Well, this is a sequel to 'Goodbye Love'. It's Edward at the funeral, angsting it up. I actually wrote this a long, long time ago after writing 'Goodbye Love' to sort of some the story up, but somehow this got lost and I only just found it the other day. So, enjoy.
--
Live In My House
I'll Be Your Shelter
Just Pay Me Back With One Thousand Kisses
Be My Lover
And I'll Cover You
I slowly made my way up to the dark black casket that I had paid for. It's dark and mysterious in appearance, just like the boy that lies within it. I blink away a tear as I stare at the arrangement on top of the shiny wood. A picture of me and him together, we look happy because there was still time before he-
Open Your Door - I'll Be Your Tenant
Don't Got Much Baggage
To Lay At Your Feet
But Sweet Kisses I've Got To Spare
I'll Be There and I'll Cover You
I swear lightly at wipe at my eyes, trying my best not to cry in front of everyone as I turn around to face them. One of my hands is still on the cool, slippery wood while the other fumbles at a piece of tear-stained paper where I had wrote a speech on Envy's behalf. I open my mouth to say something, but the words freeze up in my throat and I shake my head back and forth, trying to clear the block.
I Think They Meant It
When They Said You Can't Buy Love
Now I Know You Can Rent It
A New Lease You Were, My Love,
On Life All My Life
I've Longed To Discover
Something As True As This Is
Once I look back up and begin to speak in a quivering tone, I can see that my father is standing beside my brother, crying softly. Wrath is across the aisle, obviously trying not to look over at me, and a few tears cling to his cheeks. I continue to speak, of how much Envy effected us all and how much he will be missed. And then... I can't bear to speak anymore. I feel the weight of Envy's death in my throat, threatening to break me down from the inside. I begin to cry now aloud, speaking loudly so I can be heard by everyone though I'm crying.
So With A Thousand
Sweet Kisses
I'll Cover You
Wiht A Thousand
Sweet Kisses
I'll Cover You
With A Thousand
Sweet Kisses
I'll Cover You
With A Thousand
Sweet Kisses
I'll Cover You
"I remember a time," I say in monotone as tears drip down my cheeks. I try to appear strong, but I know I don't look or sound it. "When Envy and I first started really seeing each other... He-He always acted strong, when he wasn't... H-H-He... was being harassed one day... and when the jocks who were doing it asked, 'Are you gay?!' he responded by kissing me full on the lips." A soft ripple of strained laughter goes across the church, they all want to laugh and remember... But laughing is rude and remembering hurts too much for anyone to stand. I only force a smile and cross back to my seat, collapsing into it and holding my head in my hands as I cry harder.
If You're Cold
And You're
Lonely
You've Got One
Nickel Only
"He didn't have any money," My father begins to say when he gets up there. A small, pained laugh leaves his throat. "In fact, he hardly had any clothes or meat on his bones. We-We fixed that up, gave him a place to stay and fed him... I-I didn't even kn-know h-he was sick that's how happy he seemed." I never knew that such a bastard of a father could be so loving. It only pained me more.
When You're
Worn Out
And Tired
When Your Heart
Has Expired
After the priest says a few things that seem to bounce right off of my head, we all get up slowly and process to the graveyard. As I watch them lower Envy's casket into the ground, it makes me want to jump in the hole, rip open his funeral box and kiss him one last time before I get buried alive. But I don't do it. I only watch with dull eyes, because I cannot cry anymore. A splitting headache is making me weak and dizzy. I want him back.
Oh Lover
I'll Cover You
Oh Lover
I'll Cover You
Oh Lover
I'll Cover You
Oh Lover
I'll Cover You
Long after everyone has left and night has fallen, I'm still at his grave. I'm curled up underneath his headstone with a single black rose in my hand. I'm back to crying again, shedding my tears for the man I'll never see again. I loved him so much and he left me... I curl up tighter as wind blows through the graveyard and I slowly fall asleep, dreaming one last time of my Envy.
