EPOV:

15 years. 15 years since I gave up my true love.

By now she would probably happily married with kids and a loving husband. But no she died one month after my leaving in a car wreck. Her body was never even recovered. After we heard the news I tried to go to Italy and plead for them to kill me several times. But, Alice would always see me and stop me. The very idea of her no longer existing killed me all over again. I blame myself for her death I should have been there to stop it. I knew giving Bella up would be tortuous for me. Somehow, I convinced myself that it was the right thing to do. I know now it was the biggest mistake of my existence. My whole family and I went to her funeral. Even though I was the closest to Bella she was still a very big part of our family. Even after we left. Alice and I were the worst she lost her sister and best friend I lost my soulmate. After the funeral I was words don't even describe just how miserable I was. Today will be the first time back at school for me since we left Forks. After we left Forks I went off on my own. I sat day and night and just wallowed. I more or less just let the misery have me only leaving my house to hunt occasionally. I carried this on until my family finally convinced me to come back.

I glanced back at my clock. Less than an hour until school. I threw on the clothes Alice had layed out and walked down stairs. After exchanging hellos with my family I climbed into my car and drove off towards school.