Tattered Memoirs
A Loveless Fan Fiction
By: InuShikaCho
Disclaimer: I do not own this shounen-ai anime… but I do own the plot of this fan fiction…
(A/N): There are some parts of this fan fiction which is not really based from the anime… the first italicized paragraphs are based from the last episode of the series… I didn't actually base it from the episode… I added some words and revised. And also, this may contain a lot of OOC…
Chapter 2: Broken Promises
Ritsuka was already in high school. It's been 2 years since his brother died from a murder. He could still remember every detail of his beloved brother's death. His burned dead body was sitting in my chair inside our classroom… Seimei was calling my name, Ritsuka. Loveless, one without love; it was really odd to hear that your true name is loveless. It's like you've never been loved by anyone in your life. But as his story continued, the title Loveless was no longer needed, for he was already loved by someone, Soubi. "Let's make memories together!" a line that, this known to be loveless, would always say. He thought that the present Ritsuka was not the real one. But when Soubi came to his life, every broken piece in his life was replaced by new ones.
"Soubi…" he whispered.
"Yes, Ritsuka?" Soubi answered as he looked back at him.
"What if Seimei is alive and ordered you to kill me?" Ritsuka questioned.
"That's impossible, Seimei is dead" Soubi quickly replied.
"That's why I said if!" he demanded, "Will you kill me?! Answer me Soubi! You'll kill me right?!"
Instead of answering, Soubi looked away, "I knew it…" Ritsuka ran but Soubi grabbed his hand and pulled him to his body.
"Ritsuka, if Seimei is alive and orders me to kill you… I'll die first" Soubi said, "For me… you're the most important person in my life, Ritsuka…"
"Soubi…"
Ritsuka tried to be better, than his brother, for Soubi. Because he knew that Soubi really love Seimei much. He also knew that the reason why Soubi came to his life was because his brother ordered him to. But when these words "Because of you Soubi was freed again and now he's back from becoming a zombie… thanks to you Ritsuka" were told, Ritsuka was even more persevered and loved Soubi more and so as Soubi to him.
It was also 2 years already since both of them became fighters and sacrifices, even though they don't own one another. Ritsuka was thanked for the true fighter didn't come to his life. The bond for one another became stronger and their love was even more.
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Ritsuka woke up with a dream about Soubi and him. He opened his eyes with red blushes in his cheeks and prepared for school. Like the usual, he went to school with a scar from his mother. He endured every blood that dropped and every pain that he received. Even though everything had changed, his mother didn't. Soubi was in his mind all the time, but the odd thing was Soubi haven't sent him any messages that morning not like before.
"Okay class! Let's now start our quiz!" Shinonomi-sensei declared as the student's complained. Ritsuka's grade school teacher, Shinonomi, lose her ears a few months from now. She found a suitor and got married and was now 3 months pregnant. Yayoi confessed again to Yuiko and after a month, Yuiko answered him a yes. They were already dating and always visit each others' house during their vacant time. It was a huge difference from the past. Everyone had moved on from everything that happened in their lives.
"Aoyagi-kun, you haven't written your name or even your answers!" Shinonomi said with surprise, "Are you okay, Aoyagi-kun?"
Ritsuka was disturbed since he left the house. Not because of his mother, because of Soubi. He had a bad feeling that something was wrong, something was happening and he's not been told by anyone. "Anou, sensei, can I go to the bathroom for a while?"
He opened the faucet and washed his hands with the cold water. Soubi… He took out his phone and looked if Soubi had sent him a message, Soubi…, but he didn't receive any. He opened his contacts and called Soubi, Stupid Soubi… answer the phone but nobody responded or answered. He called once again and hoped that somebody would answer the phone. Damn! Soubi! He closed his phone and put it into his pocket again. Soubi, where are you?! You said you'll always answer… he looked at his reflection in the mirror and was surprised to see the same butterfly flying with broken wings behind him.
"Soubi!" He shouted but when he looked back, the butterfly disappeared, "Don't tell me…"
Ritsuka ran out of the school and took out his phone again, "Soubi! Answer the phone!" he demanded in anger, but still no response. Soubi might have been fighting again with another fighter and didn't tell Ritsuka about it, but then, they were already connected. Ritsuka would feel if Soubi accepted a battle, without him knowing. "Stupid Soubi, you broke your promise again! You said you'll always answer! But why aren't you answering it right now?!" Ritsuka cried in anger. Soubi may have done this many times before, but Ritsuka wouldn't allow him to do this again. His scared with the fact that a history would repeat itself, the time when Soubi was almost killed by Zero, the time when Soubi pushed Ritsuka away from him. No, he doesn't want it to happen again. Because he's sure that he'll be hurt again and might lose Soubi this time. Soubi… I'm very worried… where are you?!
He searched for him everywhere. He even went to the same place where he found Soubi before, but Soubi wasn't even there. He rode the bus and walked a lot of miles but he couldn't find Soubi anywhere. In a little more seconds, Ritsuka was about to lose his patience. "Soubi, where the heck are you? You're pissing me off!" he stopped from a light post and took out his phone again. For the last time, he called Soubi, if nobody will answer the call it means Soubi has been fighting again or in trouble but if somebody answered means he's safe. The phone rang continuously, but the line was disconnected when Ritsuka saw a butterfly appeared again as it fell to the ground. Ritsuka stared it with surprise in his eyes. Suddenly, his phone rang. He immediately answered it, "Soubi! Where are you?! Don't you know I'm very worried for you?!"
"Aoyagi-kun, it's me Kio… Soubi's friend, remember?" the caller answered back with a voice of disappointment and jealousy.
"Kio… yes, I remember you… Tell me! Where's Soubi?!" Ritsuka shouted as he was very eager to hear the answer.
"I'm right over your house, I wanted to tell you something, since Soubi told me to" Kio added
"I'm not at home nor at school! Tell me, where's Soubi" Ritsuka shouted again.
"Don't shout at me! I'm not deaf!" Kio demanded, "Soubi wanted to tell you that he's fine…"
"You're lying!" Ritsuka said, "I know he's not fine! Tell me the truth Kio, is he in danger?!"
"I knew you'll figure it out faster… he forced me not to tell you this but…" Kio paused, "Soubi is at the hospital right now…"
"H-Hospital…" Ritsuka murmured in surprise, "What hospital?!"
"Wait! Please don't panic Aoyagi-kun! He's at the nearest hospital near your house, but don't worry his fine right now… his resting…"
"Thank you Kio!"
"Wait, Aoyagi-kun"
"Why?"
"Please
take care of Soubi…" Kio said and hanged up the phone. Ritsuka
was puzzled after hearing it, but later on he ignored it and went to
the hospital.
Ritsuka's PoV
You're stupid Soubi! You promised me that you'll never hide me anything again! But what have you done, you always break your promises. I thought that everything would change and you'll be more loyal to me more… but you disappointed me. I know I'm not Seimei… but I hope you know how much I'm worried… I don't know what I will do if ever I'll lose you, Soubi…
End of PoV
The flash of light from the entrance of the hospital had welcomed Ritsuka as he entered. It was already dusk and he knew that he'll broke his curfew again, but just for the sake of Soubi he will. His mother would hate him again from breaking the curfew. He will receive injury again, but he could endure all of them if it's for Soubi. Ritsuka doesn't care about what may happen as long as Soubi is safe. He's not obsessed but he's in love. You would do anything for the one you love even your life is at risk, right?
"Soubi!" Ritsuka forcibly opened the white door. "Youji, it's you…"
"Ritsuka?" Youji welcomed as Ritsuka entered the room
"What happened to Soubi?" Ritsuka ran towards Soubi who was sleeping on the bed, "Soubi"
An oxygen mask was covered in his mouth and dextrose was placed in his arm, "Soubi…" Ritsuka walked closely to Soubi and stared him worriedly.
"I'm going already! My fighter is worried for me too… We'll visit tomorrow! Please take care of Soubi for us, okay Ritsuka?" Youji said while he was about to leave to the door
"Wait! Can you tell me what happened to Soubi?" Ritsuka asked with a calming voice. This time he wanted to be sure.
"Anou… I also don't know anything; Kio just called me up and said that Soubi was in the hospital…" Youji answered back
"I see… Thanks anyway…"
"Ritsuka… Soubi loves you so much!" Youji left Ritsuka with confusion.
Of course, Soubi loves him, he can feel it. But, if Soubi really loves him, why does he need to lie, to keep secrets? If they really both love one another, they wouldn't create any barrier between them to make them separate, because both of them know that it'll be a great pain for them. Both of them changed and made themselves move on from a horror past. It would be a great chance if they would be together until the end, right?
Soubi… Ritsuka said to his mind, he grabbed Soubi's hand and stared at him even more …Please… be okay…
--End of chapter--
