Chapter 2 : Crying on the Inside.

AN/ sorry I haven't updated for a bit my dad stole my laptop, hope you like this chapter which is not like ch1. was all underlined as mentioned in one of the reviews…

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Disclaimer: no Harry Potter or places etc belong to me their all the fantastic work of a talented author JK. Rowling…have mercy or I shall Crucio you all !!

'Sorry you can't sit there anymore.' Crabbe mumbled dumbly, I opened my mouth briefly in shock and closed it again.

'How dare you I always sit here, if you don't let me sit here I'll…I'll…' A well-built Slytherin with black spiked hair and a mean face then interrupted me, his mean face currently in a frown. 'What? What are going to do Malfoy? Get you're farther on us? Oh yeah your dads in Askaban isn't he? So daddy can't help you, go and sit somewhere else.' The boy sneered.

Gritting my teeth I took a breath to calm down, I hadn't been so angry and humiliated since that mudblood Granger punched me. I glanced once more a Crabbe but he only turned anyway and gave his attention to his pumpkin pie that he was demolishing, I gave up and turning away he strutted to the other side of the table with my head high.

I sat down on a clear piece of bench, suddenly a plate appeared in front of me piled with steaming food. I took a sideways glace at the boy next to me, who had apparently shuffled as far as he could away from my presence, huffing I picked up my fork which I used to shuffle the food on the plate thinking of what a nightmare the common room would be tonight.

I'll probably just go to bed early, but I could also act like nothings happened sit on the sofa as normal of course I'd probably have no one to talk to but I could easily get out one of my new spell books and make myself look busy.

Mrs McGonagall had been appointed the new Head Mistress at Hogwarts, and had just give her first long and boring speech of the year, I wasn't really listening but she said something about remaining loyal, remembering the lost and forgiving the bad and so on. Once that was done we made our way nosily back to our respective common rooms, I walked ahead of everyone in my house I was still Head Boy after all.

I could feel their dirty looks and the mutterings going on behind me but simply walked faster until I reached the portrait, suddenly I panicked I had no idea what the password was, no one had told me I had to hold back my tears that where threatening to spill down my cheeks at any moment.

I heard a voice coming through the crowd, recognised it, it was that same mean looking black haired boy who'd sneered at me before. I turned around and saw him pushing rudely through the bunch of Slytherins .

'Move! Come on get out of my way, what's the hold up?' I saw some of them gesture to me standing there like a fool.

'Oh you again Malfoy, don't you know the password?' he asked me sarcastically grinning to his mates behind him.

'Yes in fact I do know the password I was just thinking.' I replied, it just came out of mouth before I knew what I was saying. They stood there smirks on their faces, some with their arms expectantly waiting for me to say something.

After I stood there for a while in a stupid silence, their patience had worn out.

'Told you he didn't have a clue, he's nothing without his precious farther, come on I know it.' He elbowed me out of the way.

' Dark Snake' the black haired one said clearly and the dungeon door swung open, then the crowd behind him stared rushing into the common room, leaving me standing in the dark cold corner alone, I slumped down to the floor looking to make sure no one was nearby I began to weep hot fresh tears poured from my eyes the it felt like the weight of the world was on my shoulders. My father's in prison a known ex-Death Eater, my mothers an emotional wreck, my 'friends' and fellow students either hate me or fear me and I have no one to turn to.

Life was bad and might be better if I was dead and all the pain ended, it was late I shouldn't be in the corridors, oh well actually I can I'm Head Boy as if that makes any difference anymore, maybe they only respected me because of my farther but I'll make them respect me because of me I have to carry on trying there has been enough death and pain. And killing myself would be a waste of life and would make me into the coward that people think I am.

Drying my eye I made my way the boy's toilets to clean myself up, and make sure that signs of my episode weren't visible to others. The corridors where dimly lit by fixtures on the cold stone walls each carrying a faint yellow and orange glow it lighted my mood slightly, as I entered the toilets I looked around to see if I was alone… and I was thankfully. I made my way slowly to the mirrors afraid of what I might look like, then I could see myself in the clear glass my blonde hair was sticking out at odd angle where I'd pushed it back to avoid my face.

I smoothed it down with my hands, and inspected my face. My eye lids where a little swollen and my eyed where red I took a piece of tissue from one of the cubicles and began to wipe me eyes. When I'd finished I looked almost my old self just tired and a little flustered but it was the best that could do.

I just wanted my bed, overall I wanted all of this to have been a nightmare my whole life? No some parts of it had been positive I'd had some happy experiences in my time. These thought cheered me as I walked back towards the dungeons, I was so absorbed by my emotions that I bumped into someone, oh no it was that mudblood Granger.

'Watch where your going Malfoy.' She gave me a look like I was something nasty she's just trodden in. I decided that this was my moment to gain something back if only some of the others of my house where here to witness it.

'Sorry Granger' I sneered 'didn't see you there anyway why are you wandering the corridors at his hour?' that'll show her.

'None of your business ferret face.' She smiled a fake smile and looked directly at me, I couldn't let her see that the name had touched a nerve I'd never lived that event down being made a fool of up and down the sound of mocking laughter, as that impostor chased me around that tree, I raised my eyebrow and looked at her directly as I could thinking of a quick come back.

'Yes no ones forgotten that little event have they? Actually I've thought about a bit and eh actually saw the funny side of it so if you where hoping to hurt me by that remark I'm afraid you'll be disappointed.' This was a lie 'Anyway must get to bed, I'm going to be generous and let this one slip Granger you may not be so lucky next time.'

Ganger looked confused for moment ' Oh yes Mr Malfoy it won't happen again I promise.' She imitated my ex house elf Dobby as she walked pass me and down the corridor as she went round the corner I could swear she whispered something like

'arsehole'.

I shrugged, I had won this round and I hadn't even called her mudblood.

'Dark Snake' the dudgeon door swung open in front of me and worked the courage to step through into the common room which was thankfully nearly empty apart from two small year two girls huddled in the corner with some magazine and occasionally giggling for no apparent reason. One of them glanced at me and whispered something to the girl beside you who looked up and smiled, I gave them a stiff smile back and turned around into a fit of giggles again.

I quickly made my way up the steep stair to my dormitory, I stood at the door and listened I could hear hushed mutters coming from inside. This was the hardest part, I knew the second I entered the room they'd stop and stare at me in silence. Well here it goes I thought I turned the door nob and entered and as I expected they muttering faded until it was silence 'evening' I said to the room.

They all either muttered or grunted some sort of greeting and all said good night to each other and the light were turned out I had to stubble around in the dark until at last I found my usual bed and slowly lowered myself onto it laying position I stretched my arms above me then his myself under the covers, I was asleep and peaceful within five minutes, hoping that tomorrow was the fresh beginning…

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