It had been two years since I had last had any contact with my biological family. Well except for Wyatt that is. My baby brother I always made a point in seeing. It wasn't his fault that he had been kept and I hadn't. Neither of us had asked to be born so I could hardly blame him. But sometimes I did feel incredibly envious of him. Why was he allowed to be raised by MY family? But I always push those feeling aside. I will not hate my little brother.

They have tried to find me but I have become very good at covering my tracks. I have studied both sides of the magical world. I know every clocking spell there is out there. There is no way anyone could find me unless I wanted to be found, or at least that is what I thought.

I happened to be asleep that particular morning that my mother and aunts first found me. I had been at that particular apartment about three months. I should have known better. I normally never stay in one place that long. I enjoyed the nomadic life too much to ever be tied down.

"See I told you it would work." I could hear one of them say. I shot out of bed, a knife instantly in my hand. One could never be too careful.

"What are you doing here?" My tone unpleasant, hostel almost.

"We've been looking for you for a long time Nev." Paige appointed herself to be the one to talk to me.

"That is because I didn't want to be found. I don't know how you managed to find me but forget this location. Forget me."

"Whether you like it or not you are a member of this family." My mother chose to speak. How many times I had longed to hear something like that as a child. But here and now the words seemed empty.

I looked at all of them and let out a chuckle. "I have no family. I have no allegiances. I am a lone wolf and would like to remain that way."

"Nev, I know what you are feeling." Paige was trying to use some sort of psycho babble on me. But I knew she had no idea what I felt.

Phoebe on the other hand knew exactly what I was feeling. She gave me a painful look before she turned around and slapped my mother in the face. "How dare you let them abandon me!" She yelled.

"Nev, I was just a child myself and I had my memories erased. If there was any way I could have kept you I would have. But I had choice over the matter than you did. We were both the innocent victims."

"Leave me alone!" I roared before orbing out.

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"Maybe giving her a charge will calm her down." Leo suggested to one of fellow elders. "Maybe if she has someone to care for it will help her deal with all the hurt and anger she keeps locked inside."

"Yes but how do we keep her in one place long enough?"

"I have an idea. I don't want to have to resort to this but it needs to be done."

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I was at my happy place. I had traveled all over the world and seen every sight there was to see but this spot still remained my favorite. There was something about the rolling green hills of Ireland that seemed to comfort me. Looking out onto the vast green nothingness allowed me to clear my head. It allowed me to think about things rationally. I was so lost in my own little world that I did not hear the noise behind me.

My once peaceful bliss was disturbed by a devastating pain in my right shoulder. I yelped as I pulled a dark lighter's arrow out of my own flesh. I was disoriented already. Colors became jumbled, my mind became incredibly slow. I could feel myself sinking. Sinking into blackness. The last thing I remember seeing before I lost consciousness was my father standing over me with a dark lighter's crossbow.

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I awoke sometime later. My mind was still sluggish. I tried to speak but everything seemed hazy to me. But I wasn't in any pain, my eyes drooped between being half open and half closed. I wanted to go back to sleep but I would not let myself.

"You have been drugged Nev." My father ran a cool cloth across my forehead. "I was the only way to keep you from running away. You need to face your responsibilities. You are part Whitelighter and it is about time you had your own charge."

"You shot me." Was the only coherent thing I could think to say.

"I didn't want to you have to believe me on that. But you also have to admit that it was the only way I could have gotten even this much time to speak to you."

"Why are you doing this to me Leo? Why couldn't you just let me die or strip my powers as a child and give me to a normal family? Why didn't you want me?" I cried. In my drugged up state it was the only thing I could do. This was the only way I could get answers.

"Nev ..." He started then sighed. "I always wanted you. I was selfish and wanted to keep you but at that time it wasn't safe for you or for us. If anyone had ever found out then they would have killed you. I'd rather have you hate me your whole life then to know that you were dead. That is part of being a good parent. You are angry right now but if you give it some time and allow yourself to see through the pain you will see that what me and your great-grandmother did was out of love. Grams loved you too. It hurt her to give you up. She was a wreck for weeks after that but we both knew that it was for the best and that you were safer where you were."

"All I ever wanted was to have a family that loved me." I said before it all went dark again. That really was all I had ever really wanted. Every birthday and Christmas that is all I ever wished for, I wanted a family.