Author Note: So this is how it all starts next chapter, will be on Edwards attraction to his befriend. This story is very OOC so please give my Edward a chance.
Twilight will never ever ever belong to me...
"The Fragile"
By Nine Inch nails.
she shines
in a world full of ugliness
she matters when everything is meaningless
fragile
she doesn't see her beauty
she tries to get away sometimes
it's just that nothing seems worth saving
I can't watch her slip away
I won't let you fall apart
she reads the minds of all the people as they pass her by
hoping someone can see
if I could fix myseld I'd - but it's too late for me
I wont let you fall apart
we'll find the perfect place to go where we can run and hide
I'll build a wall and we can keep them on the other side
...but they keep waiting
...and picking...
it's something I have to do
I was there, too
before everyhting else
I was like you
Chapter 1
I was born in September, the year my parents fell in love and got married. Charlie and Renee had dubbed me Isabella-Marie. At the young age of five my mother runaway, life had turned my parents love to hate. Charlie needed more than she did was all she told me when she left. I remember thinking, I am only five what would I do without a mom. That year Charlie enrolled me into kindergarten. Dressing me in white dress with a pink bow he combed my unruly curly brown hair. He introduced me to the teacher who wore old fashioned horn rimmed glasses. I remember having the distinct urge to cry as the teacher held my hand and took me inside the colorful class.
I remember her making me sit down on one of the plastic kid chairs.
"Hello, My names Edward Cullen" The kid next to me said. He was like the kids in serial commercials, He looked at me waiting for me to introduce myself.
I did not.
Where was daddy? I bit my lip and proceeded to cry quite loudly too. Edward's eyes widened.
"Look if you stop I will give you one of my chocolate covered marshmellows" He promised.
"Edward did you say something to Bella?" The teacher asked her name was Mrs Tingle, I recalled suddenly. Edward shook his head.
"Where is my daddy?" I asked through gulps as I cried. The rest of the kids laughed at my question.
"Isabella-Marie, quite down that wailing, you will see your father at the end of the day" Her voice was harsh and mean. Edward glared at her as she mumbled under her breath calling me motherless child.
The girl next to me shyly pushed half her crayon box towards me. I smiled back hoping I would go home soon. Soon It was time for recess.
I opened my bag and looked at my bag of crisps and box of orange juice. Edward was busy playing catch with the boys who were as loud as could be.
The girl from class who shared her crayons with me sat down next to me.
"Hi I am Alice Brandon" She introduced, as I opened my bag of crisps.
"Isabella-Marie Swan" I tell her she smiles. The red ball lands near my leg picking it up, I looked at Edward who motioned for me to throw it at him. Throwing as gently as I could he caught it.
Sitting back down, Alice giggled at a blond haired boy who waved at her.
"I gotta go you want to come" I shook my head and went with her to the sand pit.
"Jasper, is my friend Isabella-Marie..." Alice almost introduced when Edward all of a suddned grabbed my hand.
"Bella is my friend, I saw her first" Edward said angrily.
Alice shook her head and sat down next to Jasper. My stomach grumbled maybe crisps for lunch was not such a good idea.
"Bella you are my friend right" He said his green eyes searching my own as if to see if I would protest.
"I am"
That was all that needed to be said. Suddenly everywhere Edward went you would find 'Bella' as he had named me, shadowing him. Edward was the only son of renowned plastic surgeon Carlisle Cullen and Socialite Elizabeth Cullen. Edward was spoiled rotten, he would get whatever he wanted as long as he never fused. I kind of liked my new name at the time.
Years past soon we were ten. I never minded being Edwards shadow, he was the kind of person you loved to be around. It was sad his mother never saw it that way she committed suicide claiming that his father worked to much. Edward did not want to live in that house. So when the house next to mine was put on sale his father bought it as soon as Edward told him about it. Carlisle and Charlie understood each other both being single parents and became friends despite there differences in social structure. My room was opposite Edwards, we would talk for hours on the phone while our windows were open to give us the illusion we were talking face to face. I was naive at the time, I would leave the window opened curtains drawn as I slept just because Edward asked me too.
When we were thirteen, Carlisle had to go to Chicago central hospital and he left Edwards aunt Esme in charge. She was different, for the both of us we had grown use to male company only. Elizabeth's younger sister was the complete opposite of her. Esme started a garden, not that Edward cared much I remember sitting next to her and asking her about all her plants, they were all so Beautiful and intrigueing. Esme would replace my boy shorts for skirts and dresses. Suddenly I was no longer Edwards shadow I was infact a girl.
I had grown so used to being with him, I became him. Esme would plaitt my hair, while Edward would go down to Marina lake and swim. Suddenly he grew over night and was a few heads taller than me. Esme would say boys always grew bigger before girls but never on the inside where it counted. Edward would always grab me around the waist and twirl me around during those years when he discovered his strength. Esme became a thorn to Carlisle who could never get rid of her due to me, which meant Edward. They would fight for hours due to Esme's late nights out. Edward would snicker when they began explainning to me that Carlisle wanted to fuck Esme. I blushed furiously only to earn a laugh from Edward, that was when he started calling me V.M which stood for virgin Mary. Esme was atleast 11 years younger than Carlisle so I refused to believe what Edward had said. When I was fifteen I remember asking Esme why she and Carlisle fought so much.
"He needs someone like me you know to make him come back down to earth" I still never understood her. Edward had became the king if Highschool when started. He would skip class and smoke behind the bleachers yet he never allowed me to skip class. He also became the Ravens quarterback, I wanted to try out to be a cheerleader, until Edward explained to me that cheering was not something meant for me. I never questioned him yet part of me felt like the day I gave into Edward when we were five had made me into this person who could never refuse him.
