She wasn't even speaking but she felt her voice grow faint. She was screaming; somewhere in the depths of her quiet mind she was screaming. She was crying, she was pleading, she was begging, she was screaming. The incessant screams and cries were wearing her down.

"Hear me, Rin, I'm begging you…" she sobbed into her pillow, knowing he couldn't hear her. He was gone, she couldn't get him back. Asa-sempai had ensured she'd never get him. She let out a louder sob into the pillow and her whole body shook wildly.

She shook without control, she'd ignored all knocks at the door from Primula, she'd ignored the pleas from everyone to come out. She ate while they were all asleep. She slept little, because of the nightmares, but she did sleep. Everything else could wait.

Kaede felt the pain reverberate through her flesh and she slowly fell back asleep, her sobbing fading and her breathing becoming slower.

"I miss you Rin…" she said to the wall in her dream. "Sorry," the wall answered, and she knew without looking that Rin was standing there. He always showed up in her dreams. "Maybe someday I'll stop missing you…" Rin shrugged. "Sorry." That's all he ever said anymore, 'sorry.' But sorry didn't make anything better, it didn't stop the pain, it didn't stop the endless flow of tears…

Even in her dream the tears reached her and she cried. Cried for Rin, cried for herself, cried for everything she'd ever known and lost. She cried and cried and this time it was her that spoke the immortal words, "Sorry… Rin…."

Ok back to the Kaede angst, because she was feeling ignored, and when Rin did that to her she got violent so… I let her have her way -. Sorry Kaede!!