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-FINN-
I sighed gathering my papers Rachel had been very helpful until the moment her phone rang and she bailed with a sorry excuse. It saddened me a little knowing that she preferred the company of others more than mine. I could remember a time not so long ago when she never tired of me. Still, it had been nice to spend time with her she was so different now though much more reserved and almost colder. Her eyes rarely lit up like they use to and her wardrobe had changed from cute and bright to dark and revealing and had me wondering for a moment if it was supposed to reflect how different she was now. I Couldn't help the fear and panic flood my emotions at that the thought that I had done that to her. That it was my fault she had become a person I no longer knew.
-RACHEL-
I almost ran to the subway escaping the coffee shop trying to keep myself from throwing myself into the arms of my ex-fiance. I loved him so much but I felt all of my new tougher exterior chipping away with every second I spent in that coffee shop staring at him.I bit back the bile making it's way up my throat trying to compose myself.I hadn't told him I meant to but I just couldn't do it not there in that place surrounded by all those people. He deserved better than that way better.I let the tears fall from my face as I took a seat on the train.I had felt so ashamed of myself for the last few weeks. I know people had no idea yet every now and then I found myself wondering are they staring at me? Judging me? Can they tell? I found myself sinking back into my usual despair but before I could attempt to wallow silently in my own misery.
I felt my phone vibrate. It was Brody I shook off my sadness and smiled as I answered the phone."Hey babe,what's up?" I asked hearing people chatting in the background."oh nothing just calling to say I am probably gonna crash at my friends house tonight work is running late." I sighed the usual excuse."Okay well I will see tomorrow then." "Sure thing but I got to go sorry babe." and with that he hung up. I sank back down into my seat staring at my phone.I didn't know what I was doing wrong was it Finn he had been acting so differently since I had come back from Lima.
Then again I guess I was different too. Before I had gone to Lima I was the Rachel I had invented one that was less of who actually am and more of a front acting every minute of my life doing everything wrong. Feeling I was betraying myself but not knowing how to be the Rachel I use to be without falling into my usual pattern of misery and despair that always seemed to happen when I wasn't with him. It was inevitable however that I would come to my senses and my need for Finn. I love him with every fiber of my being and it seemed as if every minute without him was impossible. I felt the tears and sobs become more frequent as I scrolled through the pictures and memories of not so long ago. The choir room snapshot I took everyday knowing that one day those memories would be my fondest even though at the time they seemed like the hardest.
-FINN-
I started the shower eager to wash the day away and go to sleep so I could relieve my self of image and smell of Rachel that was intoxicating my brain. I sighed undressing letting the warm comforting steam fill the bathroom of my hotel a glimpse of myself in the mirror."She's over you. So get over her," I pep talked myself feeling a pang of sadness with the thought that she had actually moved on. I grabbed my phone staring at the picture in the background of Rachel and I from the night before we were supposed to get married.I still couldn't shake the feeling that I had made the biggest mistake of my life yet. The tears welled in my eyes but before I could get in the shower to wash them away my phone rang. I answered not really caring who it was knowing it wasn't her .
"Hello." I answered
"Hey, frankenteen. I need to talk with you."
"Hi, Santana." I greeted irritated that I had to deal with her when I was already feeling like shit."You know you should probably be nicer to people if you actually want them to listen."
" Oh you will listen to what I have to say especially when it has to do with your oompa loompa of an ex."
That had my attention"WHAT!? what's up with Rachel?" I asked panicking a bit
"Oh a lot but at the better question is what is up with that plastic mannequin she calls a boyfriend. I did some digging and found out that Ken is a male prostitute."
"HE'S WHAT? AND HE'S WITH MY RACHEL?" I yelled into the phone my free hand balling up into a fist.
"Hold on Frank- I mean Finn.I so cleverly arranged what he thinks in a meeting with a horny client in a half hour at Distrikt hotel. I am already here so get your ass down here so you can kick the crap out of that sorry sack of shit."
"I am on my way." I spat into the phone as I attempted to get my pants back on.
I was going to hurt him. It would be different if Rachel was with a nice guy but he was a scum bag and I was never going to let him near her again if I could help it.I left my room in a flash hoping I would make it in time before he realized what was going on.
-Rachel-
I lay on my bed sobbing hysterically Brody had left me just a few hours ago without as much as a word as to Why. I was still embarrassed at how much I had pleaded with him even though now it felt like I was free of his grasp and was crying for an entirely different reason. I heard the front door open and quickly wiped my tears thanking God that they had not witnessed the whole mess.
"Rachel." Kurt called "We have dinner." "Coming." I called back wiping the black tear tracks on my cheek with a tissue hoping they would not notice I had been crying. As I entered the kitchen and saw the looks on their faces I knew I had no such luck they know me far too well.I pulled my chair out taking a seat at the table and drawing in a deep breath knowing a barrage of questions loomed over head.I cleared my throat ready to explain myself at any given moment but no question were asked. So i helped myself to the rice. I was starving and i had just realized. Crying sure built up my appetite. We ate in an uncomfortable silence for the most part until Santana spoke." Rachel are just going to act like everything is fine? or are you going to explain yourself? " I sighed knowing Santana would be the first to interrupt the silence." Brody's gone." I said hoping not to have to explain any further. "I am not surprised." she snorted trying to hide her smirk with a bite of her chicken. I looked to Kurt waiting for him to ask but caught him shooting Santana a look that wiped her obvious smirk right off her face.
"So did you guys split?" Kurt asked a little while later as we were washing the dishes and Santana was blow drying her hair out of earshot. " I don't really know." I admitted with tears welling up again " He didn't say anything he just packed his bag and left." Kurt shook his head " I am sorry Rach. I wish I could help." I shook my head "It's okay Kurt. You know it wasn't working anyway." "i know." he sighed pulling his pink rubber glove off to pat my back.
That Night I went to bed feeling relieved I didn't have to face Brody for the first time in a long time. He was always a constant reminder that I wasn't crawling into the arms of Finn.
please review. I want to know if I should continue writing this FanFic.
Plus I have a few shockers in store for the next few chapters.
