well here you have to the first chapter.
I don't own Fairy Tail. And never will.
I finally found a beta reader who want to correct my mistakes in my stories, and now this has improved a lot. I want to thanks Age Of Awesomeness.
Well enjoy reading everyone.
Chapter one: Leave Behind the Memories.
Dear Mama,
3 weeks have passed since the Grand Magic Games, and I'm still the same. I haven't changed at all. In fact, I'm still weak compared to the rest of my guild mates. What can I say? I'm just a simple celestial spirit mage. I love my magic—and spirits.
Fairy Tail lost the games because of me. Even after everything that happened during the S-Class exam. Our guild is still the worst. I feel that I need to become stronger everyday.
The one word I use to describe myself now is 'useless'. Yes, Mama, I feel that I'm useless. Is just that everyone around me is so strong and then there's me. Me? I can't do anything.
I'm sorry, Mama, if I sound depressed. But I need to tell you my feelings.
Well, enough about me… How about you? How's dad? I still need to write him his letter. I hope you guys are doing better then me. I love you, and I always will, Mama.
With lots of love,
Your daughter,
Lucy Heartfilia.
Dear Father,
Hello, Father. How have you been? I am sorry for everything. I haven't written to you in these months is because I don't know what to write.
I have been busy, with the Grand Magic Games and the guild. I guess I'll tell you the same thing I told Mama. We lost the GMG, and it was all because of me. I feel useless.
What can I do? Before I told you that all I need is a family, and friends, but I'm starting to think that power is more important than family and friends. Although, I don't mean that type of power. I mean magic power.
I also want to tell you that I am tired of the cliches where everyone says "with the power of family and friendship, we are invincible". It's all because of that phrase that I'm weak. I care too much about others.
I am sorry for all of this negativity about all this.
I love you, and I forgive you.
With lots of love,
Your daughter,
Lucy Heartfilia.
Lucy's POV
I hate having so many feelings. It makes me feel weak. Forget that, I am weak.
I walk alone to the same old guild, one that we still have because of me. I don't care anymore. Because to care about something makes you hurt.
Entering the guild, I could hear the usual,
"What a weakling she is," and, "I wish she would die and never come back," and, "Oh god, it's her again. It's because of her that we lost." I just ignore the comments and keep walking to my usual place.
"What would you like Lucy?" Mira is still nice and she never said anything. For that I'm grateful.
"Just water please," I say, a small smile on my face.
"Coming right up!" She tells me. I sat there, waiting.
I saw my old team walking over to me. Although I wasn't officially out of the team, we still go our separate ways. I'm going to guess that today is when they are going to 'officially' kick me off of the team.
"Lucy, we're sorry, but you can't be on this team anymore. Get lost," Natsu said coldly.
"He's right! You are too weak to be on our team," Gray said.
"We can't allow weaklings to be in this guild. It's all your fault that we lost the games. Now we are no longer the best guild," Erza said.
I was right. They were going to kick me out. I guess it's a good time to leave, isn't it? I laughed out loud. I guess this, for some reason, surprises many people because I just laughed like that. I just ignored them.
"You know what? You're right! I am weak, but you know what? I found something out during these past 3 weeks. Feeling doesn't always make us strong. That's why I'm too weak. I used to care about everything and was hoping that I would finally find someone who cares about me too. A family was what I needed. Friends were what I needed. But now I know that those things don't matter if one wants to survive in the world." I finished my speech and I started to walk toward the gate.
"Remember one more thing. If it helps, I'll leave the guild myself. I admit that it was my fault, so if you feel bad or whatever, don't," I pause, "Oh, silly me, why did I say that? Everyone has selfish reasons in life. Of course you wouldn't feel anything. Well, good-bye Fairy Tail. For now," I walked away and didn't turn back. I don't care about their reaction, whether good or bad. I don't want to and I don't need to care.
It's time for my own adventure to begin.
Back at the guild.
Natsu's POV
"That wasn't Lucy… she changed," I mumbled sadly when she left through the door.
"Of course, flame brain!" Gray said. She was right, we ignored everything. It was our fault too. Now she's leaving. I'll might not see her again. What kind of friend am I? I hurt someone important to me.
"I'm going for a walk alone," I said, walking out. I head to the forest, a place where Happy doesn't know about. I'm glad that no one followed me, because I don't want anyone to see me in this state.
I'm a liar. We all are. We are always saying we should act like a family. Now we have broken that. We hurt one of us.
I run to the train station, in case I can see her again, if she is there. I hope that I'm not too late.
Erza's POV
I start to feel guilty after Natsu left too. Lucy was always like a sister to me. Why did I say that? She was right. We all have our selfish reasons. We were all so desperate to win the games, and we never thought about anything. It was everyone's fault, so Lucy isn't the only one to blame.
I realize that now, but it's too late. Because she's already left.
"Guys, what she said was right! If we are to blame someone it should be all of us," I shouted.
Many of the members nodded in agreement.
Gray's POV
I pushed away the one person who was like a sister to me. I don't know why I did it.
I agree with Erza.
Lucy's POV
Without another thought I walked onto the train. "Well, good-bye Magnolia. Good-bye feelings," I mumbled
"Wait, Lucy!" A familiar voice called from behind. I turn around to find the pink-haired idiot, one that I don't want to see. I stopped,
"What do you want, Natsu?" I ask, trying to sound emotionless.
"I want to apologize. You were right, and I want to say-" I cut him off,
"Don't say that you're sorry. It's not your fault. It's my decision. Nobody in the guild should feel sorry for someone like me. I already said that I don't want to care for people who I don't want to care for. So there is no need to care about me either. By the way, this is the last warning: go back and tell your guild that no one will come and look for me. Or else I'll kill them like how I kill a real enemy. After I leave this place, all the old memories will be forgotten," I warn before I enter the train to find my seat. Then I see Natsu waiting there, looking hurt. The train is about to leave.
Well, they deserved it.
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