And we continue, now beyond the Thor and Avengers movie, we go from the descriptive writing to finally writing somewhat of a story.. ^^ . Though this all was scribbled down in a rush, just trying to get the story that played in my head typed on my laptop as fast as possible before I'd forget. So forgive if it isn't all that good.. it was a bit of haste. Reviews always welcome though.
(Not a native English speaker.. do forgive)
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Walking with great haste through the halls of Asgard, but careful of not hurting his brother further, yelling to his friends, who came to him as soon as they saw him walking in, that they should get the best healers immediately! They stare for a bit, wondering if the being in his arms is who they think he is, but run then to get the healers after seeing Thor's look.
He makes his way to his chambers, putting the fallen prince down ever so gently on his bed, brushing away a few strands of hair before feeling his cold cheeks. He quickly checks him all over to see which pieces of armor he can safely remove without doing more damage. Before long the healer walks in the room, immediately shocked by the poor state the fallen prince is in.
She orders one of her trainee's to get a bowl of warm water and multiple washcloths, another a lot of blankets, and the last one a lot of bandages. She then goes to work quickly, checking Loki the same way Thor had and carrying on with his work of removing the armor bit by bit without causing to much damage and bleeding.
When the trainees return she quickly goes to work with cleaning his wounds, shying Thor to the edge of the room and out of her way, telling him to get a good fire going in the fireplace. She stitches the worst wounds, to stop any bleeding. Then starts on checking his bones for fractures. Her first priority are his ribs for they are sticking inwards into his body and into his lungs. Using some magic she carefully pulls them back while having one of her trainees stopping the internal bleeding as best as he can.
She then tries to get his collapsed lung to heal enough to work again. When his lungs are restored enough and he starts to breath just a little bit better than before she focuses on any other internal damage of which she restores the worst, just so that all the organs will work and keep working. After which she finally gets to the remainder of the cuts and bruises, doing her best to put spells on them to let them heal a bit faster.
After having him cleaned up, and bandaged she tucks him in with as many blankets as possible, telling Thor to keep an eye on his temperature as best as he can, warning her if he doesn't warm up at least a bit within the hour. She then leaves with her trainees, telling Thor that she will be back for regular check ups throughout the night, and that it is best to stay by his side, in case something goes wrong. Having him last through the night is priority now. Thor then nods gratefully at the healer woman, the best one at the court, one full of kindness and fondness of the two princes, even after all that had happened. She had been their healer from when they were kids.
He then takes a seat on the edge of the bed, gently grabbing Loki's hand in his own. 'Ow.. Loki.. why has this happened?' he asks sadly, feeling the cold fingers as he gently starts rubbing them warm. 'But no matter what has happened.. I will get you back.. By my side.. where you belong.. Close to me.. my dearest friend..' he slowly lets his hand go more upward towards Loki's wrist, slowly warming them as well with his own fierce warmth.
Ignoring his own injuries, which truly seem trivial to him right now, he tries to slowly heal his fallen friend in his own little way, doing what he can no matter how little it helps. He slowly directs his eyes to Loki's pale features, even more pale than what they normally blue of his lips however is slowly starting to disappear, turning his lips pale as well. Still it looks healthier than what they looked like before.
He lost so much blood, his body so mangled by the fight, the hulk and the fall. But it seemed mangled before.. the ever so clear eyes seemed dull and clouded when he spoke to him on that mountain after he had pulled him out of that plane. Clouded and tired. His entire being looked troubled. His composure much more frail than usual.. his body even thinner,
too thin. His features almost gray, like the life had been sucked from him. Everything about him worried Thor, and he attempted again and again to reach out to him.. only to fall further away, only to add to the insanity in which he thought his brother was..
It wasn't until he held him in his arms while they were going back to Asgard and he saw that grief stricken look Loki gave him when he apologized and attempted to kill himself once more, the tears that rolled over his cheeks that later froze in the snow, that his thoughts went deeper than that insanity.. That Loki was still Loki, through all that happened. He had shown emotions towards Thor, pain, regret, confusion, anger and disappointment.
He will save his brother tonight.. he will" is what his heart is calling out to him while he gently strokes Loki's neck, a habit that he has had for so long now.. Always a way of reaching out to him. An easy way of holding him close, not letting him escape.. He won't let him escape now,
He had been confused by what Angel had said at first, after she had met him. Scolding Thor for what he had said about his brother being adopted, blaming the 'bag of cats on that'. And that she had seen so much more in his eyes than that bag of cats.. And that they we're all being fools. Blaming Loki for something that most of them had done as well, more or less.
They all had dark pasts in one way or another. He hadn't understood how she could stick up for Loki even after what she had heard about what he did. And he himself couldn't really stand up for Loki at all, giving in at the slightest argument. How did she know him so much better than Thor? The way that she refused to go up to stark tower to finish the fight. Standing by Thor at the decision not to harm Loki any further. Standing up to the rest of the avengers without having spend any real time with Loki at all..
What had she seen in his eyes, that she could hold such a conviction, to call all of them fools to justify their own actions with answers to violence, the way she pretty much slammed her own body into that of the Hulk to save Loki.. what.. had she seen.. he wanted to know so badly..
Tony told them she could look into someone's soul just by looking in to their eyes. See their heart.. If they are good or evil.. What their sins are.. What their pasts are and possibly if they will do good in the future..
That gift troubled him but also triggered his curiosity. She was so easy with judging people. Telling them they are heartless fools.. Calling them names fitting for their actions that she shouldn't even have a know of. Deciding whether someone deserves to live of die.. Loki deserves to live, he knows that himself.. but what had happened exactly to turn, what according to Angel is apparently a good soul, into what he had become. He had almost wished for her to be here right now to enlighten his thick head with some much needed reality, as she would probably put it.
Something stirred beneath his hand suddenly. His eyes shoot to Loki, but he lies still once more. He gently feels at the fingers. Had he moved them? He truly hoped so.
The rest of the night turned slowly, waiting of and on for the healer to come and check. Carefully trying to rub some warmth into Loki's body. And dozing of into some rest of his own, but waking up from dark dreams almost immediately.
About an hour before morning comes he hears a soft knock on the door followed by his mother who slowly and a bit shyly walks into the room until she sees her youngest son in the state he is in. She then hurries to his side and drops beside the bed, immediately grabbing his hand.
'My son.. ow my beautiful son..' she starts crying, seeing the poor state Loki is in. 'you brought him back Thor.. you brought him back.' 'Of course mother..' Thor softly says. Frigga moves up from the floor to sit on the edge of the bed, not letting go of Loki's hand. 'He is so cold... will he?!.. Please tell me he..' 'We don't know yet.. his chances will be better if he lasts through the night. He has made it this far.. let us hope he will for the remainder.' she nods quietly while she slowly brings her other hand to his cheek. Still shocked by how cold he feels. 'Why did you not send for me sooner?' she then asks softly. 'I didn't want you.. to worry.. and...I.. I did not know how you would react.. To me bringing him back here..' Frigga then looks at him with sadness clear in her eyes.
'I just wanted you to bring him back.. alive... and you did.. I am his mother as well as yours Thor. If this were to happen to you, I wouldn't care what you had done... I would just want you back with me.' Thor smiles softly for the first time that night.
'Now you should go and get your injuries cleaned up as well, and get some rest.. you look a mess Thor' Frigga starts scolding him and Thor can't help but smile some more. 'Will you stay with him?' 'For as long as my body can bear, and even if I have to fall asleep here, I will stay.' 'Then I shall make sure to return as soon as I have rested a bit, and cleaned myself up, to take over from you once more. I do not want to leave his side myself, but I trust him to be as safe with you as with me.' Frigga nods.
'And how about father?' Thor asks while he stands up. 'He knows your back.. and that you brought Loki... And I do believe that he wants to come.. but that he is a bit frightened as well for it. He has felt such regret Thor... you must understand it is not easy for him to understand his own error and to act to it. But I feel that he will come.. sooner or later..' 'I just hope he will speak to Loki as the father that he once was.' Thor says softly, fearful for his father's reactions.
A few hours later Thor comes back, finding his mother still duty-fully beside Loki, softly caressing his cheek with a love only a mother can muster. 'How is he?' Thor asks softly, stirring her from her peaceful state. She looks up and smiles at him softly, happy to see that Thor looks a bit more rested now. 'He is slowly getting warmer. The healer said the initial danger is over, and now he just needs time and rest. We just have to hope that he will wake up soon so we can get him to eat a bit. So that he will get his strength back, he will heal with more ease then.' Thor nods and takes a seat on the other side of the bed. 'You should rest a bit now mother, you have been awoken in the middle of the night and have sat here for a while now. I will stay by his side for now. His mother looks a bit conflicted, but after getting a reasuring glance from her oldest son, she nods and stands to take her leave. 'Please let me know if anything changes'.
He looks so peaceful.. now that he is sleeping soundly. Finally getting a bit of his complexion back. Not the way he looked back on earth, so influenced by the tesseract. Giving him a sickly gray taint, darkness around his eyes. Now he is getting his normal pale complexion back, but with the healthy glow he always possessed. The dark around his eyes disappearing.
Thor softly takes Loki's hand in his own again, caressing the thin fingers softly. 'How could someone as soft and sweet as you have done such horrible things..' Thor says quietly 'Even though you were always mischievous, you have never truly wanted to harm someone. You always stood by my side in battle, saved my back so many times, and not just mine. What has caused you such pain to make you stray so far?.. To make you hate me that much.' he adds with sadness in his voice.
He feels the stir of Loki's fingers again. Suddenly alert he looks to his brother while clasping his hand. "Loki.. can you hear me?' he asks softly, but no answer. Thor goes to sit a bit closer and moves his fingers over Loki's cheek, towards his neck. 'Loki.. please wake up soon.. do not leave me in such distress, I beg of you. Have you not made me worry enough?' he says with a small smile.
'You made me think that you had died to many times now.. first.. at the bridge.. when you fell.. ow how I have mourned you. And then you go and do it again, by the hands of the Hulk this time.. And if that was not enough.. When I finally thought you safely back in my arms.. you force me to lose you once more.. Of all the things that you have done.. that was the cruelest. Making me watch you fall once more.' Thor then brings his forehead to Loki's before he kisses his cheek softly.
'Don't fall from me, ever again..' He suddenly feels the twitch of Loki's fingers again, followed by a soft moan. Thor alert again, close by his side. 'Loki..?' another small moan, pained and tired. 'Loki I'm here.. if you are awake.. please..' Thor tries, not really finding the words he so strongly feels in his heart. A sudden painful breath before Loki's eyes flutter open. Another pained moan leaving his mouth. 'Ow Loki, I had wished for you to wake.. But you are in such pain, it almost makes me wish for you to fall asleep again.' he says softly caressing the raven hair. Loki tries to focus his blurred vision, suddenly confused as to where he is and why he is not dead.
'T-Thor?' he speaks weakly. 'Yes bro.. Loki. I am here, and you are safe.. at last.' Thor speaks softly with as much tenderness as he can muster. 'Wh.. what ha..ppened?' Loki asks meekly. 'To put it bluntly.. you pulled another of your pranks.. and had me search for you for hours before I finally found you again..' Thor says, trying to sound lighthearted, but failing. 'Thor...' '..Rest.. brother.. you need to regain some strength. We shall speak at a later time when you are more fit.' He softly caresses his cheek again while Loki drifts back into unconsciousness.
Thor then quickly goes to find the healer and to speak to his mother.
About a day later Loki wakes up once more, at last. Thor has been by his side the entire time, hoping for him to wake up again soon. Giving him hope for his recovery.
He now is able to stay awake with a bit less pain. Thor very carefully gets him to drink some water. Loki to tired to protest, just gratefully having some fluids roll through his roughed and dry throat.
Then very carefully he helps Loki sit up a bit against the pillows so he can try to eat a bit. But Loki refuses, to tired.. still to determined not to live on like this.. Stubbornness winning from hunger. 'Loki.. you must eat..' Thor utters, saddened. A slight pang of guilt going through Loki's heart. 'Just a little bit.. please..' Thor tries, but Loki moves his face to the side. Refusing to even let him try.
Thor sighs, clearly lost for what he is supposed to do. He then grunts a bit, frustration very clear, frightening Loki a little. Thor then takes one of the pieces of fruit in his own mouth and chews it slightly before he grabs hold of Loki's neck, forcing his face toward his own before he puts his lips over Loki's, forcing open his mouth before forcing the food into his throat. Loki surprised. He tries to protest, but he is to weak and the shock withholds him from moving his muscles.
He starts to cough, but it does not stop Thor from continuing, roughly. Forcing the food into his body. Tears stream down his cheeks from utter shock and the horrible sensation of having to choke but not being able to. Forced to swallow the food.
Thor raises himself up again checking to see if Loki has indeed swallowed the food. A bit grieved, that this had to be this way. But at the same time necessity has won from his own guilt. 'Are you going to make me do this the hard way.. or shall you try yourself.' he asks rhetorically while Loki weeps softly.
Thor lets him weep for a bit, not comforting him, not regretting what had to be done. Then he takes another bit of fruit and offers it to Loki who has calmed down a bit, only softly sobbing. He holds in another sob to open his mouth slightly, allowing Thor to feed him the piece of fruit. He then very slowly tries to chew, finding great difficulty in even this movement, but succeeding in the end. Swallowing painfully, driven by the fear of Thor forcing him again.
'There you go.. just one more piece and I will leave you alone for a bit.' Thor tries to negotiate. Loki opens his mouth again for a bit, allowing another slice of fruit to be pushed into his mouth before he starts chewing. Fearful and ashamed he is just glad Thor will leave him be for a bit after this. Thor keeping his promise, as soon as Loki has swallowed, he stands up from the bed and leaves the room. 'I will be back to check on you soon, try to rest now.' he says, back to his calm and gentle state.
That evening Thor checks on him again, finding his mother by his side. 'Has he been awake again?' Thor asks but Frigga shakes his head. 'He was awake for a bit when I came to him, but he was to tired and quickly fell back to sleep.' she says sadly, caressing her youngest son's cheek softly. 'Do not worry mother' Thor says comforting her. 'He will be okay, it will just take some time. We must be patient.' 'The sadness I saw in his eyes, the grief and pain.. I cannot stand seeing him like this.' Frigga says softly. 'No matter what he did.' she sighs. 'You should get something to eat and some rest, I will stay with him for the night' Thor said soothing.
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A couple of these days went by, Loki being able to stay awake a bit longer every time. Gaining some more strength each day, being nursed by his used to be mother and his used to be brother until he finally couldn't stand it anymore.
'Why...' he states simply, still weak, but with enough strength to get Thor his attention. 'Why what?' Thor asked confused. 'Why did you save me.. why..' 'Because you belong here..' Thor says carefully. 'No... after all I did.. after all those times I pushed you away.. Why.. did you still follow me into the abyss.' 'Because I care, Loki.. I didn't want you dead.. nor even injured.. so what choice did I have' 'No.. No! you shouldn't have.. You should have let me die.. You should have given me at least that much..' Loki says, emotion thick on his voice. 'Loki..' 'No... after all that has happened.. I just wanted to die.. finally just.. be free.. from... from..' 'from what...?' Thor askes darkly. '..From you..'
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Thor sighs and goes to sit on the side of the bed again. 'Why... why do you hate me so Loki?' he then asks meekly to which Loki is silent for a while 'Because.. I am sick of always being one step behind you..' Thor looks at him confused. 'What do you mean.. I always kept you at my side..' 'Is that truly what you think..' Loki says sarcastically. 'Every war, every battle that we went to.. I fought defending your back, trying to keep you out of trouble.. Cleaning up your messes... Trying to save you so badly.. And what did I get back...'
Bitterness tracing every one of Loki's words. 'Having to watch you get all the honor, showered in praise while I was being called the trickster.. Only having plans of mischief.. Always looked down upon by everyone.. The warrior three.. Sif... Odin... You..' 'I have never looked down on you!' Thor tries to argue. 'Then why did you yell at me that I should know my place!' Loki says, bitterly. Thor looks at him shocked. 'Know my place?.. You mean that place in the shadows.. as your pathetic little brother who does nothing but play silly little tricks..' Loki spat 'Not worthy of anything but sneers and being made fun of! Never having the slightest chance of having the throne.. Not that I even wanted that.. I only wanted to be your equal.. But I wasn't even allowed that..' Loki's rage suddenly dies down. Tiredness taking over once more.
'You should have let me die Thor..' he then says softly. 'Loki..' Thor then speaks. 'I'm so sorry.' 'Don't be... it doesn't even matter anymore..' 'Yes it does! It hurt you.. it's still hurting you.. I don't want you hurt anymore.. What I said was a mistake..' Thor puts his hand on Loki's leg, feeling the need to reassure him physically. As he always had when they were growing up. 'But you have to believe me..' Thor continues 'All this time. I have never looked down on you.. I have never felt anything but amazement for you. The way you were able to strategize. How you thought before you acted and used smart ways to win battles instead of my brute force which endangered our comrades.. The complete opposite of me.' Thor says sincerely.
Loki looks at him confused. 'I have always thought of you as more of a king than me... so much more suitable.. Every aspect of a king that I don't possess, you possess to it's fullest. That is why I wanted you by my side.. in every war.. every battle.. You completed me.. My fails you correct... And so I am so sorry for what I said, for I was a fool.. driven by raging emotions instead of a clear thinking mind.. Selfish.. But I have changed.. I have changed Loki.. and I want to show that to you..' Thor sighs before he brings his hand to Loki's neck again, pulling him a bit more towards him.
'I need you now, by my side, more then ever before. As equals.' 'Thor..' Loki states confused. 'We can never be equals.. no matter how much you say you want to.. You will be king.. and I.. If I won't rot in prison.. will never even..' 'For someone who is so intellectual, are you not missing some small but important little rules?' asks Thor as he then brings Loki closer once more before his lips crash onto the smaller, raven haired beauty's.
Loki taken completely by surprise, paralyzed in shock, but forced by Thor's persistence and strength to give in to the kiss, forced to move his lips in sync, like a perfect fit, closing his eyes and stopping his breathing until the kiss was broken. This had felt nothing like what Thor had felt like before when he force fed him. No, this kiss had been strong, but gentle at the same time, giving Loki time to react. It was forceful and raw though, but it had felt.. good?' even more confused now Loki simply stared at Thor. I do hope you do not truly hate me Loki.. for all this time I have felt nothing but love for you.' Thor then says softly, caressing Loki's neck.
'But... that woman..?' Loki says meekly. 'Jane?' Loki nods confused. 'Jane has given me so much, taught me so much.. Helped me redeem myself. Helped me find that there are more things worth fighting for than pride.. And to win a battle.. And I will always love her for that.. For all she has given me.' Thor grins slyly when he sees a hint of disappointment in Loki's eyes.
'But when I came back to Midgard.. and I saw you fall.. I realized.. There is only one person who truly means the world to me.. Who I would chase till the ends of our universe and beyond.. Just to have him by my side.. just for that.. And that is you.' a sudden very uncharacteristical blush creeps upon Loki's features as he just sits there, confused look adorning his face.. All the rage and grief from before.. turned into his new sheep-like state. Thor can't help but smile before he returns to being serious.
'Loki.. no matter what happened.. I know you had your reasons... Though I do not know all your reasons and I do not know what happened to you in the time between when you fell.. and when you arrived on earth..' Thor says softly
'And even though I am saddened how your love and affection for everything and everyone around you turned into such hatred..' Loki looks at his blankets at this comment, feeling shame bubbling up deep inside before Thor continues. 'But I love you.. And.. I truly hope you feel the same way about me..' He is eyeing Loki carefully 'If you can find a way to.. look past everything that has happened, and try to remember the real me..' Loki still looking at his blanket suddenly begins to sob. Thor immediately putting his hand on his shoulder, but Loki shrugs it of.
'Have you forgotten what I am..?' he then asks with heartbreak evident in his voice. 'Loki...' 'Am I not the monster.. we were told about in stories when we were children..' Thor his eyes open in surprise. 'Loki.. no..' but he keeps on sobbing. 'You listen to me now.. yes you are a Jotun by blood, and you are also an Asgardian, raised here.. fed here, played here, grew here.. You grew up to be an asgardian, that counts for at least as much, and to my believe much more. And even if you are jotun by blood.. blood does not make someone in to the kind of person he is. You yourself do.'
Thor puts his hand on Loki's cheek, making sure he can see the honesty in his eyes. 'You may be Jotun by race.. but I love you for it.. you are different.. but still you have already proven all those stories wrong.. you have single handedly proven those myths about all the frostgiants being monsters.. to be wrong.. For you are not a monster.. you are you.. You are the one I love.. and I could not love a monster.' 'But I am a monster..' Loki says continuing his sobbing while Thor takes him into an embrace. 'Stop telling yourself lies.. Lies for goodwill are one thing.. but lying to break your own heart.. I cannot tolerate. 'You are not a monster, you are Loki of Asgard, Jotun and Asgardian, combined into such a perfect and beautiful being.' he kisses Loki's temple softly.
'Just for once.. just this one time.. take my word for it.. trust that I am not as foolish as I may sometimes look.. that I am right about this and you were wrong.. Just this once.' Thor says. He then shifts Loki so they face each other again, eyes red and puffy, tear streaks down his cheeks. Thor places his hand on his cheek once more and wipes the tears away before he gently places another kiss on Loki's lips. 'Jotun, Asgardian, and my lover, if you should want to. You can play all the tricks of the world on me then.' Thor says smiling softly before kissing him once more, feeling how Loki softly leans into the kiss, lifting his arms and putting them around him. Thor wraps his arms around Loki as well, softly rubbing his back.
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