I looked at the note Charlie handed to me, My Heart pounded in my ears¾It was from Jake. It had been awhile since I had any contact with him. I could already sense the frustration of the letter.
I sat out on the tail gate of my truck letting the cool breeze touch my warm skin and whipping my hair about. There was no sun. He was hurt, reading the note over. I sighed running my fingers across the page, feeling the dents. I didn't want to imagine how angry he must have felt writing this. Looking at each crossed out line hurt. But worse than that was the pain of know how hurt Jake must be was immensely distressing. I folded the paper back up and shoved it into my pocket, before going inside to get dinner ready.
I couldn't take it. Grounded or not I had to see him, I thought looking out the window as I put the last of the dishes away. I grabbed my truck keys and was about to leave when I saw Edward standing at the door.
"Where you going somewhere? Your grounded aren't you?" He looked at the keys in my hand, as I turned toward the clock as the minute hand stuck 7. I forgot, how did I forget that he was going to come. Everything inside me crumbled, I couldn't see him tonight. Then when?
"Oh." I looked at the keys in my hand again. " I was just going out to lock the truck doors." I explained. "I could do it later." I smiled taking a seat at the table. Edward took a seat beside me taking my hands in one of his and stroking my face with the other. "How was your afternoon?"
"It was nothing much." I said, feeling all the effects that he had on me. He brought my hands up to his face and gently kissed my palms sending a cold shiver throughout my body.
He started to make conversation about college, pulling out a stuffed manila folder and some stamps. But after awhile the only thing I could think about at the moment wasn't him or college. It was Jake. A question at every corner of my mind. What was he doing? Was he mad at me still? Judging by the letter maybe a little if not a whole lot. Why all of a sudden.
"Bella?. . . . Bella?" I noticed it had gotten quiet, and looked up at my gorgeous boyfriend. Whose liquid golden eyes were looking at me in bewilderment. Searching my expression, for any hint of what might be going on in my head. But that word felt foreign. Boyfriend, it didn't feel right. What was it that he wanted. Ah yes that's right. He wanted to marry me, to be his fiancée. Ugh. I shuddered away from the thought. Boyfriend or fiancée, I use to think being with him was fate or destiny. He was my personal miracle. What are my feelings for him? I stared at him trying to think. Think of anything, what was I feeling right now? He smiled warmly at me. Happy, I was feeling happy.
"Bella? Are you feeling alright?" He touched my face lightly with him cold hand and I shivered. It was so different from Jakes extremely warm touch.
" Yeah. I'm fine. Just thinking about some things." Than I felt guilty for even thinking let -alone questioning my feelings for him. I should be happy, and I was happy that he was back and safe, and mine. I was glad- as I was glad I was the one person whose thoughts remained a mystery to Edward.
" Oh? And what are those things?"
"College, I forgot to mention I got accepted to the University of Alaska today." I smile brightly at him. This is what we wanted somewhere far away, as well as having all the best conditions for a vampire and a vampire to be. That way I can't hurt anybody.
Edward smiled " Congratulations. What a coincidence so did I."
For that moment, at least for now Edward was My priority. OMG! I forgot. I thought. I'm not grounded any more. So going over to see Jake wouldn't have been a problem, Since dad had been talking about balancing my friends. I.e. Jacob. I laughed "Edward. I'm not grounded."
