Chapter 2- Sometime Love Just Aint Enough
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In a blink of an eye the wedding party as well as the entire guests was outside the church hovering over the newlyweds congratulating them. Leah watch as Sam and Emily greeted guest after guest laughing and smiling brightly, chatting up conversation after conversation and occasionally taking pictures with them. The wedding has been perfect everything was the way it should be, the church was set up perfectly, the ceremony was beautiful, hell even the weather was beautiful, the sun was hidden behind the clouds but the heat was still intense, it was odd weather for Forks but Sam and Emily saw it as a sign that they were meant to be. The photographer soon pulled Sam and Emily aside and placed them by the stair of the church to take photos, after several shots had been taken the photographer called out for the wedding party to join the bride and groom in a couple of wedding shots, Leah cringed she sucked in her breath and released through her mouth.
'Long Day' she muttered to herself as she plastered the most convincing smile on her face before finding her place next to Emily
After a few shot, the photographer changed the position of the party, pulling out every one except the bride, groom, the best man and the maid of honor. At first Leah was handling the situation well masking her pain with a smile and a laugh however when the photographer took picture of Sam and Leah separately, Leah's smile began to fade fast, it was awkward and she became agitated with the photographer even though he probably had no idea of the situation. Leah was relieved when the others came back in to the photo op but she spoke too so, Paul who was one of the groomsmen stood behind her, laughing her and mocking the dress she was wearing.
"Hey Leah, why do you look so sad, did you lose your sheep?" Paul laughed
Leah's patient was wearing thin and Paul wasn't helping her at all. She ignored him and tried to focus on the photos put Paul wasn't giving up.
"baaaaaaaa" Paul teased in hysteric
Leah clenched her fist in anger and clenched her teeth trying to calm herself down but Paul being Paul kept pushing her buttons. It was when Paul began humming to the tune of little bow peep, that Leah has had enough she lifted her leg from under her dress and kicked him right in the nuts causing Paul to yelp in pain and fall to the ground with his hands around his crotch. Immediately the bridal party turned to find Paul on the floor, Jacob who had heard the whole conversation, laughed loudly knowing Paul got what was coming to him. Quil and Embry laughed too while Sam shook his has not knowing what he did, but knowing he probably deserved that.
"AHHHH, oh for the love of everything that's holy" Paul gasped
Leah grinned as she watched Paul's face turn five shades of red and then turn completely white
Jared and the other guys helped him up while Jacob turned to Paul and whispered "serves you right"
Paul glared at Leah coldly before limping of with Jared
Jacob laughed putting his hand over Leah's shoulder " That's my girl"
After the commotion died down, everyone began to make their way to their cars for the reception at the La Push Hall. Leah lagged behind watching as the limo with Sam and Emily pulled away but Rachel pulled her out of the trance by shaking her " come on Leah, we have to go" before Leah even got into the car she could here a variety of laughter filling the air, when she finally enter the limo she saw all the boys holding their stomach in fits of laughter while Paul grabbed a bag of ice from the mini fridge and placed it inbetween his legs.
"I don't think I can ever have kids" Paul moaned, the pain becoming unbearable
Embry who was sitting beside Leah bent over and whispered " I think you did us all a favour"
Despite how funny Embry's comment was, Leah was to caught up in the image of Sam and Emily to laugh. She felt as if the wind had been knocked out of her she was unable to breath, unable to think, the image of her and Sam on the beach that night haunted her as she remember the way he was kissed her, the way he sung her to sleep and as he held her in his arms as they watched the sun come over the horizon she was never going to have that feel that with him again, she still loved him despite everything she still loved him but her mind kept replaying to all the promises he has made –
" I will always love you Leah, nobody but you, forever"
"Your mine and we belong together, we fit perfectly together I can't live with out you, I cant see me
with out you, I dedicate my life to making you happy just the way you have made me happy"
"Leah, after graduation you and I are going have the biggest wedding La Push has ever seen, we are
gonna make it a night that nobody ever forgets"
Leah felt her stomach turn, a sickening feeling overwhelmed her, the took deep breaths trying to push back the urge the throw up but she couldn't, she quickly placed her hand over her mouth and jumped over Embry just in time to open the limo door and to release all of content in her stomach.
Immediately Jacob rushed to Leah's aid pulling her hair back with one hand and rubbing her back while the girls look stunned. After Leah felt like she was done Rachel handed her a water from the fridge to rinse out her mouth, Leah moaned she couldn't believe she had just done that but Rachel soother her
"it ok Lee, its alright, you don't have to worry about anything, we are here if you need us"
Leah ducked her head in response she was extremely embarrassed by what she has done.
"come on Lee, you human, you are allowed to sure your emotions once and a while" Quil pipped up
After Leah rinsed out her mouth a couple of time she sat back in the limo, placed her head in between her legs and tried to breath. Seth traded seats with Embry to try and see if there was anything he could do for her
" Do you want me to take you home, maybe you can get some rest you don't look so good"
Leah shook her head " no" she said with a raspy voice
Jacob sighed " come on Lee, no one expects you to do this, this is to much for you"
"I have too, I have to try. I'm not doing this for Sam or Emily or anyone else"
" Then who are you doing it for Lee?"
"myself" She said simply " I though that if I do this ill be able to move on from Sam, finally make peace with the past but every time I try too, all the memories keep coming back" Leah sighed "this is harder than I though it would be"
" you have nothing to prove, Leah" Quil told her
" we love you and we want what's best for you" Embry continued
Leah shook her head " even after everything I did to you guys and you still love me?, even after all the pain and misery I put you through?, what the hell are you guys saints?"
" we are your brothers Leah, we will always be you brothers and we will stand by you though the best and worst times no matter what" Jacob smiled
"I don't deserve it, I don't deserve any of you love and support. I think after what I put you guys through I deserve this pain"
"come on Lee, nobody deserves this" Seth said hugging her
" trust me, I know" Jacob nodded in agreement . "The pain is unbearable, it was so bad that I stayed a wolf just so I couldn't feel the pain" Jacob paused for a moment remembering what it was like. " but you know what got me through?" Jacob asked Leah but Leah shrugged her shoulders
" my pack, you guys were there for me and ever though I just wanted to be alone, you guys never left my side and told me everything was going to be ok and it was"
" yeah and we were just as miserable as we were with you Jake, jeez you two really know how to bring us down" Jared muttered
Jacob smiled " well you know what they say……. Misery really does love company"
Paul snorted " yeah and meet the expert" he pointed to Leah
Leah frown " I'm sorry for everything, I really am"
Jacob hushed her " its all in the past Lee"
" Yeah besides its not like we were all great, we gave you a hard time about it too remember" Embry reminded
" We were really mean back then, I remember Paul saying if something ever happen to you the song that we would play at your funeral would be…… ding dong the witch is dead"
Leah's eyes darted towards Paul who involuntary placed his hands over his lap but then Leah's eyes softened
"I was that bad huh?"
Nobody answered, Leah sighed " I'm really sorry"
Embry smiled " all water under the bridge"
The others nodded too, Leah smiled genuinely for the first time she knew that with her brother's with her she was going to be ok……………. eventually"
" we better get a move on, we are already late to the reception" Colin pointed to his watch anxiously
" Yeah" Jacob agreed he taped on the glass between the driver and the passengers to let the driver know he could go, and within minutes they were flying down the street towards the hall.
As the limo came to a stop and the driver opened the door for them to exist, they could see the hall was extravagantly decorated. Balloons, ribbons and lace decorated the stairs leading up to the doors, the theme was 'Love At First Sight" so every possible shade of red known to man was paraded in the decorations with a touch of the classic white. Once they were in the hall they saw that everyone was already seated. They quickly scrambled toward their seating area.
" where the hell have you guys been?" Sam scolded
" Well umm, ahhhhh, oh , hmmm" Jared stutted
Leah stared at her hands unable to look Sam in the eyes
Jacob grinned " Paul need ice for his ahhhhh injury" he finished with a smirk
Sam looked over to see Paul cradling a bag of ice in between his hands, causing Sam to smirk too. After that Sam didn't ask anymore questions, Leah was relieved and mouthed a thank you Jacob's way
The reception began with the first dance with the bride and groom to their song 'Where You Are' by Jessica Simpson and Nick Lachey, Sam and Emily danced looking in each other as if they were the only two people there, people at the reception smiled some taking photos while others whispered about how much the happy couple adored each other. Leah saw the champagne flute in front off her and downed half the glass, luckily there was alcohol there bescause Leah couldn't do this sober Quil saw her down the rest of the glass and slide to her side taking the glass off her.
"Leah, what are you doing? You have nothing in your stomach at the moment which mean your going to more than likely get drunk faster, when the food comes then you can have another glass"
"You such a buzz kill Quil, I'm ok, I just wanted something to drink that's all"
" well have some water, I'm not gonna let you get drunk Leah you hear me, this is only temporary once you wake up tomorrow morning you gonna still have this heartache and this pain so deal with it without the alcohol please"
" Fine" Leah pouted
The first dance came and went and the DJ asked everyone on to the dance floor for a dance, the couple suddenly swarmed the dance floor. Leah saw as each of her brother's grabbed their imprints and lead them to the floor, Embry had imprinted on one of Emily's second cousins Cassandra who had come to her engagement party. Seth, Colin and Brady who still hadn't imprinted asked the girls who they had been eyes earlier to dance. Even the Cullen's were dancing Bella and Edward were dancing close to Jacob and Nessie in the middle of the dance floor this was mainly because Edward wanted to keep a close eye on Jake just in case. Leah watched as Jasper twirled Alice around and around, Emmett and Rosalie where to the far right of the hall, bundled up close together Emmett whispering in Rosalie's ear causing her to giggle lightly. Carlisle and Esme were showing off their dancing skills as they cha- cha'ed down the dance floor.
After about half and hour of dancing the food was served, everybody at and was rapped in their own conversations while Leah sat silently picking at her food. She was nervous next up was the best man and the maid of honor speeches and Leah had no one nice thing to say, but lucky Jacob was doing most of the talking. Within minutes the food was finished and the DJ announced the speeches.
" well ladies and gentleman, its time for the best man and maid of honor to say their speeches"
Leah swallowed the lump in her throat and followed Jacob to the podium where he started of the speeches
"So here we are, finally at Sam and Emily's wedding man I didn't think this day would come, I mean seriously if some one told you Sam Uley was getting married and settling down would you have believed it" Everyone laughed " yeah see" Jacob said shrugging his shoulders " but seriously in all honestly I'm extremely happy for you man, I mean I haven never seen some one light up like that, as soon as Emily comes into the room its like Sam melts, our tough Sam who is always ragging on us and acting all hard, turns to jelly at the sight of his beautiful lady and to be honest I don't blame him I mean, I have never met someone who is so gently, pure hearted and loving as Emily is and not to mention that her cooking is to die for" again echoes of laughter filled the hall " I have never seen two people more meant for each like these two and if I am lucky to have what Sam and Emily have then I consider myself to be truly blessed, Congratulation Sam and Emily on this wonderful union, may you two find blessing each and everyday, may you share the laughter and joy and may you two stay strong in time of pain. May you never taken each other for granted and always keep each other with in your hearts, minds and thoughts, to Sam and Emily."
The hall erupted in applause as Jacob finished his speech, Jacob moved away from the podium to let Leah speak, her hands were shaking and she swallowed the oh to familiar lump caught in her throat.
Leah stood up to the podium and cleared her throat, she could hear everyone whispering wondering what she was going to say. Most people though the first words out of her mouth were going to be terrible and she was going to bring the whole mood down but surprisingly when Leah opened her mouth she said all the right things.
"Congratulations Sam and Emily, I know how much today means to you, it isn't really about the cake or the hall or any of those things it was about confessing your love for one another in the presents of god, you family and friends, I guess it's a match made in heaven then, because when Sam first laid eyes on you Em, it was like his whole world stopped but who could blame him you are one of the most beautiful brides I had ever seen. The love you share for one another is a gift a precious gift that is so unbelievably special that if you are lucky enough to find it you have to keep it tightly in your grasps and never let go. I guess it's safe to say that you both have done amazing job of holding on to it. Sam, Em I wish you guys all the best for the wonderful future you will be sharing together, I hope that whatever life bring you way you two are able to overcome it together and may you be as happy everyday of you lives as you are at this very moment"
As Leah finished the whole hall went silent, everybody was stunned by her incredible speech, suddenly Leah heard clapping from all around.
'wow, I didn't know I had it in me" Leah thought to herself as she made her way back to the bridal table
"Leah that was so beautiful, Thank You" Emily sobbed as she wiped a tear from eye and pulled Leah in a hug
Leah smiled and nodded, her eyes then went towards Sam he smiled at her graciously and nodded his head agreeing with Emily
"Thanks Leah"
Leah nodded and went back to her seat were her pack brothers' were staring at her, she rolled her eyes and sat down
"I'm proud of you Leah" Seth smiled hugging her
Soon enough the cake was cut and Leah watched as Sam and Emily cut the cake slowly and place to pieces on their plates, feeding each other a little piece and shoved the rest of the cake in each others' faces before kissing. The crowd cheered and laughed. The cake was taken away to be cut and once again everybody got up to dance, Leah watched as her mother took Charlie's hand and pulled her towards the dance floor. Everyone began to walk towards the dance floor. Leah heard some one clear their throat from behind her, she turned to see Jacob behind her he pulled out his hand
" wanna dance" he grinned
She smiled "sure Jake why not"
Jacob lead Leah to the dance floor and pulled her towards him
" you did a amazing job with the maid of honor speech"
" it took all I hand not to say what I really wanted to say, what I really felt"
"but you didn't Lee, you did the right thing"
Leah snorted " yeah shocking, I know but I love Sam enough to want him to be happy and if its Emily that does that for him, so be it"
Jacob grinned
"what!" Leah groan
" looks like you are trying to move on"
Leah sighed "yeah finally two years later, but I still love him, I know I have lost him but in my heart I will always love him I don't think I will fully heal"
Jacob laughed " you will, you will find somebody new and he will make you heal and forget all about Sam"
"like Nessie did for you when you lost Bella"
Jacob nodded " I will always love Bella, but the love I have for Nessie is so strong that the hurt I was feeling over Bella disappeared"
" yeah but that's because you imprinted and you were suppose to find some one who you will love more than anything, look at me Jacob, I'm a genetic dead end, I lost the only man I truly love, since I became a wolf I'm not normal I haven't been getting my um monthly friend and if I was supposed to be a wolf I would have been able to imprint like you guys"
" it will happen for you Lee, I'm sure of it, remember good thing come for those who wait"
Leah rolled her eyes "yeah, yeah"
"can I cut in?" a soft voice asked
Leah immediately froze knowing the voice instantly, she involuntarily squeezed Jake's hand as Jake turned towards the person
Leah's fears where confirmed when she saw Sam, Leah murmured something incoherent causing Jacob to turn to her.
" Leah, may I have this dance"
Leah wanted so badly to say no, to scream it at the top of her lungs NO NO NO. But when she opened her mouth nothing came out, she was mesmerized by him still even though he was taken, he wasn't hers and never will be again the feeling she felt overwhelmed, it was as if she was meeting Sam for the first time.
"Lee" Sam called
"s s s sure" she stuttered her eyes reached Jacob's eyes as he hugged her and whispered "its ok, you'll be fine" she nodded quickly before watching Jacob disappear into the crowd of people. She felt Sam gently take her hand, her eyes remain on their intertwined hand, she was too scared to look at him.
"Leah, I just want thank you again, you were amazing up there, I know that it must have been really hard to do that"
"What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger right" Leah said quietly
Sam frown " I'm sorry for all this Leah, I'm sorry for all the promises I has made that I couldn't keep, all that you had to go through all this pain and that I had to break your heart it was never my intention. But I'm not sorry about us, Leah I still love you I always will and I don't want you to ever think otherwise. I wish I could do it all again so I wont have to hurt you."
" but you did" Leah breathed " and nothing and nobody can ever changed that" Leah felt her self losing control
" I'm sorry Leah, I'm so sorry"
Leah pulled out all the courage that she could to look in to Sam's eyes "so am I"
After that Sam and Leah didn't talk they just continued dancing till the end of the song, when the song finished Leah and Sam looked at each other, Leah felt tears well up in her eyes.
"Have a nice life Sam" She whimper as she let her emotions get the best of her
" Ill always love you Lee-Lee" Sam said as he kissed her hand
They let go of each other hands as the last song for the night came to an end
" Ladies and Gentlemen, it is time for the bouquet and the garter toss and then we will be saying out farewells to the bride and groom"
All the unwed girls line up in the middle of the hall, getting ready to catch the bouquet, Leah was getting ready to sneak away but just like the unlucky person she is, she was caught by Kim
" Hey were do you think your going Leah?, come on you aren't gonna miss this are you?" Kim smield grabbing her hand
Leah rolled her eyes " I guess not"
Kim grabbed Leah and pulled her in the middle of the circle next to Rachel. Emily smiled as she held up her bouquet and counted "one" she said lifting up her hands all the girls squeeled and shoved each other.
"two" Emily giggled
By this time all the attention was on Emily that's when Leah saw her chance to escape, she snuck past Rachel and Kim who by now were to focused on the activity she was just about to escape when Emily shouted "three"
Leah turned to see the bouquet being flung from Emily's hand and became airbourne, the girls all jump up to grab it each pushing and shoving to get a better grip, the bouquet flew over their hands and fell towards Leah, in a flash the bouquet found its place in Leah's arms. The crowd clapped and some of the girl's groaned. Leah half smiled shaking her head "of all the luck in the world, I wasn't even going for it" Leah though frustrated
Within minutes the girls clear the dance floor and the guys filled it, Leah watched as Emily sat on a chair while Sam kneeled before her. Even before Sam's hand reached Emily's leg she was blushing and covering her face with her hands. The girls giggled at Emily's embarresment while the guys were hooting and hollering as Sam lifted Emily's dress and began pulling the garter with his teeth. When Sam finally pulled the garter off Emily's leg he spun it in his hand before he flung it toward the guys. Like the rapid wolves they were, they all jumped up to grab the piece of lace however it was Jared who grabbed it. The crowd clapped and the boys each gave Jared a pat on the back and Kim went to kiss him.
The Dj's voice now filled the air " Ladies and Gentlemen, sadly it is time to say goodbye to the bride and groom, make your way to the door way so you can hug them and kiss them before they go"
Everybody made there way out towards the limoto say there final goodbyes. Leah stayed behind, she was more focused on the bouquet in her hands she lifted it up towards her nose and breathed in the breath taking smell of lillies, roses and baby's breath. She signed. This was it, Sam and Emily were off on their honeymoon and when they return they will be starting their lives together, the honeymoon that was suppose to be Leah's, the life she was suppose to have.
Leah felt a hand on her shoulder she turned to see her mother, Charlie, The pack and the Cullen standing there. Leah's mother was the first to speak
"Leah, sweetheart are you ok?" Sue placed her hand on Leah's cheek
"im fine mom, I just want to go home"
"I can take you home" Jacob offered
"Nah, I think ill manage besides its like a five minute walk"
Sue shook her head " no Leah its too dangerous"
Leah snorted " mom, please if any one comes near me ill faze and attack"
"Oh, but Leah you will ruin your pretty dress" Paul grinned
Leah grinned " How's you crotch Paul?, are you still in excruciating pain or do you need another reminder"
Paul immediately shut up and Leah smirked in victory
" are you sure ull be ok, sweetheart?" Sue asked
"ill be fine mom, I promise"
Sue nodded and Leah hugged her, she farewelled everybody before finally leaving the hall, Leah kept her composer all the way home. When she finally reached her house she sighned in relief she looked around and saw the mess from this morning, make up was scattered all around the room, plates of food was still in the kitchen sink. Leah immediately went up stairs toward her room and took of the ridiculous dress, she went to hang it up in the closet and saw a box that she had packed away that was filled with things Sam had given to her. After she hung up her dress and changed she grabbed the box and placed it on the bed. She opened it up and saw all the stuff Sam had given her including bears, love letters, flowers and his jacket he had given to her on their first date to protect her from the cold. Leah took out each item one by one and explored it. Her sight went to the flowers she had frozen, it was the flowers that Sam had given to her on their first date she touch them gently scared that they will disinagrate within her grasps, she place it lightly on the bed before she grabbed one of the love letters, sat on the bed and began to read it……
My Dearest Lee Lee,
I know I haven't been fair to you being away for this long, im sorry, the though of being without you makes me ache with pain, my body longs for yours to hug you, to kiss you, to smell your sweet scent. It wont be long now till you are in my arms once again, and its is only then that I can take that long awaited breath to fill my lungs with your beauty. You complete me mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually I never want to be without ever again so when I come back ill be down on my knees hoping you can forgive me for this separation. I adore you and I would rather die then see you in pain. Im so very lucky to have you in my life Lee-Lee and I will never find anyone as amazing as you. I just want to spend hours by your side watching your every move. I cant be without you not now not ever and when I come back to La Push I promise you I will show you how much I love you. Im sending my love from my heart to your I hope that will be enough for you until I can be back with you again. Ill be home soon my love but until then you'll be in my mind and in my heart.
I love you,
Sam.
Leah let the tears fall freely down her cheek wetting the paper in her hand, Leah folded the paper and placed it against he heart and sobbed she let goof everything that had happened today. She placed the letter aside and lifted the jacket from the box she rapped it around her small frame she didn't even need to smell it, the jacket smelt of Sam's perfume. She gripped the jacket tighly as if she was holding Sam in her arms right at that very moment but he wasn't, he was in Emily's, the though of what they were doing at this very moment made her sick to her stomach. Leah's body began shake in agony she struggled to breath as she placed her hand on her chest , the musles in her chest tightenedshe felt as if some one was ripping out her heart, she gasped for air as she struggled to find the phone to call for help but before she could reach it she felt her body shut down, the trembling stopped, the chest pain stopped and her body succume to the darkness.
