Author's Note: So, I woke in a good mood and decided to give you all a peek at the story eariler than I said.
DISCLAIMER: Stephenie Meyer, along with Little, Brown and Company, owns all the rights to the Twilight Saga. I own nothing and profit nothing from this story.
Even if I could consciously block out the memories of my past, they could still seep through into my dreams. I had fallen asleep only a few minutes after take off, thinking I could escape the reminiscence that my mind wanted. The dream started just moments before the event that changed my life forever. Right before the moment that my world came crashing down.
I was sitting on our log at First Beach with Jacob. My Jacob. Everything in life seemed perfect at the moment. We had been together since I finally opened my eyes to see the incredible man that pulled me out of my darkness. Spring break of my senior year, over six months after Edward left me, Victoria struck hard. The pack took her out, along with her created help. It was a close call, but none of the pack was lost. After that day, I realized what Jacob had done for me, what he would do for. It was time to let Edward go and open my heart to Jacob. And I did whole heartedly. We spent the next four months in a happy bliss. Jacob became my everything. I loved him more than I thought I ever could after Edward. I gave him all I had.
Sitting on the beach we were in a post-event bliss. Only the night before had we finally made love to one another for the first time. It was slightly awkward at first, seeing as we were both virgins, but it ended in pure ecstasy. I had never felt such a high before. I didn't sleep much that night, but it didn't matter now that I was back into his arms. Right where I believed that I belonged. We never discussed imprinting. It was always in the back of my mind and surfaced often in Leah's presence, but I never focused on it. Jacob always assured me that I never had any need for worry. That he would never love another and that he would never leave me. I believed him because he was so sure. Even Sam had commented that Jacob's love for me was almost comparable to imprint love. Our love was strong and I never doubted that it would be enough. I deserved happiness and I had finally found it.
We were wrapped in each other's arms in our own personal world. We were whispering sweet nothings to one another. Jacob never tired of telling me how beautiful I was or how much he loved me. And I never grew tired of hearing them; instead I lived for those little words. We were just sitting, staring into each other's eyes when a shadow fell upon us. We both ignored it, too entranced by the other.
"Excuse me, could you help me?" I heard a voice say from behind Jacob. I looked up to see a girl, a teenager, probably around seventeen looking at me. She was undeniably beautiful, tall with long black hair, tanned skin, and a warm smile. She was obviously of Native American decent.
"Yes." I answered, really just wanting to get back to Jacob, who had yet to take his eyes off of me.
"I was told that there was a path that would lead to the general store near here and I can't seem to locate it. Could you point me in the right direction?"
"Um, yeah, just keep walking down the beach. It's about what, Jake, maybe a hundred yards down?" I asked looking back at Jacob. He blinked and shook his head a little, giving me a small smile.
"Yeah, if you pass the 'Swim at your own risk' sign you've gone too far," he said. Then he turned around and pointed down the beach. "Do you see that fallen tree?"
"Yeah," the girl answered looking down the beach.
"It's just passed it."
"Oh, okay, thanks," she said still looking down the beach. "I'm Katie, by the way," she continued to say turning around. "I just moved here," she added looking back at Jacob. I saw him stiffen from behind. He didn't respond, just stood perfectly still. The girl looked at him expectantly. After a moment he took a step back away from her.
"Oh, God. No, no, no, no. This isn't happening." He started mumbling to himself, shaking his head vehemently. "I didn't - I- no." Katie was now staring at Jacob like he had problems, as was I. What is wrong with him? I wondered. I stood up and walked around to see him. He turned to look at me with pained eyes. "Bella, I-" He didn't finish, but his breathing was becoming ragged.
"Jacob, what's wrong?" I asked concerned closing the distance between us. I reached up to cup his face in my hand and he flinched away like I had burned him with my touch. "Jake, baby?" I said hurt.
"I'm so sorry, Bella." I was confused. I didn't know what he had to be sorry for. He gave the girl directions. What was bad about that? As I was trying to figure it out, I noticed him giving the girl anxious looks, as if he was afraid she would disappear. That's when it hit. He imprinted. "I'm sorry. I didn't-" I cut him off.
"Don't," I said emotionless.
"Bells," he pleaded. I stared at the girl that just took my love away. My Jacob. My life. She looked uncomfortable with what was happening, like she was looking for a way to leave. I couldn't help but wish she had never been born. I wasn't sure how I could survive this again. I wouldn't have my best friend to put me together again.
I looked back at Jacob, who looked torn and anguished. I felt numb, I couldn't feel anything. I could see a single tear fall down his cheek. I closed the distance between us once again, and laid a kiss on his cheek taking away his tear. I leaned into his ear.
"I love you always, good-bye, Jacob." And with that I left. I walked down the beach fighting off the emotions and feelings that were trying to escape. I just wanted to remain numb. I didn't want to feel the pain I knew would soon find and encompass me. As I approached the woods I took off sprinting, trying to outrun the pain.
I woke up gasping for air, burying my face in my hands. I started taking deep breaths in and out. I wouldn't allow myself to cry. Not over Jacob Black. Not again. He wasn't mine, and so I wouldn't waste anymore tears on him. I still loved Jacob, like I told him, I always would. I unfastened my seat belt and headed for the bathroom. I threw some cold water on my face and looked in the mirror. In six short months, I had changed significantly. I hardly recognized the woman in the mirror. Six months could show more change than I thought possible. I headed back for my seat and saw the fast seat belt sign come on. We were making the decent into Denver. I would try and hold my memories until I at least got on the next flight. I would occupy my time and thoughts during my layover with eating lunch.
Author's Note: Okay, so now you have a little bit of a better idea of what is going on. Also, I am going to try and not make us all hate Jacob. After all you can't choose who you imprint on. So give him a chance and don't call him an a**hole yet. FYI: if you didn't notice the chapter was much shorter than my other stories. Most likely it will stay this way. As I wrote each chapter they all kind of left off at this same point of around 1,400 words. Next Update Monday. Waiting in the Sunlight update will be tomorrow (11/18) morning.
