WARNING! I can tell you right now. My story can be stupid. I am a newbie at writing like this. Give me some time to adjust and set the tone. I promise I will do the best I can and work harder.
DISCLAIMER: I do not own Naruto or any of the characters in the anime/manga. I own my sexy Kevin.
--Alexkatia
I felt like I was coming through. My eyes opened softly and I sighed. The white light was blinding me. I blinked a couple of times before I realized where I was. I was lying in the bed at the hospital. I touched my body to feel the robe. I sat up to glance around the room. Nobody was here.
"I hope they didn't call him," I prayed.
A nurse came in with long blonde hair. She had blue eyes and a big smile but when she saw me the smile died. I can't believe they assigned her to me. The last person I'd want to see is Ino.
"Hello Ms. Haruno," greeted Ino.
"That's Mrs. Uchiha to you." I snapped.
Ino jumped back in surprise. Sasuke may have told her he left me but by court and the church I am still Mrs. Uchiha. I won't let anyone take that away from me.
"I'm sorry Mrs. Uchiha," said Ino.
She came to my monitor and wrote down what she saw. I glared at her the whole time. It's now she decides not to be my friend or fake friend. My mouth fixed itself into a scowl. Ino came to touch me but I threw a tantrum. I pushed her away from me.
"I don't need you. I am the better nurse. Tsunade gave you the job because I begged her to. I got married first and all you're getting is my seconds. I don't need you wannabe me." I sneered.
Ino dropped her clipboard. Her eyes where full of hurt. I felt sorry for her but I reminded myself what she did to me. She took Sasuke away from me. She ruined my life.
I took a deep breath and lay back down. It wouldn't help if I kicked the crap out of her. She isn't worth it. Ino was just standing there looking at me. I don't care. I had a right to be insane. If anyone was in my situation I am sure they would raise hell.
"Why did you do something so stupid?"
I closed my eyes. I didn't want to see him. He was going to yell at me. I knew the hospital would call him. They don't know what's going on now.
"Why did you stab yourself?" asked Sasuke.
"Save your breath Sasuke. I don't want to talk about it. It doesn't matter anyways." I rushed.
"Why did you hurt yourself?"
"Why do you care? I'm not your responsibility. I'll make sure the hospital never calls you again. I'm sorry if you were doing something."
"Sakura, you always do this. Just answer my question."
I already went through that shit. I wasn't going to be humiliated. Not here and not in front of her. "I HAD A BREAKDOWN! IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT TO HERE? IT WAS TOO MUCH FOR ME AT THE TIME!"
The whole room was quiet. Ino's jaw was hanging and her eyes were shocked. Sasuke was staring at me. His eyes were unreadable. I got nervous under his stare so I shifted. He always had that effect on me. I groaned in pain softly but Sasuke heard. He came to me and pulled the blanket off of me. He slipped his hand under my robe and placed it on my stomach gently.
"Are you okay Sakura? What did the doctor say?" inquired Sasuke.
"Um...I-I don't know...but it-it really hurts." I stammered.
Sasuke smirked. "You remembered that I always checked your tummy to see if you were pregnant."
"Yeah, I do remember."
I knew my cheeks turned red even though I didn't want them to. In the past Sasuke would always feel my tummy and ask if his baby is in there. I would say no and then he would lift me up and say we need to fix that. Then we would do interesting things…in interesting positions.
"Sasuke, could you get me some water please?" I pleaded.
"I'll get it," offered Ino.
Before I could stop her she left the room in a hurry. Sasuke took back his warmth with his hand. I missed his gentle touches. No, that was stupid. How could I miss something I never experienced? This was a first for me. Sasuke was never gentle for anything. Even when we had sex it was rough. It didn't feel right. I felt like a doll. The lust was there but that was it. I didn't feel any love being returned. He was never into it like I was.
A while ago I was ok. Now my heartbeat is slowing down. Sasuke was observing me. I relaxing and feeling my stomach when I had to go to the bathroom. I swung my legs over and got on my feet. I grabbed the toothbrush, soap, and comb they gave me with a new robe. I headed to the bathroom to cleanse my body. I needed to clear my head.
15 minutes later…
I was combing my hair in the bathroom. I decided since no one is in the room I can go back in there. I seized all my stuff and headed into the room. My body was wet and the towel was small. I was in the room when the new doctor came in with Sasuke behind him. My cheeks were red. The doctor was eyeing me with desire. Sasuke was furious of course.
The doctor name is Kevin. He's fresh to this hospital but he is clever. I've never had a chance to meet him but the other nurses were right. He is sexy.
I didn't know what to do. I stood there and adjusted my towel.
"Hello Dr. Kevin," I acknowledged.
"Hello, you must be Sakura Haruno." responded Kevin.
I sat on the bed which made the towel go down in my chest and up my thighs. I was uncomfortable but Dr. Kevin didn't seem to mind.
"Excuse her for a minute Dr. Kevin," commanded Sasuke.
"I am a doctor and I have studied the human body. I know what lies there. Jealously is not needed."
"Yeah, you may have studied the general woman body but you haven't seen her body."
"This is ridiculous!"
Sasuke strolled to the bed and yanked off the sheet. He held it up like a curtain. I immediately get to my feet and put on my clothes. I wondered why Sasuke cared. Kevin did have a good point. He is a doctor and I am sure he has seen many bodies. Sasuke must have seen the expression on Kevin's face. In spite of everything I don't get it. Sasuke has Ino and I am by myself.
"I'm done. Thank you Sasuke." I whispered.
Sasuke threw the sheet on the bed. He placed himself next to me. Dr. Kevin appeared to be irritated with Sasuke and my robe. I think Dr. Kevin preferred if Sasuke left and that I had that towel on.
"Ms. Haruno-,"began Dr. Kevin
"That's Mrs. Uchiha to you." interrupted Sasuke.
"No, he was correct the first time. We're separating remember? I intend to drop Uchiha and take back Haruno," I corrected.
"OK, you are under suicidal risk. If you are splitting with your husband we have no choice but to keep you here." explained Dr. Kevin.
Sasuke was smug. I should've kept my mouth shut. I don't plan to stay here twenty-four/seven in the place I work. I don't hate it here but I like home better. I don't like that I have to lie and pretend I am with Sasuke to leave but I have no other options I like.
"Sasuke and I aren't separating. It was a joke. I was mad at him. I'm sorry to confuse you," I bumbled.
"Oh that's good then. Mr. Uchiha if you could just sign here please." said Dr. Kevin.
Sasuke glanced at me before he signed the papers. I owe Sasuke for this. He got my stuff and carried it for me. In the car we were silent. The tension was thick between us. I have to say something.
"Thanks for signing for me." I thanked.
No retort from Sasuke. He was ignoring me. I made my mind up to continue.
"Tell Ino I'm sorry. I won't try to split you apart from her."
This was getting hard for me to verbalize but I will do it. I have to end this on good terms.
"I understand we can't be together anymore. You love her nowadays and not me. Even though nevertheless I love you, I know I have to let you go. Its life and I'll deal with it. You won't have any more problems with me. You can finally have the family you want with her. I'll stay out of your life. I won't make you hate me more. And you can have everything you gave me back. I'll behave myself in public. I can drop Uchiha too. I'll make everything better for you because I want you to be happy…even if the person you're being happy with is not me."
I choked on some of the words but everything I meant. A part of hoped Sasuke would stop me in the middle of it. I just wish for Sasuke to have the life he deserves. I veered my head in the direction of the window. I was sad. Sasuke had Ino to live with. What about me? Who is going to love me?
Sasuke kept his mouth shut during the whole ride. I guess he wanted nothing to do with anymore. I am just a doll he is finished playing with. I was all used out. My pussy wasn't the one he craved anymore. He wanted a pussy with blonde hair.
Breathing was useless. I didn't want to live without Sasuke. I'll never get over him. He was the one I had my eyes on since we were kids.
When Sasuke pulled up to the driveway I jumped out of the car. I took my stuff out awkwardly but quick. Sasuke didn't have to see me like this. I was a fucking wreck.
"Thank you for driving me home," I creaked.
This was where I lived but it didn't have the homey feeling. It felt foreign to me.
I threw my bags on the floor inside. I locked the front door behind me. The bags were blocking my passage way so I tumbled over them gawkily. I fell to the floor a couple of times. I'm sure tomorrow I would be covered in bruises.
In the room I flew into a rage. I swept my arms across the dresser. Perfume, pictures and other stuff found themselves on the hard cold ground. I ran my hand through my hair. I pulled on them. I cried and screamed for Sasuke. I was insane.
In the bathroom I broke the towel bar. I swung it at the mirror. Thousands of shards sparkled. Some shards were threatening to pierce my skin and reveal my blood.
But of all of them I found the jaggiest one. It was the most beautiful one. It would serve me well. I held it up to my arm.
"Make me forget. Release all the pain." I begged.
I cut myself slowly. It was better that way. I did two more. They were pretty. But I had one important purpose for this one.
"Break me into something someone could love."
Well, I am sure in that chapter I messed up a couple of time. Oh well, I'll fix the rough spots later. Right now I have to do some important things. Oh and don't think I don't care about this story. I love this story. I am sorry it camed across that I didn't. Review please.
--Alexkatia
