Okay so I won't say much the author's note at the end is long enough just uh...sorry for this chapter it's kinda dark... :/
"Oh fatass. I'm hungry." My older sister said her face looming over mine.
"Fine I'll be down in a minute." I said and she smiled skipping off down the stairs. I got up groaning in pain and went downstairs getting the bacon and pancake mix out of the fridge and cupboard. I made enough for my parents and sister knowing I wouldn't get any myself.
I finished setting the dishes onto the table before starting on the dishes. "Ya fatass doesn't get any. Thank you though." I nodded surprised she'd even said thank you before putting the dishes away.
"Ya enjoy your breakfast bitch." I said under my breath.
"What was that?" My father said and I turned on my heel not noticing him before.
"Just to enjoy your breakfast." His palm came in connection with my cheek causing blood to fill my mouth.
"Liar. Go up to your room, bitch. Two weeks no coming down for anything! You understand!" He screamed and I nodded going up the stairs.
I was nearly half way up before my dad came up behind me tugging me by my hair. "Oh and Lily I think you forgot something. He held my up by my hair before pushing me down the stairs. He walked away laughing as I used the railing to drag myself up the stairs.
Staying in my room for two weeks was like heaven, if heaven included self-harming and starving. All that came was a letter from Marauders, Beatrice and my friend Nicole. If it weren't for the cupcake James sent I probably would've been dead. My cat was already thin but at least she could sneak outside and eat mice.
I was let out of my room but only to cook for my family and get beatings from dad. Petunia never stopped calling me fat. All I wanted was somebody to save me, even if it were James. I'm just a fatass I don't deserve help, I deserve this. I. Am. Nothing.
"Lily!" I looked in my mirror making sure I looked somewhat okay before going downstairs preparing myself for hell.
"Yes mum?"
"Your school list came in." I grabbed it from her and put on a fake smile.
"I'm going to need to get this stuff." I said and my mother nodded.
"Okay your father will drive you if I heard of any shenanigans there will be punishment. You understand slut?" I nodded and she smiled.
"Dominic!" She screamed and my father bounded into the room. "Our daughter need a ride to Diagon Alley will you drive her?" he nodded and took my arm dragging me to the car. I was only thankful for my summer job a few years back that'd given me plenty of wizard money. None of them really understood how to convert it so I'd told a little white lie that it was more than it should've been. Now I had 300 galleons and 30 sickles.
"So you will not speak to any freaks?" I shook my head "you will not act like a freak?" I shook my head "And you will not be a slut." I shook my head and he slapped me across the face once.
"Oh and Lily?" I nodded and he came closer grabbing me "You are mine." He hissed before shoving me from the car.
I stood panicked on the sidewalk before turning into Diagon Alley wishing to wipe off the filfth I now felt living all over me.
"Evans!" A familiar voice said as I entered Gringotts. I turned seeing Potter and smiled at him happy to see a familiar face no matter how arrogant he may be.
"You okay?" I nodded and he looked at me twice. "I don't believe so."
"Why not? I'm fine." I said forcefully and he shrugged.
"You're completely bruised and your clothes are too big."
"I'm okay Potter. I've just been fighting with my sister. You know how it is."
"No I don't actually. I have no siblings." I shrugged and he nodded.
"James!" His mom screamed and I turned seeing a woman with long dark hair smiling at us.
"I'd better go bye Evans." I nodded and he ran off. I wished I had parents like his. Parents who treated me with respect and didn't feel the need to beat me or starve me because of what I was. I longed for parents who'd love me. Yet dad had never grabbed me like that before and I hated to think of what would follow.
Only a month and a half left I told myself as a goblin escorted me to my vault. I took out enough money before I did all my shopping.
Dad picked me up and drove me home not mentioning earlier and giving no hint of what he'd do later.
I walked into my room blood running down my legs, bruises covering my body. I felt horrible and all I wanted was to die. Tears ran down my cheeks and I knew I had to trust somebody but I didn't know who I could trust. James was too arrogant along with all his Marauders, I was truly alone.
I didn't sleep that night or any night for the next few weeks I stayed in my room as the bruises got worse, there were bruises upon bruises and night after night there were more scars and cuts covering my body.
Things didn't get better only worse as I counted down the days until school, so far only three left. "Lily!" I ran downstairs and my mother glared at me. "We want to know why we saw this owl with a note from a boy." My father held up Potter's owl by its talons and the note in the other hand.
"Let him go That isn't even my owl his owner will be extremely angry." I said and dad only laughed.
'You slut, you slept with this boy before even dating!" I looked at him prepared for the beating all emotion had left me.
My dad laughed letting the bird go and he flew out the open window. My father grabbed me by my hair lifting me off the ground and smirked. "You are mine nobody else's!" I whimpered in pain and my father laughed dropping me letting me land with a thump on the hardwood floor.
"Go to your room I can't stand to look at you anymore." I said and I ran up the stairs as fast as I could before going into my trunk grabbing my blade and dragging it across my wrist.
The blood bubbled at the surface and I smiled as the blood kept coming. I smiled as I started feeling dizzy and believed death had finally come for me.
Okay hi all...so how do you like the ending :P don't worry I'll update tomorrow right after I finish my civcs homework -_- So anyways sorry for the cliffy (i'm not really sorry) and if you haven't noticed by now the chapter titles are song titles as well...
Welcome to my life-simple plan
Faith in the knife-Scary Kids Scaring Kids
So it took me like 40 minutes just to find a song for this chapter...(Thabnks yahoo answers lol) So ya...this is the closest I could get to well describing the chapter...
So ya enjoy and thanks for all the feedback for my last chapter I appreciate it a lot :D
Also Rebekah: Thanks so much for the review and here I am continuing :D
