that the timelines are not adding up for it to have been the mark. However, we had to make sure that you hadn't…"
"You better not be fucking saying what I think you are," Raidou interrupted, standing angrily, "I'd never do that to anyone let alone the man I love."
"Yet, you punched Genma hard enough to fracture his cheek bone," Lady Tsunade pointed out as Raidou paled and dropped into his chair, "Ah. You didn't know so I can only assume that was a hit out of misplaced anger. The bone is healed now, but I can't promise that he'll live, Raidou. Genma's intention was to die, judging by those cuts, and he's in critical condition so I need to get back to him. Ibiki, I leave this investigation in your hands."
Raidou lowered his head into his hands as he shuddered in pain for Genma's suffering. He'd been a fool to turn on Gen so quickly.
"No," Ibiki bit out as Raidou glanced up, "Stop the pity for yourself. This is about Shiranui-san. I am aware that Hatake has stolen Genma's report for you. Why did you request him to do so?"
"To find what might have driven him to do this," Raidou answered truthfully, "Hound was the one who pointed out the truth. My temper tantrum might have pushed Genma over the edge, but Gen is not one to give up like this. There is more going on and now I think I know part of what broke him enough to slash his wrists open to the bone. Was there another nin on that damn mission with my Gen, Ibiki?"
"No, there wasn't and you are not to get involved in this investigation," Ibiki huffed as Raidou spluttered, "Genma needs you here and not off hunting down the rapist. That is my job and one that I will complete. Do not doubt that. I will bring the man who did this to Genma to justice."
Raidou ground his teeth, but nodded. He couldn't leave Genma alone. Not for a long, long time. He answered the rest of the questions and then was given some hospital scrubs to change into since his clothes were ruined. Raidou was then allowed to walk in numb silence back to the waiting room.
To be continued…
