This one is about Isabelle. At the Institute, I guess. Not sure how I feel about this one.
As I saw Clary, I grumbled to myself, a little pissed. How did Clary do it? The girl has the eyes of three guys on her, and she doesn't even notice. And why were those eyes on her anyways? Clary's red mane was hardly tame, her make up was sloppy and the redhead didn't walk- she tripped.
And yet, Simon, Alec and Jace were all throwing glances when Clary wasn't paying attention, appraising her with looks or just out right staring.
The fact that Simon was one of the guys with his eyes glued on her doesn't bother me at all. I find it amusing that Clary hadn't yet noticed that he was a head-over heel for her. And Alec was only looking because Jace was. If there was something in Clary that Alec could copy to get Jace's attention, well, he'd probably do it.
No, it was the fact that Jace was staring that bothers me. Don't get me wrong- any crush I had for Jace vanished in a fiasco a few years back. I couldn't care less who or what he was sleeping with now. But the look in Jace's eyes- yeah, that was what was bothering me. The way he looked at her- it was as if he couldn't stop himself. Like he was addicted to the sight of her. His eyes, when they were on her- and only her- were so full of -God I hate this word- love. Nobody has ever looked at me like that: none of my boyfriends- some of them weren't even capable of love, really. Alec- I guess he loves me, but he wouldn't ever look at me like that. And my parents? Don't make me laugh- they don't even look at each other like that. Maybe they loved each other at one point, but the Circle probably ruined some of the romance.
Why has no one ever loved me like that? What does Clary have that I don't? I just don't get it! She has two guys who would die for her and she doesn't even care or anything! And that girl shouldn't even be here! All she's done so far is ruin things! I guess she helped by getting Magnus involved with us, but still! Does she know how much it hurts my brother when Jace kisses her? And Jace has changed completely! He is a completely different person when she's around. I hate the new Jace- I want the old one back. The one who didn't care about people.
No. I don't want that Jace back. I'm just jealous I guess. I'm so jealous that I'm surprised I'm not green. Clary's is not bad- she's pretty nice, I guess. She did come all this way to give Alec and Jace chocolates for that stupid mundane holiday.
... Wait, what's this? She got one for me too? God damn it Clary! Why do you have to be so nice? It would be so much easier if I could just hate you.
