well im happy you liked my last chapter and i thought i needed to get this story moving along a little bit so here it is and yes it is Edwards pov. Hope you like it. ;p

Disclaimer:i sadly do not own edward but if i did i would keep him in a cage so i could stare at him all day and to be honest i dont own aly of twilight the great stephine meyer does. :(

Ok so let me introduce myself, I'm Edward Cullen. To be honest I try to be a good person and well since were being honest it's extremely hard, especially in Forks high school. The girls here are crazy, like mad crazy; I swear to god some of them need to be checked out. I don't know if this has ever happened to you but there are some girls who have photo shopped me into some pictures of them to look like I was with them. I mean come on that is so creepy.

Really I'm not a vain person so I'm going to find it hard to describe myself- I have a weird hair colour, like brown with red mixed in and its always a mess, I try to keep fit because I need to due to the whole basketball captain thing. I have green eyes and that's about it, apparently in Forks that makes you good-looking. Even up to this day I still don't get it.

So here are some facts about me, I'm 17 years old, I drive a Volvo oh and did I mention I'm in love. No, well let me explain. I've liked her since, well since she moved here but I don't have the guts to talk to her. Really its embarrassing I've liked her forever and people just expect me to be this confident guy because I'm the basketball captain and the girls here seem to think I'm 'like so hot' their words, definitely not mine.

I know what you're thinking you're popular, captain of the basketball team; grow a pair and ask her out but I'm scared, not only have I never asked out a girl before but I've never seen her with another guy.

She pretty much keeps to herself and well -she lights up my day. She is the type of person all people should be like, she's sweet, kind absolutely gorgeous and the list can go on. The thing is she never swamps me like the other girls, I have tried to get her attention before but it never worked, I smiled at her but she just acted like I was smiling at some one behind her. She's not like normal girls- first of all she wears no makeup, her cloths actually look comfortable and she doesn't spend half her class time looking in the mirror and the other half looking at me.

To me she is the most beautiful person to ever grace the earth. Way better than any model I've seen on TV (due to my sister Alice and her runway obsessions) to billions of times more perfect then supposedly most gorgeous Rosalie Hale (my brother Emmett's' girlfriend) I'm not saying all those people are ugly. No but they are merely not ugly in my eyes but no one has ever made me thing of adjectives such as beautiful, gorgeous, perfect, amazing when describing their appearance- apart from her.

Your properly wondering what she looks like so let me tell you. She has shiny deep chocolate brown hair with the sparkling big brown eyes to match. She has pale skin that is blemish free and looks totally soft. She's petit but with curves and she's quite short at just 5'2. She's just perfect.

You might say that I live a good life and which I would reply that you're right. My family consist of me, Emmett and Alice. We live with our parent Esme and Carlisle who're the second most wonderful people I know, next to her of course. Do you see what I mean when I say my every thought is filled with her to the brink of stalkerish.

Sometimes she's the only reason I stay here. I do love my family and I do love my friends but I'm just not happy. I always have to live up to someone else's expectations. Like I have to get straight A's and I have to be nice to those crazy girls that ask me out daily, hoping I'll change my mind because of the new outfit they have on. But being all those things, the leader, the popular boy, the every thing- it can get you down.

I'm just fed up. It's hard you know to keep up with, and it doesn't help that I'm the only captain to ever be a junior at Forks high. That just adds more pressure, I know they are only pushing me to be better but there comes a time where I just want to give up.

But every time I think about leaving, every time I just think about packing up and going. Something stops me, at first it was like a tug at my heart and I didn't recognise it but then I thought about all the people I would miss and as they flickered though my mind her perfect porcelain face created me the most unbearable amount of pain. Just thinking about never seeing her brow crease in confusion, or the sheer delight that lights up on her face when she gets a question right hurts me like hell. So I stay, how pathetic is that, she has me wrapped around her little finger and she doesn't even know I'm alive. Do you want to know the name of my obsession and the reason I stick around...? Bella Swan.