A/N: Due to popular demand, I wrote a resolution. The first part was written before I saw the 100th episode and the second part was written after so there are spoilers for the 100th episode (which is absolutely amazing and heart-crushing). Hope you enjoy :)
"Bones…" Booth breathed back.
Booth stood on the threshold of his door unable to think of something to say or do. He was in shock that she was standing there; after all when he had called to say good-bye yesterday she had simply told him to have a safe trip.
"I…" Brennan attempted but she had no idea what to say. She felt her throat closing up with all the anxiety she was feeling.
"I have to get going Bones." Booth said sadly almost ten minutes later. This spurred Brennan into action.
"No!"
"No?" Booth raised an eyebrow as he picked up his suitcase, but he made no attempt to get past her.
"Please. Please don't leave Booth." Brennan said, she felt as though she could not catch her breath.
"Why should I stay?" Booth asked, looking directly into her eyes.
"I…Parker. You have to stay for Parker Booth. He needs you, you're his father." Brennan said quickly.
"I've explained everything to Parker Bones. He'll be okay for a couple months without me."
"No he won't. He came to see me the other day and asked me to help him get you to stay because he doesn't want you to leave."
"I know he doesn't want me to leave. But I think I need a little time away." Booth lowered his gaze and finally attempted to leave his apartment.
"I don't want you to leave." Brennan blurted out in panic as he tried to get past her.
"Bones you're not even going to be here." It came out slightly harsher than he intended but he could not bring himself to care. He was hurt that she would abandon him, abandon them for a year without even consulting with him first and yet he knew that he should not be angry; it would help him move on if she wasn't there.
"I'm not leaving. I changed my mind." Brennan said quietly. Booth put his suitcase down.
"What?"
"I decided not to go on the dig."
"Why not? You love ancient remains and you had no problems about leaving before." Booth subconsciously brought himself to his full and intimidating height.
"That was before."
"Bones, you are never this vague, usually I have to try to make you cut down on the details." Booth said wearily; he just wanted a straight answer.
"I had a conversation with Hodgins and I changed my mind."
"Hodgins changed your mind." Booth was confused and getting irritated. Hodgins was a good friend to her he knew, but he did feel a pang of pain that he had failed and Hodgins had succeeded. It was solidifying his intentions of leaving. Brennan knew she had to explain everything, it was time she stopped being so afraid to live her life the way she wanted, it was time to allow herself to be happy.
"Hodgins came and told me that I had hurt you. And I know I hurt you Booth, and I apologize for hurting you. I was just so scared that it would end. I'm no good at this Booth, you know that." Brennan sighed before starting again, Booth was a patient man but she could see that his patience was wearing thin at the moment.
"It was a mistake for us to stay partners after I asked you to give us a try." Booth said angrily, she wasn't sure if he was angry with her or himself, or both. Brennan couldn't say anything, it was all her fault.
"I tried moving on Bones." Booth's voice wavered with emotion as it had done that night two months ago. "I tried moving on, but it's so hard when I'm around you all the time and I just want you."
"I know." Her voice came out small and choked.
"Bones, if I leave it will give me a chance to move on." Booth caught her eye and held it, he couldn't believe he was gambling her a third time. Maybe he still had a problem.
"Don't leave Booth. Please." Brennan knew she sounded desperate and vulnerable but the only thing she could care about at the moment was Booth. He was offering himself again. Booth looked at her intensely. She could see the tears start to pool, another flashback to that night. She didn't want to hurt him anymore.
"I told you that I wanted to protect you from me. Obviously, I haven't done that. I'm a scientist Booth, but I've come to realize that scientists and gamblers have something in common. What you call risk, I call test. Right now I just have a bunch of hypotheses, I can't know if they are true or false without testing them."
"Are you saying you're willing to give us a try?" Booth asked, the hope in his voice was evident even to her. She nodded. Booth wasted no time in pulling her close and kissing her. Brennan's hand rested on his chest but this time she made no attempt to push him away.
