Notes: A huge thank you to my beta, Mago186
Two weeks have past since Sam left for college. Apart from the one phone call informing that he had arrived safely and in one piece at college, there has been no contact. He knows that there will be no further contact from Sam because of that last argument. Their dad had told Sam that he was no longer wanted or needed. They had been words that were spoken in anger, but not really meant. It had just been their dad's fucked up way of making sure Sam left for college.
College had been something that he had the opportunity to do. He could have gotten that shiny degree and a normal supernatural free life. He had all of the necessary qualifications. He had acceptance letters from all of the leading colleges in America, offering him a full scholarship. He wrote to all of those colleges explaining why he wouldn't be taking up the scholarship offer. He got a reply from every one of those schools, offering their condolences and if he should ever change his mind to contact them. He never changed his mind. He stayed behind to look after a brother who had just turned 14 and a dad who was far too focused on the hunt to care for his youngest son. He had sacrificed his future for them. To this day, it had never been something he regretted.
He is now three weeks pregnant. He can be reasonably sure of that because the last time he had sex with Sam was three weeks ago. Using the same reasoning, he has worked out that his due date is April 10th. That reasoning came with the use of a pregnancy book he stole from a library. It took him three attempts to open the book. Just from what he read on the contents page, women everywhere now have his sympathies. Hell, he is even willing to take back nearly every bad or sexist remark he has made to a woman. According to what he has read in the book, he can expect heartburn and headaches during the first month of his pregnancy. He already has the headaches but he has just dismissed them as being stress related. The stress he has been under from hiding the pregnancy from his dad.
During those moments when his dad is at the library researching some supernatural creature, he has been reading the book. He knows far too many facts about pregnancy that would drive the most sane person batshit crazy. He knows how big the baby will grow in its first month, 0.2mm. It is small enough to ignore its existence but just enough to know it's there. He knows more about the creation of a new human life than he ever did before. At school, he was only ever interested in making it though to the end of a day. School had never held his interest in the same way it had for Sam. The one thing that jumps out from the pages of the book is the word "uterus." He can't have a uterus, but his being pregnant kind of laughs at that little denial. He could find a doctor who could do some sort of scan on him to find out if he has a uterus, but he knows that finding a doctor who would keep quite about the results is next to impossible.
He has managed to find some time to locate a payphone and call Sam. He gets as far as dialling the number and waiting for Sam to say hello before he hangs up. How can he even begin to explain a pregnancy to Sam? How can he tell Sam that he is going to be a father? Does he have any right to take Sam away from college with his news? He can't ruin Sam's life. It wouldn't be fair. What right does he have to keep any of this from Sam?
None at all.
