Disclaimer: i don't own south of nowhere

Ok so I personally love this part of my story, well i love all the parts but this is i think my best writing lol its also the very first time ive written in first person so yea! i hope you guys love it as much as i do.

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Ashley laid on top of me kissing every piece of flesh she could. To say I was wet was an understatement, I was drenched, soaked even. She made everything feel so sensual. Her lips moved back to mine and gave me a few amazing Ashley kisses before hopping off the bed. My eyes go wide and I know what she's doing. But I am not going to cave not at all. I'm a fighter and if she wants to play that game then consider it being played. I get off the bed as well and head to my closet without a word, I think she thinks I'm mad at her now from the look she gave me. Before I even look at my clothes I crash back in her arms pulling her back to the bed knowing I lost but also not really caring either. She just makes me so extremely happy I can't control myself around her. I feel her smile into the kiss and can hear her chuckle her low seductive chuckle that just makes me crazy. I throw her shirt off and it almost knocks over my lamp. I don't care I hardly even notice because I can feel Ashley grinding against me and I try my hardest to get her pants off as quickly as possible. She actually growls at another knock at the door.

"I'm busy!" I yell with little air. You can thank Ashley's fingers on me for that. They're tracing circles allover my body.

"Okay Spence but I just came to tell you we're going to leave tomorrow so you gotta hurry." Ashley shot up and shrieked.

"What!" I smiled at how cute she was when she freaked out.

"Ash, its ok, It's going to be fine." I tell her stroking her hair slowly calming her down. Her breathing began to slow down and she looked at me intently. The kind of look that always made me blush. Her head lowered once more and kissed me sweetly. I felt her shift and then felt extremely cold as she sat up undoing her bra. I smile as she makes her way back down to my face. This feeling is great, the one where you just get butterflies all over not just in the pit of your stomach. Her fingers go back to drawing circles everywhere she can reach. I finally feel around for her underwear and rip them off as fast as I can. I feel her fingers slide further up my leg and finally they reach their destination. I moan as I feel them inside me and feel them thrusting.

"You're so wet." Ashley says with a smile looking me dead in the eyes. I think I blushed but I didn't care since she started kissing me again.

"Ashley," I breathe,

"I…almost." I manage to say before I let out one loud moan. She's smiling widely and I can't help but smile back. She lays next to me and I think I was about to fall asleep from listening to her breathing. But she must have noticed because she said,

"We should start packing." I nodded with a smile. Her voice always seemed so new to me no matter how many times I've heard her talk.

"I love you." I say without reason. I just needed to say it like it was a big secret that I needed to get off my chest. She smiles back at me her eyes sparkling.

"I love you too." she whispers back. I don't want to get up, I refuse to get up just because she's still in my bed. Just because she's still looking at me, just because her smile is still showing brightly. Just because. I say I love you one last time before she gets off my bed. I follow only because I know that there was no reason to stay in bed anymore she wasn't by my side breathing in my ear, saying sweet nothings into my ear, like she did every night I was with her before I fell asleep in her arms. I watch her smile as I get out of bed.

"Ashley?" I call.

"Yes?" She asks me. "Will you love me forever?" I ask. I'd like to say I know the answer but truly I don't. She walks over to me with a sweet smile on her face.

"Spencer I will love you forever and for always, you're the only one for me." Ashley says simply. I can't help but smile, I mean how can I not? I rush over to her and peck her lips. "You're the only one for me too Ashley." I tell her. She smiles and we slowly get dressed and start to pack.

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I'm folding her clothes as she's picking them out and just gazing upon the beauty that I can call mine. I smile and can't wait for my next chance to touch her. I feel like I'm going crazy without touching her. I get lost in my thoughts and continue folding when I hear her angelic voice in my ear. "

Ash you ok?" She asks me. I look up at her and smile.

"Fine." I tell her. God those blue eyes get me every time. I can try as hard as I can but I won't be able to look away. She smiles back all the worry erased from her face and kisses me for a short while. Oh Spencer Carlin if only you knew what you do to me. A part of me is terrified with the trip that is unavoidable but another part is so extremely excited for tomorrow to come. I went back to my duty of folding clothes. I heard her parents car pull into the driveway and my heart stops because I know heavens over and by Spencer's long sigh I can tell that she knows it too. She walked over to her door and unlocked it. I shoot her a smile and look down at the duffle bag full of her clothes and realize this is more than just a weeks worth of clothes.

"Hey Spence, how long are we staying there?" I asked surprised that I didn't know. That just goes to prove that I'd go anywhere with Spencer no matter how much I know about it. Just say her name and I'm there.

The entire summer." Spencer replied. I smile. A summer of nothing but Spencer wait scratch that a summer of nothing but Spencer and her family….what am I doing? I listen to footsteps come up the stairs and watch the door open slowly.

"Spencer you packed?" I hear her mom ask. She looks at me and I can already feel the hatred.

"Oh hello Ashley." She said coldly.

"Hi." I squeak. Spencer emerges from her closet and tells her mom that she's almost done.

'could you let down your hair be transparent for awhile, just a little while, to see if your human after all, honesty is a hard attribute to find when we all want to seem like we've got it all figured out well let me be the first to say that I don't have a clue I don't have all the answers ain't gonna pretend like I do..' rang my phone. "Hello?"

"Hey Ashley, I need your help." Kyla said on the other end.

"Oh god what Kyla?" I reply.

"Ok so Aiden is just completely getting to me lately and I just can't stand it," my sister rambles on. I zone out as Spencer and her mom stare at me.

"Hey Kyla can I call you back?" I ask I listen to Kyla complain but hang up on her.

"Sorry." I say flipping my phone shut. Paula just sent me another cold smile and walked out of the room.

"Hey Spence, when do you think she'll stop hating me?" I ask quietly. Yes this is my vulnerable side. The side of me that only Spencer herself gets to see and no one else.

"Probably until she never see's me with you again." Spencer replies. All the insecurities come rushing at me. Why is she with me? What do I have to give her beside's heartache? Why does she love me the way she does? I hardly notice that she's sitting in my lap giving me worried eyes.

"That's never going to happen you know that right?" She says with that same worried face. I don't know. She shifts so her back is to me and takes my hands so that they wrap around her. "How can you not know," She says.

Did she read my thoughts or did I say that out loud?

"This is how it's supposed to be Ashley, just you and me." She finishes. I smile, she knows just what to say to scare those insecurities away.

"You think this trip is a good idea?" I ask her. I feel her sigh and snuggle closer into me.

"I think it's a great idea." She says. I kiss her cheek and and rest my chin on her shoulder.

"Aw if that's not true love I don't know what is." I hear from the doorway. Spencer nearly jumps off me but stays put realizing it's Chelsea.

"Don't ever do that again." Spencer says with a smile. I pull her as close as she was before and I watch Chelsea smile as she and Clay walk into the room.