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Hikaru
Melody, or, I guess, Sissy, is totally down for our brief shopping stop. She doesn't get too excited. Until we end up at the swim suit store. She insists on picking out one for Haruhi, who agrees after a bit of convincing. To everyone's surprise, she chooses one that even Haruhi likes, and it's actually closer to shorts a t-shirt. So if anyone from school does see her, they can't even tell she's really a girl. Which is pro. The rest of us just grabbed simple shorts. Mine are blue, Kaoru's are orange. However, her eyes land on her brothers. She grins at them.
"Please, Yama-chan?" She asks. Both Yamato and Hayden shake their head.
"No." They say together.
"Not a chance."
"In hell." Hayden started, Yamato finished. So, she pouted. It took about two minutes for the boys to give in, and then suddenly, they were like models. Or dolls, or something. I swear she made the poor boys try on everything before she decided she was pleased with new swim shorts for them.
"Well, that was something.." Kaoru says softly from my side. I can't help but agree with him as we finally leave the store, and head to the beach. We're not too far away, so we walk there.
"Why did you guys decide to start school on a Friday, anyway? What's the point in that?" Haruhi asks.
"Just the way things worked out." I think Hayden says without really looking at her. So maybe it was Yamato. I hadn't even thought about it. They started yesterday, and now they have a weekend already. I think they did it on purpose, but don't say anything about it. I turn my attention back to my group of friends, and listen to Tamaki speak to Melody in French. The girl responds without thinking about what she's saying, and I can see Haruhi glaring at her. The sound of skin smacking skin makes me whip around. I'm not the only one. Kaoru looks back with wide eyes, Melody's eyes are on Yamato, whose hands are down, but his eyes are towards his twin, too, who is in a debate with Takeru. Using sign language. At least I think they're fighting.
"You two fight too much." Melody says.
"Do not," The twin boys say at the same time. And that's it. Takeru runs up ahead, to walk with Hunny. Tamaki and Melody resume their conversation.
"They're strange." I say.
"I bet we seem strange to them." Kaoru defends them. I had never thought about it, but I'm sure he's right. Then, Tamaki throws his arms around both of us.
"I need you boys to work on getting Hayden to agree to join us, okay!?" He says cheerfully.
"Wait, boss." I start, not sure what I can say to make him change his mind.
"Okay, daddy has to go talk to Hunny!" And then he's gone. Kaoru and I sigh in union. At the beach, everyone ends up in the water pretty fast, except Yamato and Melody. Kaoru, Hunny, Takeru, Hayden and I are having a splashing war, although with Hunny Takeru being close to the same height we can't go too deep.
"Hikaru!" Kaoru whines as I splash him. I stick my tongue out at him before moving away from him, and getting splashed back by Hunny.
"Hayden?" Kaoru's worried voice snaps my attention away from the game, and to my brother. His eyes are on Hayden, whose eyes are on Yamato. I turn my head to look at the missing twin, and find that there's a blonde woman talking to the two left on the beach, with Usa-chan. The new woman says something, and Yamato opens his mouth to answer. And he's silenced by her hand. Melody's shouts reach us, and Hayden races to his brother. I stare in stunned silence. She hit him.
"Don't move, 'kay? I don't want her to see me." Takeru's voice comes from directly behind me.
"Okay." I say. What else can I say? When Hayden reaches them, there's not much words spoken, before the woman leaves.
"Who was that, Taku-chan?" Hunny asks, coming up to stand besides us.
"My mom." He says. His voice is monotone.
"Why'd she hit Yama-chan?" I feel my twin, more then see him or hear him.
"I don't know. He'll be okay. He's always okay." I can hear the sadness creeping into his voice now, though.
"No one else even noticed." Kaoru says. I turn to look at our friends, and sure enough..
"Well, let's just not tell anyone, okay Hika-chan and Kao-chan?" We both agree. I turn back to the other set of twins, and find Hayden checking Yamato's face. I look at my own mirror image, the question on my mind is in his eyes as he looks back at me. What would we have done if it had been one of us?
"Why, hell princesses! I didn't expect to see you here, although I'm glad you are!" I glance over at Tamaki, to find him amusing a group of girls from our school. Customers from our Host Club, too, and you know, I've never been happier to see them. Because the second those girls show up, we all become the Host Club. Every single time, even if we don't realize we're doing it. Hunny grabs Takeru's arm and drags the younger boy over the girls.
"Look! This is my new friend, Taku-chan!" He says.
"Awe, he's so cute!" I hear one girl gush.
"Hikaru." I look at my twin out of the corner of my eye. This is not his Host Club voice.
"I don't feel like playing their games. Can we just go sit?" I grab his hand, because we both know that we will have to pass the group to get to Melody and her twins. As we walk past, a girl stops us.
"Where are you going?" She asks.
"Well, Kaoru's not feelings very good, so he wants to go sit down.." I say, sadly, looking at my brother with worried eyes. He places his head against my shoulder, giving a shy smile.
"Too much sun, I think," He says softly.
"Oh..Feel better Kaoru!" Takeru has wide eyes on us, and I see Hunny whisper something to him.
"But...why?" He asks, confused, looking to Hunny. Hunny just smiles. We head back to the blanket, and join the three remaining members of this little outing. Yamato watches Kaoru with intent eyes, and it makes me want to hide him from Yamato. He seems too interested in my brother. I sit beside Melody, since she is the only one who seems who can stop Yamato's comments. Kaoru sits in front of my arms, and leans against my side.
"They're still watching." He says with a sigh. Melody and Hayden's eyes go to the girls. And Takeru walking towards us. The young boy sits in front of me and my double, and stares at us for awhile.
"I have some questions, while all those girls are busy, and not here bugging you." He says. I can feel the amusement from my brother.
"Okay." We answer.
"Hunny said...you guys...pretend to be in love?" Melody covers her mouth with her hand and giggles.
"Uh-huh." Kaoru says.
"For a club?" Another affirmative sound from Kaoru.
"And you do this, because girls want to see twins, that shouldn't love each other, and since it's two boys, that's even worse, because it's wrong?" This time I nod my head. The little boy stays quiet, and Melody tries not to laugh.
"Why?" He asks.
"Why, what?" We ask back at the same time. We waves at our position.
"This is for them?"
"Yes." We answer, Melody bursts into giggles. I try to ignore her.
"Why is it wrong, though?" Melody stops laughing and I look at the little boys bright blue eyes, wondering how to answer him.
"Well, uhm..boys aren't supposed to love boys..plus..we're brothers?" Takeru's eyes shift to Yamato as he takes in a deep breath.
"Well, that's stupid. You should be able to love whoever you want. 'Cause we're all related somehow...even if it is only distantly..Can I check your face for myself?" He adds, looking at his brother.
"Check away." Yamato says, Takeru climbs onto Yamato's lap to check on his cheek. After the little blonde is done, he resumes his position in front of us.
"That's not what Mel, says, anyway. But I guess mom would disagree...Wow, how do I know who do listen to?" he asks himself. No one helps the little blonde, and he sits quietly thinking to himself.
"Listen to whoever you feel is right." Melody says after a few minutes. His blue eyes land on her, and her face lights up in a smile.
"I guess if I thought a boy being with a boy was wrong I'd hate my own brother, wouldn't I?" I look at the twins. So, one of them is gay. I wonder which. Neither react to his words, but Yamato flops backwards, and lays down.
"I have a question for you guys, now." Kaoru says.
"M'kay, go." Takeru says.
"Don't get offended, because I don't mean to. Your names." It's not really a question. But they understand just the same. It's Melody that answers.
"Well, our mother is American, and our father is Japanese. The older two got American names, the younger two got Japanese." Yamato raises his hand, and my eyes widen at the scar that stretches half way to his elbow.
"I wasn't supposed to happen. I never showed up on the ultra-sound, so they came up with my name on the spot." This also tells me that Hayden is the older twin. Huh. I figured Yamato had been.
Hayden
Yamato, Yamato, Yamato. It's hard to get my twin off my mind. He's all I think about, most of the time. And right now, it's even worse.
"I wasn't supposed to happen. I never showed up on the ultra-sound, so they come up with my name on the spot." His voice cuts into my thoughts, and I look at my twin, who is lying on the ground, beside me. He's beautiful. And so much more then just my twin. Of course he's my brother, but he's also my best friend. And honestly? My lover. I know, I'm gross. But it's not one sided, I swear. Yamato loves me every bit as much as I love him.
That's why our mother hates him so much. Because when she found us kissing that day, she had flipped. She had always had trouble with Yamato. He was always the one that wanted to do what we shouldn't. So we did. And Yamato slowly got in more and more trouble..And then his punishments became physical. And even then he didn't stop. He became depressed, and because of it he stopped eating. The medicine to make him better made him sick, though, so he stopped talking it. And then, less then three months ago, he had tried to leave me. That's what made the decision for us to live with our sister, who had left simply because she couldn't handle our mother anymore. The first time I convince my twin to leave the house, and our mother shows up, and fucking hits him no less. I sigh in frustration at my thoughts. All eyes turn to me. Two pairs of gold, Hikaru and Kaoru, and I wonder briefly if Yamato is right. Are they screwing, and no one knows? Him and I are. Except Melody knows about us. So does Takeru, kinda of. And three pairs of blue, my own image reflected back to me, Takeru and Melody.
"I'm hungry." A new voice adds, and I look up to see Hunny leaping over Yamato to get to his bunny.
"Hika-chan, Kao-chan. Are you okay? You look sad." He adds. The other twins nod.
"We're okay." They say together. Actually, the more I look at them, I realize how good the two actually look. Especially the way Kaoru is resting against his brother. I miss having my brother want to touch me, and be near me. It's just not the same without him sleeping in my arms, or waking me up with a kiss the way he used to. I can feel his mood change, and decide I'd better get him home.
"I think.. We're gonna go." I say to the little group. Melody nods her head, while the rest of them stare at us with confusion. I get up, then yank Yamato up, who protests, but he does it, anyway. He even he knows his mood if getting worse. We say good-bye, and I'm sure Melody will make up some kind of excuse for us. The way home is silent. We walk. It takes nearly forty minutes. When we get home, he heads right for the bedroom. I follow him, only not has fast.
"Go away." He snaps at me.
"I don't want to. Yama, let m-" I get cut off as his hands connect with my shoulders, and he shoves me backwards. He was aiming to push me out the open door, but I hit it instead. I ignore the pain that flashes through my body.
"Yamato, don't push me. Let me help you." his laugh is cold.
"How are you going to help me?" He snaps. I stare at him, with no answer. I don't know how I can help. Obviously, I'm not very good at it. He storms over to me, and I think he's going to hit me, so I clench my eyes shut and stiffen my body. His arms wrap around my waist, and his face hides against my neck. Immediately, I return his hug, and hold him to me. He shakes in my arms for a long time. Eventually though, the shaking stops.
"I'm sorry." He whispers against my skin, sending a shiver down my spine.
"I know you are." He shifts positions, so that he can look at me, and our eyes meet. The pain, and longing..and lust in eyes kinda of..reminds me of the old Yamato. My Yamato. He closes the distant, lips meeting mine, and it's soft. It's a real kiss, which turns rough after a few seconds. This is his way of dealing with things. It always has been. Whether it be me, or someone else. Hense the reason I let him. Because if I don't, he'll turn his attention that will allow him.
Somehow, he manages to turn us, and starts edging me towards the bed. He pulls way from my mouth, and yanks my shirt off, before kissing me again, hard enough to bruise both our lips. I make a soft sound of pain, and his fingers trail along my naked side, and it brings goosebumps out on my entire body. his body becomes more desperate, and he gets rougher. My knees buckle as they hit the bed, and we fall, him on top of me. I don't bother to fight to be the dominant one, there's no point. He would win. This is me helping him, in his head, so I let him have his way. He's as gentle as he can be, but it still hurts.
Once it's done, he sits beside me, head in his hands.
"I'm sorry," He whispers again.
"It's okay, Yamato. Don't worry about it." And I have already forgiven him. The only thing that still hurts is my lips.
"It's not okay." He whines.
"Make it up to me by actually eating tonight, okay?" Yamato nods his head, looking up at me. I crawl across the bed, although really, there wasn't that much space between us, and wrap my arms around his neck. I place my lips against his softly, and he does lean into it. Much gentler then earlier.
"I forgive you, so just, stop, okay?" My brother nods, but I know he still doesn't quite believe me.
"Boys, dinner." I don't know exactly when Mel and T.K got home, all I know is that when she calls us, Yamato sighs, and pulls his shirt on.
Yamato
I sit at the table next to my brother. T.K gives me a strange look, because yes, it is that rare for me to sit with them at meal times.
"What?" I snap, and he just shrugs and looks away. I had been way too rough with Hayden, today, and I knew it. It was the only reason I agreed to eat at all. I know I should eat. Tonight I would've eaten, it's been two days. But then she showed up. My face still hurts. The muscle hurts the way it does when you know you're going to bruise. Hayden, Melody and T.K talk, and I just kinda..pick off Hayden's plate. Which is normal when I do eat with him. The first bite was enough to make me want to hide in the bathroom a puke. But I don't. I eat as much as I can as Hayden eats, and when the plates empty, most of it going into Hayden, of course. I excuse myself with a simple.
"I'm not feeling good." Hayden watches me leave with worried eyes, but I have no intentions of puking my food up. I fall onto our bed in the darkness, and hide my face against my pillow, willing myself not to puke. I barely manage. There's a shift in weight on the bed, and Hayden crawls up to me.
"You didn't get sick?" He asks.
"I'm trying." I mumble. How he could care for me I have no idea. His fingers slide through my hair, and I hear the click and then low voices as the T.V turns on. Hayden continues to stroke my hair, and that's how I fall asleep.
When I wake up, it's still dark. The T.V is still on, and I can see my twin beside me, fast asleep. He makes a soft noise in his sleep, and shifts slightly. I climb out of the shared bed, needing to pee. Thankfully, the gross nauseous feeling is gone. I go to the bathroom, and as I wash my hands, I glance up. I watch my eyes widen in the mirror in shock. I jump back, hand hitting the cup that had been sitting on the edge of the counter, probably from Takeru. It falls, and shatters. Within seconds, Melody and Hayden are at the door.
"Yama?" Hayden asks, eyes down. He hasn't even noticed yet. He's more worried about the glass on the floor, and I don't blame him.
"Oh, God." Melody says, rushing into the bathroom. Hayden's eyes come up as she turns my face to look at the bruise across my cheek bone. It's black. Not the yellowy-brown. Black, and purple. She runs her fingers gently across my cheek bone, and I flinch. My first reaction is to shove her away from me, but I fight it back, because she didn't hurt me on purpose.
"I think you're gonna have to go to the hospital. Can that bone even break?" She asks, herself more then me and my brother. I can see the tears threatening to fall out of Hayden's eyes.
"I'm fine." I tell him, without looking. I'm more shocked because I don't look pretty anymore. It's not that it hurts..
"You can stay home from school on Monday if we can't figure out how to cover it tomorrow, okay?" I think it's her way of trying to reassure me, so I nod my head. Melody releases my face, and shuts the taps off. I can tell that neither of my older siblings will sleep again tonight.
