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John watched as his men entered the room unaware how the next 20 minutes were going to crush another

small part of their souls. He heard of Rodneys reaction and as much as he didn't want his men doing this

he hated Rodney doing this. In the past 2 years he had turned into a man John is proud to have his back

but this was so contrary of the physicists personality that if they all made it back, his best friend might be

changed for life.

With his men seated joking around about the new group of recruits getting pummeled by Teyla,

Rodney entered the room unnoticed by everyone but him. Crystal blue met cloudy hazel neither blinked.

John could see the fear shining in the blue but what surprized him was not the fear of the mission but he

saw fear reflected back at him. Rodney was scared, terrified even, but not for himself. Rodney took his

seat and stared at the large table, fingers twitching around his ever filled coffee cup.

Those hands were never still, always typing or fixing something or drawing shapes as he spoke. Even in

his sleep those hands never stop twitching as if responding to even his unconcious thoughts. At night on

missions when he is on watch, John sometimes watches those hands. A steady handed Mckay was a sign

of something wrong. John used those hands to gage the mans well being and to think that in a few short

hours all the blood covering those hands..no! Everything will be fine, he will make sure of it. Thankfully

Elizabeth walked in, arms full of folders and sat in here chair breaking the haunting thoughts.

"Gentlemen thank you for coming on such short notice I want to apologize to you all beforhand."

"Sure thing doc." replied Lauren "We assumed its about the big guy and your plan to get him back I know

me and the guys will help whatever way we can."

"Evan, stop talking!" Sheppard commanded "Stackhouse, Richards, Marks yourself and I are being called

into service so shut up and listen because this is your breafing."

"Sir yes sir!"

Ecohed the 4 men as Elizabeth watched how their faces went stolic, their posture sharpened and eyes all

snapped to her staring, unblinking, awating orders.

"Thank you Sheppard, in these files are the information we were able to obtain. Your mission is to

extract the P.O.W and neutralize the threat by any means. You are to use whatever is available to you to

complete your objective. Your side mission is to protect your VIP ensuring his safe return as well as your

own. There will be no self sacrifices on this mission is that understood?."

"Mame yes Mame!"

"Good. Your mission is at 2200 hours. Sheppard is your team lead, you have untill 2130 to memorize

your files. dismissed!"

The 4 men stood as one and walked single file out of the room leaving the 3 alone, Makay spoke first.

"Well that was creepy in a robotic type of way, At least its good to know everyone plans on living

through this. Does this file include what type of tech these bad guys have or are we just guessing?"

"We are comparing them to the level of the Geini so TNT and projectile weapons with sheilding to match

so it shouldnt be that hard to hack or disengage whatever they have. I am more worried about that this is

one very large trap for the both of you using Ronin as bait. Koyla wants both of you very badly for very

different reasons so keep that in mind and act accordingly please."

"Not a problem, I already started planing for that. We have 4 hours before we leave I for one am going to

get some supper and take a nap. You should too, your gonna need it for tonight. Elizabeth, Cadman is

best qualifed to hold down the fort while were gone. Well im off, see ya at 2200, come on Makay the

Turkey sandwich is calling my name. "

"Ya ya im coming flyboy keep your unruly hair on."

"Hey now there is nothing wrong with my hair your just jealous that yours ran away."

"Oh hardy har har Sheppard just shut it and lets go im hungry."

After eating supper in the mess Rodney raidoed Radik and told him he was in charge untill he got back,

instead of going back to his room to take a nap he went to his favorite balcony to clear his head only to

find it already occupied.

"You know this is a big city plenty of balconies, you think I could have one to myself?"

"Hey,I was here first and I don't see your name on it, besides you never follow orders so I knew you

would show up here."

He walked over to the railing and gazed over the water hands clenching and unclenching the bar never

meeting Sheppards eyes.

"So.."

"So...your here to tell me how I am to act tonight?"

"No, your a smart man as you keep informing me you know what you need to do. I just want to make sure

that your up for it. This is not like our missions this is us asking you to tag along and do things and see

things I never ever wanted you to. Your not a killer and I would prefer to keep you that way."

"John, I can handle it. I have been in agencies from the CIA to NID, SGC and back again since I was 8. I

can handle this I don't want to and I hate it but ill be fine. My question is can you? I know I know big bad

black ops trained but I know you John, and after everything we have faced the past few years I have never

seen you this scared, ever. So whats going on?"

Sheppard sighed and walked to the wall and sat down Makay joined him.

"You have no idea how close you were in Elizabeths office. They sent me to Iraq the first time, I was a

P.O.W for about a month until we broke out. After I recovered they sent me to Afghanistan when I got

my black mark. I was then shipped to Antarctica until I sat in the outpost chair and came here.

After iraq they were impressed with my escape and took me for training, god Makay, it was crazy. After

I was trained they sent me off on solo missions each one got harder and more dangerous like they wanted

me to fail but I never did, not once, until Afghanistan.

The things I did for the greater good of my country, the people ive killed... I hate that man the murderer

they created. When we came here I thought I left that man behind but my first fucking day I sniped my

SO to protect earth. I hate him and every time I become him a chunk of my soul turns black and I lose a

bit more of myself to the darkness inside that I hide from everyone including you. You may see glimpses

of it now and again but tonight, tonight your going to be working beside a cold hearted murderer.

I guess that scares me more than anything I mean who wants to be best friends with a killer. After tonight

you will never look at me the same. Im just so sorry that I can't save you from this I got to go ill see you

at 10."

He quickly stood up and ran from the balcony leaving his friend alone staring at the stars reflecting off the

ocean fingers tapping on his knee, thinking.

There we go

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