Bring Me To Life

Quick explanation: Late in Bella's Zombie Stage, about the time Jacob comes into the picture and, well…you'll get it.


How can you see into my eyes like open doors
Leading you down into my core
Where I've become so numb
Without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home

Jacob. He saw past my looks. I was so depressed and such a wreck it's a wonder how he even recognized me.

He showed up in my life again, when I showed up at his house with those two trashed motorcycles. All he saw of me was how depressed and withdrawn I was. And he pushed that filter aside, rising me up from that and bringing me back to the surface, back to the sunshine and back to living again.

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become

I was nothing. Quite literally, I was nothing and he brought me back from that. Like he was some kind of Jesus figure with the ability to bring people back to life after they had laid dead for a long time. He was my savior.

Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life

He saw me as the ghost of what I was when I still had…him with me. He knew that I was broken and I wasn't the same person who had horribly flirted stories out of him. Jake took me in and tried to fix me, tried to breathe life back into me. He was succeeding in a way of making me forget what I had lost, but with it came the constant reminders of what I had lost. He made them bearable for me.

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become

Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life

I tried to spend all my time with Jake so I wouldn't have to think about him. He was a great distraction, I gave him credit for that much, I was just not as good at being distracted it seemed. But I was working on that, and I was getting better.

Frozen inside without your touch without your love
darling only you are the life among the dead

All this time I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything
Without a thought without a voice without a soul
Don't let me die here
There must be something more
Bring me to life

Then he left me. For some strange reason, he just started to ignore me and leave me alone while he joined Sam Uley. I couldn't understand why. He was my sun in the depressing night I seemed to be consuming. He just left me, and I could feel my first hole left by a certain someone rip open, and a new one fallow it.

Jacob Black ripped a second hole in my body and I felt like I had been betrayed. I was broken again, with no help and no distraction from the pain that was swallowing me whole.

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become

Now what could I do? Jacob… How could you abandon me? I needed you!

(Bring me to life)
I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside
Bring me to life