A/N Warning! This chapter has internal fighting!

Disclaimer: I don't like saying what I do not own, so I will tell you what I do own: my ideas and mind! yay I own something!

Chapter 1

Kim pov

I stopped die in my tracks when I saw Jared sitting in his sit with his head down on the table. I had to questions: How? and Why? How can this happen, I heard Jared had the flu and was in the hospital. Why did this happen on the day I decide to get over him. I felt like saying so many things that I would never ever approve of, but at the same time I wanted to jump up and down like a little girl. Even when I can't see his face he is still the most beautiful person I have ever seen. His chocolate colored hair…his strong arms… I wish he would look up so I could see his face again.

The bell rang sharply in my ears and I realized I had not sat down let. Man, this is bad I spent who knows how long just staring at him.

Jared didn't even look up when I sat down right next to him. I wanted to say something to him, but in a way I felt like if I am ever going to get over Jared, I cannot hear his voice. After all his voice is my favorite thing about Jared. Well maybe hello wouldn't be too bad. I want to hear his perfect silly voice. No! Kim get a hold of yourself like Emily said Jared can not be as perfect as I make him out to be. Yea that's it, I just need to focus on his bad traits. Hmmm…this is hard I usually try to see the good things in people, so I don't know anything bad about Jared. Let's see here the bad traits of…Wait! I know nothing about Jared. All I know is his physical appearance, because we never had talked, not even borrowing paper! I have sat next to him for almost half a year and he never even tried to talk to me. He's a Jerk! I hate him. I hate Jar-

"Okay class," my history teacher said before I could finish my thoughts "Since last time you showed me that you are incompatible of getting into groups of your own, you will be partners with the person sitting next to you," No! how could this happen? Does the world want me to stay in love with Jared forever?

"I will give you no time during class to do this project, so you and your partner will have to find time after school to work on this project," by this time my face was in my hands. I can't believe this is happening to me! At the beginning of the year I would have been jumping up and down, but now I just wanted to cry.

"Shit!" Jared said under his breath. Jerk! If I was not so mad I would be incomplete awe from hearing his beautiful voice.

I looked up from my hands, slowly turned towards Jared, and tried to glare at him. Tried is the keyword here, because everything melted when I saw him. I love him. I am so deeply and madly in love with Jared. With the way he is staring at me, I would love to say Jared feels the same way about me too. How could I ever think Jared was a jerk? Jared is purely perfection.

"Hi," Jared said softly in the most amazing voice "what's your name?" What?! He does not know my name how can he not? Have I not been sitting next to him since the beginning of school? Oh, but he looks so cute staring at me like he is in love with me. Maybe I should just tell…no! my stronger side yelled at me if he doesn't know your name after all this time then Jared does not deserve to hear it now.

"Lucy," I lied.

Jared smiled and said "My name's Jared." He thinks he can just smile his perfect little smile and get away with not knowing my name! I bet he's just being nice so that I will do the work for him!

"I know I found out your name, when we were put in assigned seats at the beginning of the school year!" I said acidly.

Jared look absolutely stunned"I…I didn't mean to--ring-- the bell cutting him off.

"Save it for someone who cares," I spat

Jared started to shake and I took that as my cue to leave.

"Lucy! Wait! please," he whispered the last part, he might have said something else but by that time I had practically ran out of the room. Jared just stood there while I left not even bothering to gather his books. That was the hardest thing for me to do Jared looked so sad, so hurt maybe…No! he just a good actor that's all, but why was he shaking? Don't fall for it Kim he's just going to hurt you.

My next period was lunch so I stayed in the girl's bathroom and just cried my eyes out.

Jared doesn't like you.

Jared doesn't care about you.

Jared doesn't love you.

Myself taunted me over and over again.

The rest of the day when by uneventful and boring. I didn't see Jared again.


"I can't do this not when I'm still upset about what happen with Jared" my weaker side complated while I drove over to Emily's.

"Oh get over it, you said you wanted to rock this blind date did you not" my stronger side questioned my weaker side.

"That was before…"

When I pulled up to Emily's house I ran to meet her. I never been so happy to see another person; I just could not stand being alone with my mind anymore. I am going to go crazy if I cannot learn to get along with myself.

"Kimbo the Bimbo!" Emily yells running at me.

"Emily the strange!" I yelled hugging her.

Sam was just sitting on the sidelines looking at us as if we just gone crazy or some new invention that didn't make sense.

"Kimbo the…?Emily the what?!" Sam asked slightly shaking. What was it with guys shaking lately? Is that normal guy behavior?

"Sam relax, Emily the strange is a character that I love and well Kim had no choice, 'cause it rhymes," smiled Emily.

"I still don't like it" Sam mumbled.

"Don't mind him he's just hungry, let's go and get you ready" giggled Emily as she forced me in the house.

Two hours later, a tube of lip gloss, and a whole branch of stuff I don't even want to talk about Emily was finally done.

"Wow, that was a huge waste of time," I said.

"No it was not! Look at yourself," Emily said while turning me around to the full-length mirror.

Wow am I…am I really her as in that girl that is staring in the mirror right back at me? She's beautiful. My boring straight brown hair was curled perfectly. My makeup looked natural except for the eyes they were done in a purple smoking eye. Emily dressed me in dark wash jeans and she let me borrow the most awesome lace up go-go boots. The only thing I did not approve of was the purple tank top.

"Emily do you know were we live? I can't wear this shirt it's too cold outside and it's too low cut. I look trashy in it," I wined.

"No you do not! Kim you look great. You just don't know what cute clothes are."

"Thanks Emily," I said while rolling my eyes "but it is still too cold to wear this."

"I know," Emily said with an evil glint in her eyes.

I was about to question her about it, but the door bell rang.

Emily gave me a once over and decided to fix my hair. Then Emily garbed my hand and ran down stairs.

Once we got down stairs my heart stopped. There in the middle of the living room was Sam, Jared, and I can only guess my blind date laughing.

A/N I would say reviews make me post faster, but that's just a lie.