Ok so Author note time!
So one of you lovies pointed out to me that there are things in here that where offencive such as the title ,forgeting a trigger warning and also refuring self harm as a hobby. I'm sorry everyone I didn't intend for it to offend anyone but I did fix what I could such as the title and the trigger. But about refuring the self harm as a hobby, it wasn't intended for it to seem cool or anything like that but more as a shameful thing . You see as a self harmer I would refur self harm as a hobby because I was far too ashamed to admit it even to myself, so I took that from my own experience and put it in this story. Self harm is not cool or emo or anything it is a very serious problem. I hope that you all can forgive me for my iggnorance and continue to enjoy the story.
Thank you all.
What will you do? What will you do? WHAT WILL YOU DO WAS THE BEST YOU COULD COME UP WITH? You're going to high-tail your ass out of there that's what your going to do! Well that's what you were going to do if you could move. Dammit body move! Run! Do something other than just stand there and look like a moron! Nope, too late.
The voices there where three of them. I knew these voices all too well too. And ohhh how I dreaded one of the owners of the voices. Oh how my body loved and loathed him and how my heart longged for one of him. It was like war, knowing that it wasn't heathly and that I should fear him, but yet I longged for his touch , attenion and the torcher he gave to me . How I hated and loved it all.
My gaze fell upon the the three, two I held less care for and the one that I would die for but, would I ever tell? No, fuck no, that would only lead me to a fate worse than the one already laid out for me.
The three "Royals" were argueing. That right "Royals", They were not real royalty they were just three siblings , who where popular , breath takingly beautiful, stupidly rich and oh did I forget to mention that they're the sons and daughter of a famous mobster. Oh I did my bad! So they pretty much ruled the school. Once they had they're sight set on ruining your life, you where fucked. Trust me I knew first hand and I have the brusies too prove it.
I spotted the "King" first, Gamzee Makara. He was the oldest and most laid back of the three, lean with dark curly hair and indigo eyes, well muscled and tall and I mean really tall , come on he had to be at least 6'4! He was always wearing creepy jugglo makeup that hid his light gray skin , a black shirt with the capricorn sign on it and pajamas with poka dots .His horns where tall to show his highness in blood but he acted like a normal guy not a snobby prick, like most highbloods did. Rumor had it he was always stroned and when he wasnt there was hell to pay.I never really believed the rumors cause to me he seemed to be a really cool ,laid back, nice guy.
Next I saw the "Princess", Cynia. The hyperest and smallest of the three, short about 5'4 ,with long dark curly hair like Gamzee , and a umm how do I put this a uhh 'full' figure if you umm know what I mean, purple/white eyes that showed her mixed blood and every so offten you could see them spark like her other bother's, light gray skin and two sets of horns showed how she was realated to the both of them. She is offten found wearing her trademark black anarchy shirt and shorts. From what I had seen she was very sweet to everyone and only wanted and was always smileing unless she really didn't like you or was really upset. By the looks of it right now I would say something had her really upset.
Lastly I saw the "Prince", Sollux Captor. The middle child , the heart throb of the three and possibley the coldest of the three. The most beautiful person I've ever met and also the cruelest. Tall about 5'8 only an inch tall than me, slightly muscular with short,messy hair that stuck out at the sides, dark gray skin that reflected off his icy blue and blood red eyes hidden behind a set of 3D glasses, two sets of horns one taller set than the other stuck out for the thick wires of the jet black hair upon his head. All I could say about my tormenter was that he was completey and udderly gorgeous. Sollux was smart and I mean really smart he was the only person I knew who could hack ,encode and fix a computer. He loved computers and took great joy in being around them. He also took great joy , much to my dispare , in tormenting me, beating me up and making my life as hard as possible.
I sighed as my gazed lingered upon him, not minding one bit that he was severly pissed and would probably take it out on me later. Ugh I sounded like some lovesick school girl. How disgusting of me. I frowned and ducked my head into my locker hopeing luck was on my side and they wouldn't notice me listening to they're screams ,corrupted yells and the soothing deep voiced "Bro" of Gamzee.
"You know how I feel about this Sollux! This isn't heathly! She isn't the one I see for you!" The little Princess screamed at her older brother face filled with rage, her voice high and angry but not sqeaky , her eyes narrowed and sparking white little shots of psionics.
"I don't care Thynia! I like her and she only did that once! Once you hear me, Once! And if the'th not the one for me then who ith? Huh ,Thynia, huh ya wanna tell me now insted of being a little bitch and keep me hangging! Ath the Mage of Doom I command you to tell me!" The older of the two roared back . A shiver went down my spine as the lispy voice first spoke and my mind went blank as he spoke of his powerful formal name.
As every human or troll is born into this world they are given a formal name at birth , if I remeber correctly Gamzee's is the Bard of Rage one of the highest names receivable and mine , well mine was a horribley choosen name one.
The Prince of Hope. Funny how irony works right? How it likes to walks right up to you and slap you in the face like a bitch ,then kick you in the nuts and then to top it all of skip away singging some church song like a saint.
" And as the Reaper of Life I'm just as high as you and you know it is forbiden forrr me to tell you anything about the future!" She fought back her voice beginning to weaken from her bothers insult and her r's slightly slurring , A small white tear trickled from her purpley white eyes.
I instently felt bad for her. She could see things no one else could but couldn't tell them, all she could do was help them and hope for the best.
Once she told everyone even though she can see most of it doesn't mean she can see all of it or set it in stone.
"You know that all I want is what's best for you Sollux, and you know once I saw her do that I couldn't stand her." The little Princesses soft, heartbroken voice broke through the impregnated silence that had settled in the hall.
In a heart beat I knew who they where talking about , Sol's girlfriend, My ex-bestfriend , the one person who I let in beyond my shell, to really know me and who I really am. The one and only person to ever backstab me.
Feferi Peixes.
Skinny like a stick , darting magenta eyes, long fuffy dark brown-black hair with two mid length horns sticking out of them and a smile that could kill the deadliest of beasts.
Feferi was my first friend when I came here , The first person I told about what happened to first person who had ever shown compassion for me. The first person who had gotten me to smile in months.
The first person I told about Sol.
When she found out she smiled her evil little smile and made a straight B-line for him. They got together, and not long after that the torture started. Though, I never did once blame Sollux for any of it. Who was I to him? Just some little geeky kid that his girlfriend asked him to beat up and harass. Ok that's a lie once I did ask my self why he did this to me then I told myself that it wasn't his fault ,he didn't it wasn't his fault it was her. She was the one who had taken everything hopeful from me. It was her who caused me to be so misrable and weak. I was all her fault and that enraged me to no end. But did I ever act upon it, no. Why you may ask? Because what excuse would I have for doing that? Oh ya know she just ruined my life and all so yeah I had to go and destroy her...Bullshit.
"I know ya' do but ... I don't know I gueth I jutht enjoy feeling thith wanted."
A softer lispy voice broke my enrageing thoughts and I ducked my head further in my locker knowing there was a fearsom expression laced upon it. The dark blue locker was cold and helped to cool down the heating anger that had built up inside of me. To anyone else it would just look like I'm trying to get a book that was stuck in the back of my locker . Thank god, I didn't need to look anymore stupid or weird than I already did.
I caught the graceful sound of light foot steps which I could only guess to be Cynia moving over to where Sol was.
"I know Sollux but that isn't a foundation for a healthy realtionship , there has to be a jumbled mess of a rainbow of feelings inside and then , then there has to be that feeling of everything being just right when that person is near. There no other feeling like it Sollux." Her words where light and dreamy almost as if she where a small child telling a tale of enchantment and mystical things.
Mt stomche turnned, I had to go , I had to go now or I was going to be sick. I closed my locker softly hoping that my scilence wouldn't agknowlaged .
I guess I was hoping for too much.
The next thing I knew I was being slammed into a wall for the second time today. My glasses flew off with a small clatter and a small groan excaped my throat and the hand knotted in my shirt tighted with a low growl.
"Think thith ith funny , huh fith fathe. " I kept my eyes closed tightly as I was picked up and slammed into a wall again.
"Huh, you think it'th funny to go off and tell your little fith friendth, oh wait i forgot you don't have any friendth. huh, fith fathe, huh! look at me fith fathe!" I opened my eyes and looked down at his shoes , shaking my head profoucely, not even thinking of dareing to look into his face.
"In the fathe , fith dick!" My head was jerked upward and I whimpered, lowering my ear fins to show that I was submissive , as I have done so many times before. Slowly my violet eyes trailed up to meet his icy blue and red. Our gaze lingered for a moment on each others eyes, this was I think the first time he had ever seen mine without my glasses.
I watched curiosly as something flickered in his eyes, almost seemed as if ahem excuse the poor phraseing on this but it almost seemed as if sparks where flying between them.
All too soon was that fearsom gaze torn from mine as a small set of hands with a pair of glasses locked in them pushed him away and freed my from my hold. No don't go, not yet. My mind cried out but I remained frozen to my spot.
"Sollux! What the hell do you think you where doing you that poor boy?" The small halfblood girl had taken upon herself to save me from Sollux. Pushing him away and yelling at him while waggling a parental finger at him before turning to take care of me.
"Are you okay dear?" She asked me eyes filling with concern as she handed my my glasses ,careful not to touch me too much possibly in fear that I will make a run for it like a small frightened animal.
My eyes met creamy white purpley ones and I nodded. A smile graced her lips and she patted my hair like a mother would.
"What is your name hun?" I looked up at her curiously , why would she care what my name is? Why should I give two fucks if she knows my name or not?
"Eridan, Eridan Ampora it's nice to met you." I spoke for the first time my voice was shakey and crackly, it made me sound like a timid idiot. Then again who ever said I wasn't one? That never stopped a large grin from cracking her face in half.
"It's nice to meet you too Eri! I'm Cynia! but I really wish it was under better circumstances!" She chirped out happily while giving Sol , who was now standing behind her with Gamzee glareing at me, a small side glare.
I almost didn't notice he small hauntingly familar pet name she had given me.
"Uh yeah I kinda wish that too , and um please don't call me that. " I was taken aback abit by her chipperyness , it was stunning to see someone who could be so bright and happy to a complete stranger. It was well kind of scary how her happiness was infecous, because not long after her smiling at me I returned with a small smile back.
"Hey Eri ,can I get to know you better?" I stared stupidly at her. What? Why would she want to get to know me better? What was I to this completely weird ass halfblood?
She quickly gestgered to her eyes letting them spark and crackle across my face lightly with her own psionics. Oh. She was asking to see my future. I nodded stupidly ,not realizing what I was agreeing to untill she had already begun placeing her fingers to my temples. Her hands where warm ,hot almost and hey grew hotter as her white purple eyes became completey white and her psionics overtook them . I suddently remember what I had been told this morning and began to pull away fearful of what she might see but today wasn't my lucky day was it?
Her hands dropped to her sides, eyes pure white, sparking vividly her hands beginning to glow with white psionics and her expression was emotionless. I backed away getting ready to run until I was caught by something red and blue that I could only guess to be Sollux's psionics.
"Whoa looks like sis is in deep bro" The soft calming voice of Gamzee did nothing to help calm me and my squirming and wiggling of trying to get away from Sollux. Seeing that I could get away I stopped and lowered my head dreading what she had to say when she came back. I shot a stolen glance at Sollux ,he just stared at Cynia with a angry expression , eyes sparking bright blue and deep red.
I lowered my head again, stareing at the blue and white tile floor shamefully.I jumped at a high pitched strangled cry and then felt arms embrace me. I felt Sol's psionics lift of of me and my body slump against the warmer one holding me.
Huh?
"You precious baby! How could you keep that all to your self! Oh I'm not letting this happen! All is not set in stone!" She cried out obviously panicked. I sat there dumbfound . I was not expecting that. Slowly she rocked me back and forth cooing her last sentance over and over again and I looked up to see that had little white trickles running down her face. I wrapped my arms around her , hugging her back enjoying the small bit of comfort she offered, feeling what I guessed to be the feelings of morailangce form and the for sure feelings of guilt flood in.
"Why? Why would you keep something like that to yourself, you precious babbu? Don't you want people to care for you? Don't you want to go on?" She took my face in her hands and pressed her forehead to so many questions many of them I didn't want to answer because I knew the truth behind them.
"No,because no one cares an' wwhy should they? All I am is a punchin' bag to them wwhy wwould they care if I'd just dissapear ovver the summer? Hell evven the person I care for Likes to think of me as a punchin' bag." I shot a small look over to Sollux and let Cynia catch the hint , hell Feferi probably had already told him and that's why he hated me so much. She let her gaze follow mine all the way up to Sollux ,her eyes became so wide that they nearly popped out of her head and she crushed me in an another quick hug before pulling away. I sighed at the loss of warmth and comfort ,closeing my eyes I waited for her to entire student population hat had begun to flood throught the doors the things she had just found out.
"Well now you have someone who cares about you Eri , cause I do." she whispered quitely and she embraced me once again , milky purple tears falling from her eyes. Did ...did she understand? Was it possible for some stranger that I had only just met to honestly understand what had happend? Why did she shed tears for me? Was it possible for her to feel the same fear that I had been feeling ? I really don't know...
"August eighteenth" She she whispered in my ear as she began to quitely sobbing. I felt something warm and wet trickle down my cheek.I quickly did the mental math in my burred mind today was Janurary 14 and I had...had...I let out a shakey cry into her shoulder. It all hit me like a ton of bricks to the face . This was really happening it was no longer just some thing that I could brush off. I was really going to...to...die.
Me and Cynia sat in the hall for a few moments just sobbing and clinging to each other like it's all we had. Sollux and Gamzee glareing and scaring away anyone who would looks at us .
I distintly remeber the sounds of three phones snapping .
Later after all of our tears had been cried and our noses where wiped dry, we went to see Roxy to tell her we were all going home. Through her drunkiness he understood loud and clear what had went on and gave Bro a call to let him know that she thinks that I will be okay for today. That he and Rose should just check up on me tomarrow. I would be forever greatful to that woman.
I closed my eyes and and took Cynia's hand, feeling a little safer now knowing that someone was on my side and would protect me. I walked out those doors , with those three. Into a different place far from the world I once knew.
=== Your name is Eridan Ampora. You have offically 247 days to live. But it's ok now ,cause you've got a friend here with you to endure what would happen next and maybe even help you on the way a little.
=== What will you do now?
End todays log.
=== Be the FAILUR of an author.
What no.
=== BE THE FAILUR OF AUTHOR DAMMIT!
Ok. Ok. Jeeze someone did not have breakfast today didn't they ?
Oh my god.
Here are some more I'm sorries in advance.
I hate myself. I'm sorry lovely readers I realize that that was too long and Dammit , No one wants a OC. *slams head against desk many times* I hate my self soooo fucking much right now
But alas I needed a plot tool and you will soon see how they come into the story and are helpful. v.v
Also just a heads up this is a weird ass and I mean really weird as fuck AU
And I'm sorry about the shity way I write, I was alway taught to write like the person has no cluue who or what your talking about and I'll try to make my Charater less descriptive or something next time . but probably not...and I realize that my spelling is shit...BUT I'm working on it to make it better for you all~
Another thing Cynia is a love child created but Gamzee and Sollux's care takers (Ha you thought I was gonna let you have a spoiler didn't you? :3) THAY ARE NOT REALTED IN ANY OTHER FORM THAN CYNIA! Normally in troll breeding you would have two trolls of the same blood color (lIke Gamzee,Sollux and Eridan) but in rare cases when two trolls feel so flushed for each other but have different blood colors, they go and request that they have a halfblood. Halfbloods are extreamly rare and are usely only created by a care taker with a large amount of money. Offten they are prized and worshiped and offten have many admirers because they ALL hold a strange trait that makes people very attracted twords them.
LASTLY! I realize that I'm making Eridan slightly Masonistic in the beginning of the story ,but i felt like after a while it would have been a trait that he picked up from being harassed by the ones he loved so much...
Welp thats all I have to say really...
See ya'll soon!
*Ollies Outtie*
~ 3 Sleepless
