Harry grinned, "I know dad. I'm just making sure; plus if she's angry; she might have quicker reflexes." he shut
up quickly as Lily entered the room. Apparently she'd heard what had been said as she shot James a glare of
disapproval. Harry stifled a laugh, however his serious side returned as the guilt crept its way back into his heart
"Harry... how could you be such a-" she said, however cut herself short.
"Well I don't even know how it happened." Harry replied. James looked at him and Harry continued, "I mean...
one minute we were talking about George; how she doesn't love him as much as she loves me and is only with
him so he wouldn't kill himself... so she said anyway and the next, she snogged me... and the next..." he paused
as his voice slowly quietened. "She took my shirt off..." he looked down at his feet as he said this; shame had set in.
"I don't think your mum wants all the details, mate." James said weakly; Harry could tell he'd somewhat
disturbed him.
Harry somewhat grinned, "sorry dad." he said quietly. He and Lily both shut their eyes; Lily through her frustration and
Harry because he didn't want to cry in front of his parents; he continued to hold his tears.
Lily sighed, "am I really that much of a useless mother?"
Harry smiled grimly, "No... You're not, mum... I'm just an idiot."
"Lily, please don't start that again." James said; he knew what was coming.
"I've ruined everything..." Harry muttered; he too knew what Lily were about to start.
Lily looked at Harry, "... then explain to me this." she snapped, "which part of your life I tell you to have sex
with random people?"
Harry sighed, "You didn't tell me to have sex with random people. Ever. It just... happened; I was caught off-
guard and I love Luna... a lot." he frowned, "I wasn't ready for it... but I felt helpless in a way; I know I should
have backed out or... something." Times like now he wished Hermione still had the time turner; it would be
useful for times like this.
James didn't say anything; he just sat there quietly, looking at Harry. Lily on the other hand, buried her head in
her hands. Harry looked at James (who'd wrapped an arm around Lily) with tears in his eyes, feeling helpless,
Harry gazed at the floor as though he expected it to move or something.
Lily sighed again and lifted her head to look at Harry, "what did Luna say?"
This was where Harry really wished he could have gone back in time; the conversation had already been
awkward enough without this.
He fell silent for a moment as he wracked his mind on how to word it; after a moment said, "she wanted more...
she couldn't get enough of me and it's awkward because she's with George; I told her she can't have me
because of him but she didn't listen... or care..." he paused to look at his mum and dad; dread had made its home
in the pit of his stomach. "Now she's completely in love with me and wanted to have a kid... she said she
wanted to have one because she might not be able to be with me even though I told her we'd see what happens
with her and George and well... yeah..." he finished, his face flushed; one thing he didn't expect or want to be
talking about was this.
James looked at Harry, slight confusion on his face, "you didn't tell me that..." he said.
"I know, dad." Harry said as he looked back to the floor again. "I didn't know what you'd say." he mumbled.
He continued to gaze at the floor, "why do girls have to either leave me or get me into shit..." he thought.
Lily stood to her feet and paced the room, "for Heaven's sake..." she sighed.
Harry watched her, "I'm sorry mum."
"Harry..." she paused. "I swear when your dad and I were your age..." she paused again. "Well I didn't even
think of... with him." She said, Harry couldn't help but slip James a grin.
"I didn't even think of it either, mum!" Harry said, somewhat hurt that she'd thought he was thinking like this,
"Luna was the one to think of it. It just... happened." The tears he held were slowly slipping more into his eyes
as he welled up and let out a small sob.
Lily sighed again, "You know... just do what you want Harry... seriously, I understand... I fail as a mother." she
Snapped, mainly because she felt entirely disheartened.
"You don't fail, mum! At all- I-I wasn't prepared for what happened with Luna; I really tried to back out; I
just... couldn't." Harry said, he felt horrible he'd caused his own mother to feel this way.
"It was supposed to be my job to make sure you were prepared..." she said, Harry could hear the hurt in her
voice.
"You weren't to know this would happen so soon, mum." Harry said, in attempt to calm her down. "Really, in the situation I was in... it was that sudden of a change... it
just... it shocked Me." he added.
Finally James apparently found words to say to Lily, "Lily, you haven't failed as a mum." he looked down and
muttered to himself, "probably not a good idea to mention what I got up to at school..."
Harry heard James' mutters and nodded in agreement, "You haven't failed, mum. Really." he said to
Lily in hope she'll finally be convinced.
