iOnly Care About Us - iDeal With Death
After the way I ended the last one, I bet nobody thought Melanie's impact would be so big. I really enjoyed writing this chapter, it was fun. I really had to take my own experiences and put Sam through them. So as Sam relives her own memories in this chapter. I relived some of my own while writing it.
I own nothing involving the characters, cast, or iCarly its self.
Sam only had one place where she could really break and let it all out: St. John's cemetery. Sam had never really been religious, but A. Nobody knew she went there to break and B. Its where Melanie's supposed to be buried. She has a plot right next to Sam. As ignorant as her mother could be, this was one thing she'd always had figured out. Sam wasn't sure why she figured something like that out so early in there live's... Unless she always thought one of us would...pass...at a young a age.
If I die young bury me in satin,
lay me down on a bed of roses,
sink me in the river at dawn,
send me away with the words of a love song
Sam always used to portray how she hated Melanie and that she lived in her shadow. Though the truth being she never really hated her, if anything she had looked up to Melanie. She wouldn't lie to herself though, Sam did live in her shadow at least with their mom. Their mom always favorited Melanie over Sam, but Sam had already come to terms with that.
It was coming to terms with the fact that Melanie was gone that was hard.
Sam walked to the back of the cemetery, where the cemetery met the woods. There was a little path that led down a trail to a river bed near by, but down the path aways there was a second path that led of it and into an open field that stretched about half a mile. Sam got to the field and collapsed from mental exhaustion.
It was as Sam lied there in the field that her mind decided to scroll through old memories.
She flashed back to the time of her first kiss. It was a couple months before she had kissed Freddie. When Sam reached a point where She had gone into a deep inner depression, she had never really been interested in getting her first kiss until recently. But after each attempt with a fail, and then some guys wouldn't even go out with her, she was spiraling down. Ever so slowly, but spiraling she was.
She was getting desperate, and and her depression increased as the days went by. Realizing that she was getting herself stuck between a rock and a hard place, she decided to go to someone for help. But not wanting to embarrass herself with Carly she went to her twin sister.
With her sister being at boarding school, she had to call her. The tone rang as she called Melanie over Facerange.
Melanie picked up.
"Hey Sam"
As opposite as Melanie was to Sam,
Melanie always gave good advice,
no matter how annoying her differences were to Sam.
"Hey Melanie"
"How've you been Sam?"
"I've been...well that's why I called you."
"What's wrong?"
"Well you know how I've never kissed anyone."
"Yeah" Melanie replied with concern.
"It's starting to get to me Melanie, I haven't been happy for months now.
I've come close a couple times but, now I can't even get guys to go out with me anymore."
"Sam let me tell you a secret I've only kissed one guy. We broke up after a couple weeks, I was heart broken.
What I'm trying to say is, don't sweat it Sam good things come to people who wait."
"That's easy for you to say you get everything handed to you on a silver platter!" Sam said in anger.
"I DO NOT. (after a few seconds) Look lets not fight, and I'm sorry I was being insensitive."
Melanie said the last part peacefully.
Sam huffed
"Look, are there any guys that you want to either date or kiss?" Asked Melanie.
"A few" Sam said.
"Good, do you know if any of them like you back?"
"I'm not sure." Sam said nervously. "But there is one guy I really want to try with."
"Cool, You should go for it." Melanie said.
"I don't know, It's kind of a long shot, Melanie."
"Look Sam if there's one thing I want you to take from this conversation it's that, Do what makes you happy, that's what's most important.
Look I've got to go I have class in 10 minutes."
"Kay, thank you Melanie."
"Oh yeah and Sam, we need to talk more, and not just when you have a problem. Bye Sam."
"Bye."
Little did Melanie know, she's the whole reason Sam had her first kiss with Freddie.
After going through more memories for about an hour, she froze, when she got a call from Carly.
Sam didn't want to answer, she just stared at the phone, scared to answer. Scared to talk to Carly, all Sam's feelings for Carly came back.
All the want, joy, and LOVE.
She was scared as of what to do, Sam had always been heterosexual,
but she was beginning to question her values.
When it clicked in her head. Do what makes me happy.
And as the last ring was going through,
Sam answered.
Music - If I Die Young - The Band Perry
So who thought Melanie would have that big of an impact as she did, huh?
Hey I thank everybody for their support, I'm having so much fun writing this story.
Can't wait for chapter 3.
