Alright this is the second chapter, basically, its Bella and Alice when they get back to Forks, Jake will be in this soon though not in this chapter probably the next. Please Review.

Also I'd like to thank PRchic559 for reviewing my last chapter.

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight it belongs to Stephanie Meyer.


Pain

The way back to Forks had been long and uneventful, not that I would have known. The pain of Edward's death had been enough to send me swirling into a pit of despair, much greater than anything I've ever experienced. As we pulled into my driveway, it didn't feel like home, I knew that nothing would ever feel perfectly at home anymore, the meaning in life had been gutted out.

Opening my door, I got out and tried to pull enough consciousness out of myself to talk to Charlie, who would no doubt be raging mad at me. I looked at Alice before heading up the driveway, and gave her a weak smile in farewell. In return her eyes shown with concern and she said "Bella, it'll be ok." I nodded my head but didn't believe her, then walked up to the front door but before I could open it Charlie was there looking at me with both anger and concern.

"Isabella Marie Swan! What did you think you were doing!" He began to shout, I didn't answer him. "You could have been killed! Hurt! I didn't know where you were! Bells…" He stopped yelling when he saw the look on my face. "What's wrong?" He asked more worried about me now then anything. "Nothing." I said my voice cracking. What was I supposed to say? My ex-boyfriend went suicidal and got killed by a bunch of vampires, that thought did it. Any composure I had obtained in the last few hours was gone and the tears came. I ran up the stairs sobbing, and slammed my door in Charlie's face. "Bells?" He began, "What happened? Did someone hurt you?" "No." I said through the tears. "Now go away." I said, the pain was just too much but Charlie did as I asked and left me alone.

After laying on my bed with my face smashed into the now sopping wet pillow for a few minutes I decided I couldn't live like this. The cliff would have worked if I weren't at Jake's that day. So I decided I would use that method again and if it didn't work I'd walk in front of a car or something. Just then there was a clanking noise at my window and it opened, and where a minute before there had been nothing but the window itself now stood Alice.

"Bella…" She said in an exasperated tone. She had seen my decision, dang it, why'd she have to be able to do that? "Bella," She continued, "you can't do that." I turned on to my side so I could see her better as she walked over and sat on the edge of my bed.

"And why not?" I asked both upset and sad. She sighed. She was worried and I could tell it was more worry for me than anything else.

"Bella, you're like a sister to me and to all of us, we just lost a brother we don't need to loose you, too." Her voice was so sad that if she could have cried she would have been balling her eyes out, this was painful for her too. "Even if that weren't the case," She continued, "do you really think Edward would want this?"

I knew the answer but I didn't want to admit it, I just wanted to join Edward in death. So, I went for the more dodgy response, "Edward thought I was dead!" I yelled taking my anger out on her, "So I really don't think he would want anything specific for me involving living!" The anger didn't help because now Alice looked like she was in more pain, with her head down looking at my comforter. I realized it was because she blamed herself for what happened because of her visions.

"Alice," I said soothingly, "its not your fault, you can't control your visions. Its my fault if I were faster.." I let my sentence trail off, and she looked up, and gave me a little smile. "Its not your fault." She stated plainly. We looked at each other for a little while and I once again remembered how much I'd missed Alice and how good she made me feel at times and that brought a genuine smile to my face, however small it may have been it made her smile too. I quickly sat up and hugged her, she hugged me back, so tightly it nearly squeezed the air out of my lungs. When she finally let go and I could get the full amount of air in my lungs again, she looked at me, her face one hundred percent serious when she asked, "Will you try?" I knew what she meant, "I'll try, I promise." I said and I meant it, I'd try for her sake and Charlie's, Renee's, and Jake's, too. She smiled at me, "Good, now try and get some sleep."

It looked like she might leave but I didn't want her to, I needed the comfort of someone who felt my pain too, to be with me. "Will you stay?" I asked pleadingly. She looked right in my eyes and said "Of course, Bella." With that she went over to my desk chair and watched as the tiredness crept up on me and I eventually feel asleep.


That's chapter 2, I know it's short. The chapters should start to get longer soon. Hope you enjoyed it, please review.