Dear my darling James,

You say I'm being stupid writing letters to people worrying that I won't be there to tell them how I feel, But I'm not. I'm being a worrying mother and that's your fault.

I wanted to write this letter to tell you how much, I love you. How much you've changed my life and how wonderful it's been...And that I wanted to say thank you, For giving me Harry, For giving me a beautiful baby that we will both treasure, Each and every moment with him.

Each and every moment with you is amazing James, You make me feel like I'm on top of the world and my legs are dangling off the edge and I love that feeling...I love that uncretinty that fills my lungs and stomach whenever we did something new, I love that your arms feel like home to me. I love that I'm yours.

I know that life for us was never going to be a smooth ride, two people so different but conected so deeply, I remember when you asked me to marry you, I thought you was breaking up with me and I sat there and cried, I can't remember how long we just sat there in each others arms before you whisped, "So much for a romantic prospal, Huh?" I could of gave you everything I had there and then, I felt wanted. I felt needed.

I guess life just got better from there, You got a job, I got my degree, We brought a beautiful home, We got married, I fell pregnant with Harry... That pregnancy wasn't an easy one, I get why Sirius never came round, I get my Remus held a shaking hand that had a bar of chocolate it in it now, I was a moody bitch, But you stayed by my side and kissed me goodnight and told me you loved me, that meant the world to me, I love you.

I know that when Harry was being born, Sirius passed out, So did you. What did you even see? I guess I won't ever know for sure, But Sirius never has looked at me the same...I love you all, We love our Harry...

Harry, God if anything happens to him I won't forgive myself James, I won't, Please promise me you will look after our baby, Fed him, Stop him crying, Change him properly without that look on your face, Make him feel loved in every single way like I know you will do.

And most of all..

Tell him I love him every day.

James, My darling. Be strong for me. Be strong for Harry, I know times will be hard and I'm sure you're going to greive for me, I'm sure it's going to be a struggle and I know your marauders will be there for you and Harry...But Harry is our son, His our boy, Look after him.

James...His lost a mother, He can't loose a father too.

My love forever and always,
You're wife, Lily. X