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I Remember Booth's POV
Sweets had decided this week he would see each of them separately. He was not in favor of this because he really wanted to know what she was saying about him. The only way he knew was when he was in the sessions with Sweets. Now this week even that was being denied to him. He had seen Sweets this morning and had been told there would be two meetings this week. He gave Booth a small black book and told him to write down a few of the times he remembered special connections with Bones. Sweets had assured him these thoughts would not be shared, it was just a way for Booth to sort out his real feelings from his fanaticizes. Now here he was sitting in his dark apartment wondering what he was going to write about. What did he remember? What did he want to remember? What did he want Sweets to know about his memories?
Taking his favorite pen he began writing. The very first time he can remember looking at her and thinking I could so easily love this woman was when she and her Father rescued him from Gallagher. He had that Poco song in his head often ever since then. Every time he head it reminded him of her tear stained face and soft hands when she found him. Ya 'cause of all the times they had been in dangerous situations and he was always comforted when he thought about that song:
I felt so
satisfied when
I can see you smile
I want to confide in
All
that is true, so I'll
Keep on tryin' I'm
Through with lyin'
Just like the sun above
I'll come shinin, trough
Oh yes
I'll
Keep on tryin', I'm
Tired of cryin'
I got to find a
way
To get on home to you
I am so tired of trying to keep up the pretense I love you in that "atta-a-girl kinda way. My love for you is any thing but that. I have always been trying to get home to you. You have always been the safety I needed the one I knew I could depend on as much as I knew you could depend on me. I remember the time I was kidnapped by the Gravedigger. I kept the quiet certainty you would find a way to rescue me close to my heart. I knew you would never give up. You have never given up on me. You have always had faith. Why do I doubt my faith in you now? Is it really any different? This is what I want for you:
When the
night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you
confess
Could make me love you less
I'll stand by
you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll
stand by you
So if you're mad get mad
Don't hold it all
inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide
I
get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you
When you're
standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to
choose
Let me come along
Cause even if you're wrong
I'll
stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt
you
I'll stand by you
Take me in
into you darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand
by you
Yeah these are the things I'm going to tell Sweets. These are the moments when I know my feelings for Bones are real, not memories. The times she looks in my eyes and smiles. The times she steals my fry's when she thinks I'm not looking. The times she asks about my week-end with Parker and cares how it went. The times she notices my socks and ties. It's not just the big things like saving my life or my career, but the little things too that I love her for.
I will not deny there is a physical link. The electric explosion between us when ever we touch is getting harder to deny. He leaned his head back against the couch and says to himself "it is the little things. The little things… the little things… the lit… the… th…" as he fall asleep dreaming of being kept safe in her arms. As he knows only she can ever really do.
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A little cheesy I know but something Booth might think in his own apartment in the dark of the night. If he wrote it down he would defiantly tear out the pages before giving the book for Sweets to read and he would have given him a "scrubbed" version.
The inspiration for this chapter were two songs "Keep On Trying" and "I'll Stand By You"
As you know "Keep On Trying" – Performed by Poco – Lyrics by Timothy Schmitt was used in season 2 "The Killer In The Concert" which is one of my personal favorites. I think the way he looks at her at the end in the dinner is one of the first times he thinks I might just be in love with this marvelous woman.
"I'll Stand By You" – Performed by Carrie Underwood – Lyrics by Chrissie Hynde, Tom Kelly and Billy Stoinberg.
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