Disclaimer:
I don't own any of the characters, cos if I did, I'd have Ray and
Neela together already!
The song is "CRADLE" by Atomic Kitten
Spoilers:
Not that I'm aware of. Well, except for her 'dating' Gates,
which I think we all know happens in S13!
Content
Warning: None…right now…
Summary: Ray and Neela continue to talk. Bad summary, I know!
This is a start of what I
hope to be a good fic…the songs go…but just be awares you may not
see the connection right off…but I PROMISE they go! Not all songs
will be Atomic Kitten, but they are currently my muses.
"Does it matter, Ray?" Neela couldn't think of an answer. She knew she didn't love Gates, but she wasn't going to admit it to Ray. Ray, she felt, shouldn't concern himself with her affairs.
"What if I said it did?" Ray sighed.
"Why, though, Ray?" Neela sighed back.
Ray looked at her. She's completely clueless.
I will rock you like a baby
Love will cradle in my arms
I'll keep you safe from danger
Shelter you from harm
Neela looked at him. "Ray?"
"Look, Neela, no matter what I say, you're…" He sighed even deeper as he leaned his back against the railing and looked at her. "You're…you're worth more than Gates or…You deserve someone who'll be there for you and…" He looked at her. "Forget it."
There will never be another
That treats you like I do
We can drift into forever
On a love that's made for two
"Right. The whole 'make Neela see what a mistake she is making' routine. I get it, Ray."
Don't you ever say this love's not special
Don't you ever think it's not essential
Baby...
"I don't think you do, Neela." Ray sighed. He stood up straight and headed to the door. "If you got it, you wouldn't have married Michael in the first place." He looked at her. "But that's just you. Doing what's safe because it's what everyone expects from you."
"You don't know me, Ray."
"Don't I?" He flet they were going back to an earlier argument in this discussion.
I was only thinking of you
Hoping you were thinking of me
Two hearts beating just like one
Against the world
I am always dreaming of you
Hoping you are dreaming of me
"No." Neela angrily snapped. "You don't know me…"
"You hate horror movies yet you'll watch them as long as there's someone sitting beside you for you to bury your face in. You love Celebrity Poker. You like your tea with two sugars and enough milk to drain a cow." He took a breath and faced her again. "You're afraid to show emotion and any time things go against the plans you laid out for yourself, you run. How long before you run from Tony the way you ran from me?"
I could never live one day without your love
I will kiss you like an angel, baby
Cradled in my wings
Neela stood, shocked. "I didn't run from you, Ray. I ran towards Michael."
"Who was so glad to have you run to him. So much so that he went back to war." Ray thought he said quietly, but when he looked up at Neela again, he saw the anger in her eyes. "You can't tell me that's…"
"That's not what happened." Neela's eyes filled with tears. "He…he…"
Ray walked over to her and wrapped his arms around her. "I'm sorry."
I will take you up to heaven
Show you precious things
If you promise that you love me
If you promise that you care
I will be here always and forever
This I swear
Neela cried into Ray's shirt. "He felt he had to."
"I know. His duty to his country, which I admire, but don't you think that he should have loved you enough to not go back? I mean, it wasn't like he had to go back, right?" Ray felt his foot going deeper in his throat.
Don't you ever say this love's not special
Don't you ever think it's not essential
Baby...
He softly stroked her hair as she continued to cry. Ray was the only person who she dared to let see this side of her. Her emotions were, she felt, as controllable as everything else. Yet, at this moment, she felt out of control, and yet, she felt comforted. She stood back and looked at him. She wiped a few stray tears. "No, he didn't have to go back. He just got back and when we visited one of his Army buddies in the VA, he told me he felt he owed it to the guys to go back." She turned and faced the ocean again.
Ray only looked at her. He couldn't understand why anyone would choose to leave such an angelic creature behind for the demons of war. Even for him, these past months of her pushing him away, proved hard. She dominated his every thought, interrupting in the most inopportune moments. She had him; his heart; his love, but she didn't know it.
I was only thinking of you
Hoping you were thinking of me
Two hearts beating just like one
Against the world
I am always dreaming of you
Hoping you were dreaming of me
I could never live one day without your love
"Neela?" He softly approached her.
"I know, Ray. I shouldn't blame myself, but I keep thinking if I only said something more. Something that would have kept him home…"
"Would that have made a difference?"
Now you say you wanna love
But, you don't think you believe it
Just open up your heart
"What do you mean? Of course it would have. We would have been able to get to know each other."
"Yeah, because you knew each other so well when you got married." Ray scoffed.
"And what would you know of it?" Neela angrily snapped.
"You shouldn't have to 'get to know' someone during your marriage. You should already have an idea of who they are and what makes them tick. You had as much of an idea as to what made Gallant Gallant anymore than he had an idea of what made you you."
And you know you will receive it
Oh baby...
Neela stared hard at Ray. "What do you know of him?"
Ray shrugged. "Nothing."
"Exactly."
Don't you ever say this love's not special, no
Don't you ever think it's not essential
"But I do know what love is, Neela." Ray shot back.
I know that this is short. Hope you enjoyed this. Should I go on?
