How had I gotten there? I really don't know... Maybe I really did open a portal to darkness and step though it subconsciously. But what was that voice? It was still there and calming me... then I realized.

"Roxas!!" at least my voice was normal..

Hey Sora. Finally figured out it was me, neh? Sorry for the surprise, but I needed to get you out of there. I'm pretty sure that Donald wouldn't have let you figure out what had happened before he jumped the gun.

"Yah I suppose he would have. But what happened to me?! I look like a heartless! And the darkness..." it seemed to be so inviting….

No!! Don't give in!!

Roxas's cry surprised me so much I visibly started.

"What?"

"Sora you need to get out of here now. Take the thirteenth left, twelfth right, and then keep going down in numbers at every turn. You will end up in the would that never was. I can tell you more there but you need to get out of the darkness, please!"

As much as I disliked the idea of going to the world that never was, I had never heard Roxas so desperate, so I went. I had never realized how accurate the name 'corridors of darkness' was. There were branches every 5 feet or so, and after taking the last left turn I found myself in a comfortable looking room much like the one I had on the islands. And then it hit me, the longing to return to darkness, to the safety it provided…

"Sora? SORA!! Do NOT go back, you hear me??! Sit down!"

It hit me like a physical force. My knees buckled and I felt like I was going to puke up what little I had in my stomach. I was shaking and hot and cold and feeling absolutely crappy. I had to get to the darkness. Hadtohadtohad.

"SORA! Use one of the forms!"

The only thing I could think of as final form was practically forced upon me was since when could I transform without someone lending me energy?

And then I was in Final Form, Oblivion and Ultima circling me as I sat several inches off the floor, and it was like a veil had been ripped from me… had I really been that close to falling forever? Was this what Riku had felt? How had he stood it?

Horror struck like a physical thing, and I lay, collapsed truly, down on the floor, or as close as I could get to it in that form. A few seconds later I was glad I was on the floor, because I passed out.

In The Radiant Gardens, a meeting of importance was taking place at this time though I didn't know about it then. Donald and Goofy had gotten to the Gardens in record time. There they had proceeded to tell Leon Merlin and the rest of the gang what had happened. Riku had been there too, waiting for me. He was furious at the fact that I had left him behind, no matter how injured he had been. But you just don't fight on a broken leg. But once he heard what had happened it had taken them all to stop him from using the darkness to track me down. I now wish that he had gotten away. Maybe then I wouldn't be so lonely… and so close to loosing my self at times… (Several tear marks dot the rest of the page, blurring the scrawled words across the bottom of the page nearly to the point where they are illegible..)

Gods I miss them…