"Daddy what do you think I should do?" I asked

"As much as I love seeing you; you need to be with Richard more. Tell him how you feel about him; make him forgive you and tell him that you forgive him for being himself. Make love to him in the most passionate way you can before you lose him forever" he answered.

"But daddy I think I may have done something wrong" I said

"What do you mean?" he asked

"Well; I'm sure you heard of the explosion that happened a couple of weeks ago. It started then; we were solving the case and everything was hanky dory until I interrogated our first suspect he told me he didn't remember anything; I told him I had been shot and I remembered everything and then I came out of interrogation Castle was there and then we went to the whiteboard, I filled in the information we had gathered. The following day I arrived back at work after asking some witnesses some questions to find a coffee on my desk and Castle not there; he got back and started acting really strange. I mean like going out with a blonde bimbo who he had only just meet and then sleeping with her; meeting her four times in three days for a date and then telling me nothing was wrong when I asked if he was alright" I took a deep breath and was going to start again but dad held up his hand to stop me and he opened his mouth to ask

"Where was Richard when you interrogated that bombing suspect?"

"I, I don't know; Why?" I asked

"I think he might have been in the witness's box watching you interrogate this suspect" dad answered

"Who's to say he was dad?" I asked

"Who's to say he wasn't" he replied.

Everything started to make sense now but I really needed to see Castle to confirm it.

"Bye Daddy" I said, leaning over to kiss and hug my father

"Bye Katie; love you" he said as I left the room. My father had made sense; I was trying to work out why Castle had been pissed off at me for the last three and a half weeks. If Castle had overheard that then it made sense; but what I was trying to work out why he waited for the following day to get mad; why not just get mad instantly. I thought about the case when he was trying to tell us that Zombies were real; how when he arrived he told the coroner that it had been nice working with him and that he was going to miss him. I hadn't thought anything of that either really; and then at the end of that case when he was dressed up as a zombie himself, I'd told him that the wall I'd built nearly eleven years ago; when my mum was murdered was coming down. He'd come back to work the next day all because he was hoping I would let him in; tell him I remembered. I didn't do anything like that I just got extremely pissed off with him and kicked him off the case when his father turned up and had something to do with my mums murder. He cried and I felt a piece of my heart shatter; I made him do that and I vowed to myself that I would never make him cry again.

Finally I was ready to admit my feelings for him; he was at home by himself, I remember him saying yesterday afternoon that Alexis and Martha had gone away for the weekend and left a day early. I stood in the brisk cold; walking my way through town to get to Castle's apartment, and started going over the memories I held near to my heart just because Castle was in them. When Detective Shaw came to solve the investigation; when I was at risk, he saved my life and I didn't thank him I just teased him. I was jealous of the way that he reacted to her and her fancy equipment and was silently thrilled when he decided to stay the night and watch over me. When he took me to the ball at the Waldron to solve a crime; but the dress he gave me and the way he treated me made me feel like a princess. The way he held me close when we were dancing and how close I was to him; it was the best night of my life until we kissed, I continuously told myself that it was just because we were trying to save Ryan and Esposito' life but it also felt so incredibly nice, the way his mouth tasted and how sweet and tender he placed his lips on mine felt incredible. The way he held me close when we were freezing to death in the middle of a case; I almost told him I loved him that day. That same case he held my hand as he tried to defuse a bomb and then he hugged me close once it was dead. I was smiling broadly when I reached Castle's apartment building and the doorman smiled back as he held open the door for me.

Grateful that Castle was home I stood in the dark corridor whilst he stood there in shock.

"Beckett; is that you?" he asked

"Yea; I- can I come in?" I asked

"Uh; yea sure" he said as he held open the door for me. I walked in and stood in the entrance way of his apartment.

"So; what are you doing here?" he asked, he was looking at hi shoes, hands in his pockets and rocking back in forth.

"I need to tell you something and I don't know how to tell you" I said

"Would like to sit down; I could get you a drink?" he asked

"Yea okay" I said as I sat on the couch. He finished pouring the orange juice and put it on the coffee table; he sat on the other side of the couch and looked at me.