Disclaimer - I do not own greys anatomy if I did lexie and mark would have never split and teddy would have been hit by a bus not 007
~I want my baby and that's all~
Lexie's pov
'ok breathe just breathe get a hold of you self ' I said to my self as I descended some random staircase in the hospital I walked into a deserted hall leaned onto a wall and slipped down suddenly I was captivated by bright blue eyes smiling up at me my son my beautiful boy looked at me his eyes gave me hope " you don't hate me do you" I asked matt as I slowed my breathing and calmed down he laughed I loved it ,it was like music to my ears " im going to take that as a no and may I add I don't hate you either I love you peanut" I said stroking his cheek
"Lexie "I heard I voice calling to me, I hated that voice
"What do you want teddy" I asked I was fuming
"I just wanted to tell you to um to stay away from mark were together and I don't want you to mess things up" teddy said as I got up from the ground
"Don't talked to me like I'm a mistress in an affair "I yelled and her
"At this moment you look like you are one "teddy yelled back glaring at Lexie slightly
"I don't want him to want me I want my baby and that's all, you sad excuse for a woman" I said turning away
"oh really I saw you looking at him pining for him and you call me sad " teddy said pulling me back to look at her my arm shifted and I felt matt fall out of my grasp I dropped to the floor and caught him he started to cry and wail I held him and started to rock him slowly
" is that your plan kill my son so that I would go away stay away from me and my son if you don't want me to hurt you and don't give me the I was in the army crap because my best friends brother was a black belt and taught me all he knows now get out of my way!" I yelled pushing past her and walking back up the stairs and back to peds she walked into Matthews's room and saw Meredith waiting for me.
"Hey are you ok lex you looked quite startled to see Addison "mer said walking toward me
" I was "I said putting matt back in the cot and reputting in his iv and breathing tube he started to struggle
" hey hey its ok baby mommy just wants you to get better ok so please just let me put you breathing tube back in place " I pleaded with matt he stopped moving as much which meant I could put the breathing tube in I shifted back to look at mer
"Im worried about you lex you jumpy now that she got here" Meredith said laying a hand on my shoulder
"Don't be im just scared for the health of my son" I said turning her tears slowly creped down my face leaving salty trails down my cheeks
"I know lexie and he will pull through this he looks better now the amoxicillin seems to be working so cheer up "mer said one arm hugging me and then leaving
"so peanut I think that I am going to clear my day and look after you " I said to the now sleeping peanut I left the room I looked back for a moment then kept walking till she found bailey
"Can I clear my day my sons sick and I need to look after him oh and yes I have a son his name is Matthew he's 3 months and I adopted him "lexie blurted out
"I already know I was with my son when you son went down and yes you can have the day off I will clear it with the chief so don't worry now get back to your son" bailey said smiling at me
"Thank you so much I said hurrying off so she didn't have a chance to change her mind.
"Crazy child" bailey said to her self as she watched the retreating form of lexie grey
Lexie woke up and looked at her watch she had been sleeping for 5 hours she sat up and rushed out of the on call room she had to get to her son she stopped dead seeing Addison in her son's room reading his chart she started to walk and stopped in the doorway
"Addison can I help you with something" Lexie asked
"No I was just checking his chart he's still a baby so he's on my rotation "Addison said turning to looking at Lexie
"Your rotation?" Lexie asked walking further into the room
"yes im going to be here for a month or more so I have been put on a small rotation that you son is on you know he is a spitting image of mark he has his eyes" Addison said her eyes following lexie
"I adopted him off Sloan his daughter im the only one she wanted to look after peanut and be his mother" Lexie said
"Peanut??" Addison asked moving closer to Lexie
"Its his nickname me and mer have for him" lexie said picking her sleeping son up and holding him close to her chest so he could hear her heart beat
"Why do you hold him like that?" Addison asked smiling
"He sleeps better when he hears my heart beat I don't know why but it always stops him crying to "Lexie answered looking up at Addison
"well some children sleep better with blankets you son defies odds and likes heart beats instead that makes him special in my eyes " Addison said stroking his face Lexie felt very uncomfortable "well I must go other children to see goodbye Lexie" Addison said turning to leave
"Why did you need to talk to mark?" Lexie asked
"He didn't return my calls or messages why am I telling you this it's not like your together or anything" Addison snapped and then left
Lexie stood there for a moment then looked at matt she decided now would be a good time to sing his lullaby
"Baby my sweet little soldier stand tall,
I want you to know that I am proud
To call you mine you will always be my baby
No matter what
I love you like the moon loves the stars
I love you like the sun the afternoon sky
Baby I love you like a mother love her son
I will always love you my little solider"
She stopped singing and looked at her son sleeping peacefully in her arms
"I didn't know you could sing "said the approaching mark
"Um I can't really it's just an act" Lexie said smiling
"Im sorry about before you must have been well I must have been hard to see Addison" mark said sanding in front of her
"I just had a small fight with her" lexie said looking down
"Wow lexie that's two fights today that's a new record "mark said laughing he stepped closer
"Yea im a rebel "lexie said smiling
"That's what I loved about you "mark said
"Oh im glad you used to love it "she said sadness in her eyes
"I still love it "mark said before leaning in and kissing her softly and being careful not to crush Lexie's pride and joy he stepped back and stroked her face he still loved her and he would make it work he turned and left her to her thoughts he didn't know that a certain some one or two saw him kiss lexie
Lexie blushed and turned her attension back to her son
TBC
(A/N sorry it took so long I've been so tired and on holiday to be able to do this I hope you like please let me know )
