Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight. Stephenie Meyer does.


I wish he was back here with me, helping me through this pain that's inside. I wish I could see my best friend Alice. I miss her so much even her little shopping spree's well I mean big ones but I miss her dancing up and down stairs like a ballerina but a lot more graceful. I miss my two big brothers Jasper who I could talk to about anything and everything and he would listen. And Emmett the one who always liked laughing at me and making jokes about me and his bare hugs. I even missed Rosalie, I know we didn't get on well but I loved her like family. They were all family, Carlisle would always bandage me up and check me out if I was hurt and be a second father to me and Esme my second mother. I love how when I walked in she would hug me softly and kiss my forehead. I started to cry a lot harder by this point. I miss my love, my life, my soul and my everything. This just hasn't been the same without him and his vampire family.

I didn't understand how he could just go and leave me again! He promised he would never leave me again.

I wiped away the tears that were still falling because I heard Charlie's cruiser parking in his normal spot in the drive. I got up to check on his tea which was nearly done. I got out plates and 2 glasses and filled them with orange. I set them down on the table with the cutlery.

"Bella?" Charlie called.

"Yeah dad, I'm just sorting tea out." I tried to make my voice sound normal but I know it didn't sound very convincing.

"Okay, I'm just going to put the TV on shout me when it's done kidda."

"Okay, it shouldn't be long."

10 minutes passed and tea was done so I dished it out and put it on the table. I wasn't really that hungry so I only had one.

"Dad, tea is done."

"Okay coming now." I heard him make his way to the table.

We sat down to the normal silence. We didn't really talk much recently; I didn't to any one really. I don't even call Renée anymore I just email her as I know she will know something is wrong with me and I don't want to get into it with anyone.

I began to nibble at my food when Charlie actually spoke tonight.

"Bella, I'm…err worried about you." He said nervously

"What do you mean dad?"

"Well, you're not your self… recently, since the err Cullen's left."

I shivered at that name. I missed them so much I couldn't even think about them without crying.

I felt the tears coming once again. I tried to hold them back but it wasn't working.

"I am fine dad!" I snapped

"See, this is what I am on about. You won't even admit it to your self. Bella kidda you are falling apart since HE did this to you! You should start doing something, going out with mates or something." He was going red in the face and I knew he is worried about me but I will be okay in time so people keep saying.

"What are you trying to say?" I said looking down at my food.

"I'm saying sort your self out, or you can go live with Renée."

My mouth all open, did he just say that?

"I am not going anywhere! You can't make me." I said disagreeing

"Bella, I say what happens under my roof! Please stop moping over him! He is NOT coming back get over him!" he snapped at me.

I was in full tears by now. I ran upstairs not bothering to do the dishes or eat my food. I collapsed on my bed crying out a million tears a minute.

I went down stairs and sorted out the plates as Charlie left them for me as usual. He didn't bother to make contact with me as I was not in the best mood right now. I saw him look at me a few times but I didn't bother to make conversation with him. When I was done down stairs I went into my bed room and grabbed my wash bag along with some shorts and t-shirt. I got changed, brushed my teeth and washed my face. I went over to my window to close it as it was a bit cold in my room now.


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