Instead of going home like I was planning on, I went to First beach. I loved the smell of the sea and the sound of the waves crashing against the rocks.
I sighed So peaceful.
I sat down on top of the cliff we always used to jump off, but in this weather nobody would come up here. I sat like this for a while. When my thoughts started to drift.
I started thinking about my parents, I missed them still so much, they both had been in a car crash last year.
They didn't survive.
People wanted me to go to a foster home after that, but I didn't wanted to leave the rest of my life behind. Since I was old enough to stay on my own, so that's exactly what I did.
A lot of people didn't approve, but it was my decision to make and to be honest I couldn't care less.
My parents left me a lot of money, but it felt so wrong to use it. So I worked for a bit, the elders helped me out and of course Alicia. She fussed over me every time she saw me, it was sweet really. You could see why my mother had been best friends with her, they were so much alike. I only used the money when I really needed it.
I never had a lot of friends, but Paul was my friend for a long time, he helped me out after my parents died. Stayed with me when I needed him. He was my rock.
And of course you had to fall for him
I smiled a sad smile,
I know somebody that saw that one coming.
- Flashback
"Honey, come inside for a minute!" my mother yelled from inside the house.
I was currently reading a book on the grass. "Coming!" I answered her.
I ran inside and saw Paul and his mother standing there, I gave them both a hug and smiled up at my mom, "are they staying for dinner?" she nodded her head, a thoughtful look crossing her face "Why don't you and Paul go do something together, then Alicia an me will finish dinner together" I smiled.
"When does dad come home?"
"He will be here any minute, now go" and she playfully shoved me and Paul out of the kitchen "We have work to finish"
I laughed at her silly antics and looked over at Paul "What do you want to do?"
He smirked "what were you doing before I came in?" I blushed "Reading"
"I already thought so, well don't stop for me" he told me "I'll just watch" he pushed my book in my hands after looking at the cover first.
"Pride and Prejudice?" he wrinkled his nose, I smiled, it looked adorable "Please tell me it's not that romantic crap you always read"
I playfully hit him "It's not crap, it's nice. Which you would know if you tried it sometime". He smirked, closed his eyes and laid down on the grass.
I stood up "Where are you going?" he asked me.
I laughed "To get your lazy ass something to drink" and walked towards the kitchen.
Before I opened it I heard whispering coming from inside.
"I'm telling you, these two will be such a nice couple" I heard Alicia, Paul's mom say. I halted near the door and listened, "I think Lily is in love with him" My mom whispered "She just doesn't realize it".
I tried to scream when someone placed his hand on my mouth, but it was muffled by the hand. I relaxed when I noticed it was my father's hand.
He was grinning "It's rude to listen in on other peoples conversations princess" he told me. I smiled and hugged my father. Just then my mother yelled "Dinners ready!"
- Now
That was a week before they died I thought grimly How can life be so cruel sometimes. When the memory faded away, I was surprised to find out I sat like this almost the entire day. The sun was already starting to go down. My muscles were sore from sitting in the same position that long. I stood up and stretched myself.
I debated with myself what I was going to do now.
Might as well go there now, I decided. So I walked back to my car and drove it to the one place I dreaded to go.
I slowly walked to my parents grave, they were buried right next to each other.
They would've wanted that.
My parents always had been the lovey dovey type. Even after twenty years of marriage it never faded. I loved them for it.
I stopped in front of their gravestones and sat down, just watching and absorbing for a while.
"Hey mom and dad" I finally whispered "How are you guys doing up there".
Tears were gathering in my eyes "I miss you so much" I told them.
"Everything is such a mess" I sobbed.
I completely broke down, I don't know for how long I sat there but at a certain point it had become dark outside. I still hadn't stopped crying.
All of a sudden I felt someone gently lay a hand on my shoulder.
I looked up and saw Alicia standing there holding her hand out for me to take, "Come on sweetheart, let's get you home"
I looked at her hand and slowly took it, she quickly pulled me in for a hug "It'll get better honey" she told me, rubbing soothing circles on my back.
I was silent for a while, just content to be in her arms "but it hurts so much" I said.
She smiled sadly at me "I know, honey, I know"
After a while we started walking towards her car, I hadn't noticed all the other people that were there until now. Sam Uley, Jared, Embry, Jacob, Quil, Seth, Leah, Paul, the elders and some people I didn't recognized. I quickly looked down, I didn't wanted to see their pitiful looks.
When she got me in her car we sat there for a while, Alicia still holding me.
"We were so worried" she finally told me "I couldn't find you anywhere, we have been searching everywhere".
"I was up at the cliffs, and then came to the cemetery" I told her.
She sighed, and we were quiet again for a while
"Listen, I don't know what happened between Paul and you, but please don't ever do this again. Whatever he said, he must have had a reason for it. He would never hurt you on purpose. You know better than that Lils" she kissed my forehead.
"Now close your eyes and try to get some sleep. Paul will take your car back home"
She started the car.
I hadn't noticed how tired I really was. This day had emotionally drained me.
I closed my eyes and welcomed sleep to take me away to a safer place.
