Disclaimer:I Do Not Own LWD But I Do Own The Characters That Aren't In The Show If I Decide To Put Any.
I Will Not Cause Myself Cause My Heart So Much Misery.
I've been driving for an hour and a half. It wouldn't be long till I get to my dad's apartment about another hour or so. I stopped by this shabby looking liquor store to get some coffee and something to eat. I should probably eat something sensible but my sensibility is one of the many things that got me into this mess. So from now on I'm doing things differently.
When I parked the car I get out my brush and brush my hair into a pony-tail leaving my sweeping bang over my left eye. Then I put on my shades. The whole point is to not have anyone recognize me and I think if my own mother saw me she wouldn't.
I walked in a big biker looking guy greeted me. I got some chips, a bottle of coke, some candy, and a star bucks coffee. When I went to pay I took out my bank card. I had saved up a lot of money from odd jobs, Christmas', collecting change, allowances, and of course birthday's. I was always very practical, always saving for a rainy day.
"Is that all?" The man asked me.
"Yea"
"You wanna buy some booze its on sale?"
"Uh, I forgot my Id." I say not wanting a spew of why an underage girl is old driving out this late.
"Eh, don't worry bout it. So you want it?"
Trying not to look shocked I looked at him "Yea let me have the Jack Daniels" Might as well it's on sale and all.
"At-ta girl. Its gonna be 23.47"
I give him my bank card, pay for everything, and then went back to the car. I hid the jack Daniels under the seat, just in case, and took off. I'm going to drink it…just later.
It won't be long until I reach my dads apartment. I keep telling myself. Surprisingly I'm not that tired. Once I finished my coffee I was wide awake. The suns coming up my mom should be walking up soon to get started on breakfast. She'll see my note and…
My phone starts to ring.
"Hello" I would have never expected to hear this voice over the phone.
"Casey? It's Marty…I…I read your note" The sadness in her voice shatters my heart. Marty had just turned 7 and with the guidance of the MacDonald's learned to read bright and early. It doesn't surprise me that she could call me we have all of our cell phone numbers on speed dial.
"I don't understand a lot of the words but um, I know it says that you left" She's always been so smart. She's bound to do so well in life.
"Marty…what are you doing up so early"
"We were going to the zoo today everyone is starting to wake up"
"Did my mom see the note?"
"No."
"Marty I love you I need you to know that. I just need to clear my head and sort some things out. This is not your fault nor is it anyone else's, alright, I want you to know that too"
"Not even Smerek's"
"Not even Derek's. I've needed to do this since way before Derek" I say and it's true.
"I love you too Casey. Come home soon I'm gonna miss you; Smerek will too I know he is. "
"Tell everyone I love them. Have fun at the Zoo. Take lots of pictures and have Lizzy e-mail them to me. Marty, do me a big favor, don't worry about me I'm okay and I'll be home soon."
"Okay I'll do that! And Casey Smerek is real sorry for making you sad."
"I know Marty, me too."
"Bye."
"Bye…"
I was in tears. She's so young I hope this didn't ruin her day. She was probably really excited about the Zoo too. Maybe she was even hoping I'd go this time…
As I wiped the tears from my eyes I got another phone call. I didn't know whether or not to answer. At the last minute I picked it up phone.
"Casey this is your mother. The one that still came seem to understand why you left. You know, I thought that, if we gave you some space, you would be okay. I think it's high time you finally tell me what's going on." She says frustrated and worried which I thought she would be.
Alright Casey keep your game face on and your tone steady. I have to convince her that this is for the best and she won't think that if she can hear me crying.
"Mom I need some time to think and sort things out. I know you think I'm young but you've trusted me so far to make my own choices I need to you keep doing that. Mom I am not okay and no matter how many times I pretend to be I'm not. I need to figure it out so I will be. I know I should have done this another way but I just really needed to leave. Sitting in my room locked up asking questions without getting any answers is not how I want to spend the rest of my life." I say exhausting all my breath.
"Casey, come home. We'll talk about it and find the answers together running away is not the answer."
"Don't you see Mom I'm not ruining away? Do me a favor, Take Marty to the Zoo have a great time, take great pictures and I'll be home before you know it."
"What do you mean she left? Why did she leave? Where is she? I'll go get her! No she has to come back she can't just leave like this!" I hear in the background. I'd know that voice anywhere it was Derek.
"Mom I have to go. Please don't look for me. I'll be okay I'll have my cell phone and I have money. I'll call you….and please tell Derek not to call me I need space" With that I hung up and turned off the phone.
I looked over at the directions I got off Map Quest and got off the exit. Thirty minutes later I was parked in front of my dad's place. The place was nice and expensive. The type of place you would expect a top dollar lawyer to live. I got in easy enough and in a few minutes I was in front of apartment 1512.
I knocked but there was no answer. I tried the door and to my surprise it wasn't locked. But it wouldn't be the last time I would be surprised, no.
Because what I saw next shocked the hell out of me…
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